Those whose parents are still alive.

[girlsboysthems]

I was at a therapy session a few days ago and the therapist asked me *if I do ctb myself* (but i wont i dont promise nun) to leave behind a note to people explaining what I did and why. The thing is mostly about my parents, because they do not know I am ill or suicidal and they[therapist] wanted me to leave them[parents] something to explain why I did what I did. The thing is my parents saw me exhibiting signs of depression and anxiety and they knew about my self-harm and never did anything/ thought of getting me some help in any shape or form (all throughout childhood and adolescence).
I know this is going to sound very mean and egotistical but I don't think they deserve to know this story and my reasons.

what about you guys? anyone leaving anything behind?

 

[jodes2]

Parents, brother and girlfriend

 

[FuneralCry]

I would never feel guilty about leaving parents behind as after all they were the ones who selfishly and unnecessarily brought me into this horrific world in the first place, so if people don't want to deal with loss then they shouldn't procreate.

But I personally would choose to write a note as I don't hate them and the note could potentially act as a form of closure, but I do understand why many people wouldn't wish to leave a note.

 

[Ultracheese]

I have considered leaving a note, but I don't know if it would make the situation worse. I don't believe my parents would benefit in any way from knowing my trauma. I don't know if knowing why I did it would give them any closure or if it would just make them more upset. I may change my mind in the future, but as of now, I don't plan on leaving one.

 

[randy]

I suppose I'm lucky - I have no siblings, my father is dead and my mom probably doesn't have much longer to live. I can wait it out until she passes. Otherwise I'd be bridge shopping this afternoon

 

[Ligottian]

My parents died in 2016 and 2017 respectively. Both were in their 80's. As I've posted here before, I took a vow not to ctb before both had died.

 

[hellispink]

You don't have to explain absolutely anything to anyone (only you know whose are those) that made you feel like you didn't matter. You do not owe them any explanation unless you wanted to. If there is doubts probably because it's not something that comes from your heart if you do it but from pressure. Don't pressure yourself to do things you dont want.

 

[lredmage]

It's your right to be angry and if you feel like you don't owe them that then you don't.

 

[mafuyu]

Personally, I can't figure out what I would want to do. I'm the kind of person who believes you should be able to basically read my mind. I don't owe you an explanation, but at the same time, I know that's not realistic, but it's also not my concern of what anybody thinks after I'm gone.

 

[looking_for_peace]

I've been frequenting suicide bereavement forums for quite some time to see whether or not suicide notes would help the people we leave behind. From what I've read, you shouldn't be TOO honest. Just let them know you love them, and that you are sorry. Letting them know exactly why you ctb'd doesn't seem to be a good idea, because of how powerless they are once we are gone. Ignorance is bliss.

 

[chloramine]

I have notes for friends and one collective one for my family. In part so that they have contact information so somebody can hopefully let people know not to expect me to show up and in part so they don't think it was impulsive. The thought of my death being blamed on say not getting a certain job pisses me off, so I took steps to try and avoid that.

 

[RopeMaxxed]

I cannot CTB as they're alive.
They deserve at least this much from a loser son.

 

[nopride86]

I thought about it, but I don't think it would mean much…seeing as my motivations to CTB stem from a dysfunctional family system. Maybe I'd just do a one-liner, like "sometimes to break the cycle you have to remove yourself completely" or something like that.

Let me put it this way, if your parents play a role in your decision to die, they aren't owed anything. Venting would only serve you. Most likely they wouldn't internalize your words any more than they did when you were alive.

 

[Timeless]

My parents and family already read my goodbye notes , but that try failed (was so close even in the hospital they had problems keeping me alive)















Bunow my dear one's know of my chronic nerve pain which will be forever. As soon as my life quality is below tolerable I'll end It.







They know my views and my mom is also suicidal so she understands it well. I can actually talk to her about it which makes out relationship so precious .







But I'm not going to suffer cause other people want me alive.





I never gave concent for my birth either. It's everyone owns choice. Even my lawyer agrees and says yes that's also the law. You can end it whenever you want. But she is very kind and even helps me sometimes.

Those are my 2 cents

 

[Unsure and Useless]

I would be leaving behind a close friend and someone who loves me (I think). I don't know about the latter, but I know the former would be heartbroken if I CTB. I'm just waiting until I ruin those relationships, like I always do.

 

[theboy]

Maybe they don't know how to help you

 

[dopaminedeath]

You're absolving yourself of the responsibility you have towards them. Responsibilities of being a family member. And causing the burden/suffering of having lost you in an inhumane way (to them). If you care about them that can translate to a note or something to help them through the grief and guilt. If not, then leave them in the dark.

 

[ithurtstobealive_AN]

I cannot CTB as they're alive.
They deserve at least this much from a loser son.

No, parents deserve to bury their kids. Remember that they expect you to watch them die and bury them. They have no problem making you experience loss. So don't feel bad for dying before them. Also, you're not a loser. The world we live in is the problem.

 

[dopaminedeath]

My parents died in 2016 and 2017 respectively. Both were in their 80's. As I've posted here before, I took a vow not to ctb before both had died.

What's kept you going in the five years since?

ideally parents go first. If I'm not ctb for them, I'd hate it if I'm just fooling myself and still stick around after they're gone

 

[Ligottian]

What's kept you going in the five years since?

Ha ha. I suppose things just haven't gotten unbearable enough.

 

[dopaminedeath]

Ha ha. I suppose things just haven't gotten unbearable enough.

Life finds a way ;)