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[Brick In The Wall]

Yeah mushrooms is what I plan on doing, should I ever muster up the courage. I think cannabis made me fear psychedelics.

There's probably a few hundred different types of Psilocybin based Mushrooms. Some are more mild and introspective. Liberty Caps are generally one of the easiest to obtain.

I'd recommend a low dose of 2 or 3 Grams if you're hesitant. Once you get to the 4 or 5 Gram dose you generally start to have a more vivid experience.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I think my experience with psychedelics will help me consume the required poisons to CTB. I feel like my time is approaching no matter how hard I try to delay it.

 

[a.n.kirillov]

I think my experience with psychedelics will help me consume the required poisons to CTB. I feel like my time is approaching no matter how hard I try to delay it.

My experiment certainly took away some of my fears as well. Barbiturates are probably the best way to die short of dying of an orgasm.
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I feel like my time is approaching no matter how hard I try to delay it.

I feel you, I'm past my half assedly set date again as well.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

My experiment certainly took away some of my fears as well. Barbiturates are probably the best way to die short of dying of an orgasm.

Hallucinogenics are routinely a bit harsh and scary by nature. Vomiting and tachycardia as well as sweating bullets and other unpleasant side effects are to be expected.

They can also be lethal at times but you go into it thinking it won't be. All I have to do is tell myself it's just another trip...

 

[a.n.kirillov]

Hallucinogenics are routinely a bit harsh and scary by nature. Vomiting and tachycardia as well as sweating bullets and other unpleasant side effects are to be expected.

They can also be lethal at times but you go into it thinking it won't be. All I have to do is tell myself it's just another trip...

Wait are you planning to ctb by ODing psychedelics??

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Wait are you planning to ctb by ODing psychedelics??

Yes and no, my method of choice is a Psychonaut. 2M2B, it's the best of many worlds.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

If you're an asshole and you know it clap your hands!

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

What is up with the site tonight?? One guy posted looking for quick ctb methods if the cops come knocking at his door but was considering methods like train and SN, another has found a reason not to ctb because he found a right-wing anti-covid fringe group on social media and got invited to an irl party with them this weekend, and a new dude posted he got a bizarre email from A. Things have seemed increasingly weird on the site for a couple of days, are waves of troll attacks on the site a thing? I wish fightingsioux was here for this, he would have been scathing, and he always got away with that shit. LMFAO FOCKERS would also be having a blast.

 

[RM5998]

@GoodPersonEffed I remember getting into fights with the far-right types back when the site had a shoutbox... IMO, that design looked way better that the current chat system we have. Much cleaner.

@not_a_robot would probably have torn them to shreds as well.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I think my experience with psychedelics will help me consume the required poisons to CTB. I feel like my time is approaching no matter how hard I try to delay it.

Oh no, why? I thought you were in recovery? Whassup?

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Oh no, why? I thought you were in recovery? Whassup?

I'd like to continue recovery but Covid is wrecking me financially. I need to find work really soon.

 

[a.n.kirillov]

I have talked to some goats today – they are excellent listeners.

I'd like to continue recovery but Covid is wrecking me financially. I need to find work really soon.

are you actively looking?

 

[21Neberg]

Hope everyone in here is having a good day. I'm certainly not - I'm having issues with paranoid thoughts... my therapist called me psychotic. I don't like that word, it scares me. They made me fill out some questionnaires about things like hearing voices, seeing hidden messages and stuff. I don't hear voices! And yet they're talking about maybe giving me medicin for it. I don't want any of this... but I do want to know what is going on with me...

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Hope everyone in here is having a good day. I'm certainly not - I'm having issues with paranoid thoughts... my therapist called me psychotic. I don't like that word, it scares me. They made me fill out some questionnaires about things like hearing voices, seeing hidden messages and stuff. I don't hear voices! And yet they're talking about maybe giving me medicin for it. I don't want any of this... but I do want to know what is going on with me...

Sounds like they want to get you on anti psychotics. There's people on here with experience of those drugs who will give better advice than me. I'd personally stay clear of them though. Can't you explore the reasons for the paranoia with a psychologist maybe as an alternative to drugs?

