The thought of suicide trully hit me

[anyoneshorizon]

I've been thinking of suicide every day for almost 10 months. I've never really attempted apart from planning and sometimes going to the train tracks near my house or the top of buildings. The closest thing to attempt I've had was Filling a bag of nitrogen and then pulling it over my head I took it off in a few seconds. I am now trying again with SN I have painkillers, antiemetic, and the SN that is coming very soon. I wasn't feeling this before but now I'm getting nervous and scared. I'm thinking about the possibility of an afterlife and religion and it's stressing me a little bit. I'm thinking about my mother and family friends. I wonder what people will think maybe they won't be surprised, maybe they won't care. Part of me thinks maybe I will get better and have a good future, the part is telling me it hasn't and isn't gonna change no matter what, and doing this is mercy. I am thankful that I don't have to kill myself immediately and I'll always have that option. So when I decide to go it'll be peaceful.

 

[FuneralCry]

I know that for many people it can be a relief just having the option of a way to leave this world. None of us should have to feel as though we are trapped here with no way out. There is no evidence of an afterlife even existing, I believe that once we die we cease to exist and that is it for us, but after all we will have to face death someday, it's inevitable for us all, so there is no point to fearing it. I personally find the thought of death to be comforting.

 

[brokensea]

I've been thinking of suicide every day for almost 10 months. I've never really attempted apart from planning and sometimes going to the train tracks near my house or the top of buildings. The closest thing to attempt I've had was Filling a bag of nitrogen and then pulling it over my head I took it off in a few seconds. I am now trying again with SN I have painkillers, antiemetic, and the SN that is coming very soon. I wasn't feeling this before but now I'm getting nervous and scared. I'm thinking about the possibility of an afterlife and religion and it's stressing me a little bit. I'm thinking about my mother and family friends. I wonder what people will think maybe they won't be surprised, maybe they won't care. Part of me thinks maybe I will get better and have a good future, the part is telling me it hasn't and isn't gonna change no matter what, and doing this is mercy. I am thankful that I don't have to kill myself immediately and I'll always have that option. So when I decide to go it'll be peaceful.

You can always take some time and think about it. There is no rush and it's a big decision.

 

[Aeathelina]

There is no rush to end because it is the fate of everyone.

 

[theboy]

take the time to think about it. Do not rush or commit a CTB attempt on impulse.

 

[eldiablo666]

I know that for many people it can be a relief just having the option of a way to leave this world. None of us should have to feel as though we are trapped here with no way out. There is no evidence of an afterlife even existing, I believe that once we die we cease to exist and that is it for us, but after all we will have to face death someday, it's inevitable for us all, so there is no point to fearing it. I personally find the thought of death to be comforting.

Theres no evidence of afterlife not existing as well

 

[makethepainstop]

DATA DATA DATA, check up on preferred methods, find yours.....but research your subject! Failure to ctb can cause many problems. SO proceed with caution!