Venting things are worse now and i cant kill myself

[f1lth]

Like my title says, things got worse for me over the past few months. My dog has passed away after 12 years, my therapist believes i have a confusing and hard to treat disorder that makes me feel like im losing my mind, i found out my partner of 8 years has been lying to me for years, and the main reason i cannot kill myself over these things is because a close friend of mine is due to give birth in April of this year. April 7th or 8th. I dont want to cause her a bunch of stress before her baby gets here, i also dont want to make her postpartum symptoms worse by killing myself so soon before her baby gets here. I do want to meet the baby too, im very excited for her. I am just so so tired of this. I dont want to live any longer.

 

[Freebandzgang]

You are very kind, just know that. choosing to stay because of your friend is a very empathetic thing to do. Its your choice, you can end your pain but cause your friend a lot of pain, or you can endure the pain you are in to prevent your friend from suffering. You are a good person.

 

[f1lth]

You are very kind, just know that. choosing to stay because of your friend is a very empathetic thing to do. Its your choice, you can end your pain but cause your friend a lot of pain, or you can endure the pain you are in to prevent your friend from suffering. You are a good person.

thank you so much, this honestly helped and made me cry