 

[Lorntroubles]

So fucking bored, I can't fuck off to the library or fuck off to where I want to fuck off to!

 

[a.n.kirillov]

So fucking bored, I can't fuck off to the library or fuck off to where I want to fuck off to!

why? is the library closed? are you under arrest?

 

[Lorntroubles]

why? is the library closed? are you under arrest?

Quarantine

 

[a.n.kirillov]

that's why I buy the books I intend to read in the future; used books are cheap

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

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So much easier for the generation that grew up with the Internet and video games and discord servers!

 

[a.n.kirillov]

This quarantine could have been the time for a great awakening, because for once in their life, allmost everybody in society is forced into solitude. My expectations were quickly disappointed when I was invited to several skype pub quizzes and D&D groups, one week into the lockdown measures.

Somehow I expected everyone to become all introspective and philosophical

 

[21Neberg]

Sounds like they want to get you on anti psychotics. There's people on here with experience of those drugs who will give better advice than me. I'd personally stay clear of them though. Can't you explore the reasons for the paranoia with a psychologist maybe as an alternative to drugs?

That is indeed one of the reasons im scared of the meds. A family member of mine completely lost control of his life because of those medications.
Problem is.. I can't explain the reasons for the paranoia to my psychologist. I don't know. It's like this - I know the thoughts I have sometimes are completely irrational and that theyre simply untrue, yet everytime someone looks at me on the street I immediately think that there spying on me. Or that I am being watched by some higher group. I know that it's simply untrue and irrational, yet I keep having the thoughts. And I don't know the cause..

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I've never really experienced paranoia like that. I did go through a phase where I thought everyone hated me. And I have OCD, so my feelings of dread remain even though I know it doesn't matter how many times I close the damn door. That is a disconnect between rational thoughts and out of control emotions for me, that I've never been able to control. Is that similar in some way or am I completely off the mark? I'd still rather live with that dread than be on medications though.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I have talked to some goats today – they are excellent listeners.

are you actively looking?

Yes and no, I could probably be doing more then I have. I think part of me wants to fail so I have a reason.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

The tiny violin needs to be the standard instrument here.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Even this thread has died off alot.

 

[21Neberg]

I've never really experienced paranoia like that. I did go through a phase where I thought everyone hated me. And I have OCD, so my feelings of dread remain even though I know it doesn't matter how many times I close the damn door. That is a disconnect between rational thoughts and out of control emotions for me, that I've never been able to control. Is that similar in some way or am I completely off the mark? I'd still rather live with that dread than be on medications though.

You're not all that far off. I have experienced those thoughs of everyone hating me though, it has been that way for years so it doesn't bother me all that much anymore. It is the paranoia that I am being followed or watched that has only developed in the past couple of months though. I just don't know what to do...

 

[Soulless_Angel]

Even this thread has died off alot.

I started drinking at 230pm yesterday, didn't stop till 10pm and fuck the lockdown, all the neighbours got together and just had fun! 3 hours sleep.... I've had 3 hours sleep!

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I started drinking at 230pm yesterday, didn't stop till 10pm and fuck the lockdown, all the neighbours got together and just had fun! 3 hours sleep.... I've had 3 hours sleep!

That actually sounds like a typical day for me lol. Just sprinkle in some mushrooms or psychedelics.

 

[Epsilon0]

I don't feel that affected by the Corona virus. Life in Sweden goes on pretty much the same, except for the fact that travel is restricted and many work from home.
I find it very strange that the whole of Europe and the US have been quarantined for so many weeks, while here, in this corner of the world, we carry on (more or less) as usual.

Yesterday I had to go buy a new printer downtown and I was surprized to see so many people having lunch in the sun, sitting outside coffee shops drinking, or simply going in and out of shops.

If I didn't know there was a Corona pandemic, I could have sworn everything was allright.

 

[a.n.kirillov]

@Epsilon0 If I didn't know there was a Corona pandemic, I could have sworn everything was allright.

My argument exactly. Sweden is the only country that has reacted in a sane manner to this virus.

You should read the comment sections of some German newspapers ...