a.n.kirillov
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- Nov 17, 2019
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Yeah I can still select text
I cant
I canta.n.kirillov said:
Yeah I can still select text
Nope that shit aint' happening for me!Soulless_Angel said:
I cant
Awww, they grow up so fast!
Wow that's pretty deep, is there no chance of reconciliation at all? I don't really know what else to say except that I'm sorry for the pain you're suffering right nowI wrote my suicide note to my family and sent it to my email so that I could print it out. I am currently in bed, shaking and crying. My heart feels like it sank into the deepest portions of hell and still won't stop sinking. It is like an endless fall. Ever since I met him.. it's been like an endless fall.
When I met him, I told my sister this would be the one I died for.. Yet, I could not stop myself.
I loved that man so much that I destroyed the little that made me happy. This is all my fault. Last night was the last time he is ever going to hear from me and it hurt so bad. I have never loved a man this much.
Anyways, I will be calling my doc Monday for antiemetic. I could not leave this world soon enough. If I had a gun, I would shoot myself in the head right now. Death is scary but to stay alive without the man I love is a greater tragedy and I just want to get away from the pain. Nothing will bring him back.
I bought some of his merchandise and thought about wearing it the day I CTB but I'm thinking it would be too obvious why I did it. I just love..
I love you SO much. So, so very much. ♡
Yeah, that's really sad, sorry for what you are going through.I wrote my suicide note to my family and sent it to my email so that I could print it out. I am currently in bed, shaking and crying. My heart feels like it sank into the deepest portions of hell and still won't stop sinking. It is like an endless fall. Ever since I met him.. it's been like an endless fall.
When I met him, I told my sister this would be the one I died for.. Yet, I could not stop myself.
I loved that man so much that I destroyed the little that made me happy. This is all my fault. Last night was the last time he is ever going to hear from me and it hurt so bad. I have never loved a man this much.
Anyways, I will be calling my doc Monday for antiemetic. I could not leave this world soon enough. If I had a gun, I would shoot myself in the head right now. Death is scary but to stay alive without the man I love is a greater tragedy and I just want to get away from the pain. Nothing will bring him back.
I bought some of his merchandise and thought about wearing it the day I CTB but I'm thinking it would be too obvious why I did it. I just love..
I love you SO much. So, so very much. ♡
Well the lounge gota keep moving, I've been guilty of being a downer myself. People used to announce CTB plans in the sink and this may be the first one I've seen in the lounge.
Na no worries, this is a general thread so it wasn't out of place or anything. You have 4 options really, new thread, rage thread, lounge, or Sink thread.I apologize. I didn't know where else to put the post. I was hesitant about writing that here since it is the lounge but then again, it didn't fit in the rage thread either.
I didn't wanna make another thread dedicated to my whining. What do you suggest? Also thank you all for stomaching that whiny post without being rude. I'm not certain where to make post like that(?)
Na no worries, this is a general thread so it wasn't out of place or anything. You have 4 options really, new thread, rage thread, lounge, or Sink thread.
Hey anytime I'm here to help too, you can also PM most of us if you really need to talk. I'm always open to talking to people if they need help, as long as I'm not too busy. I do wish you the best though.I had no idea about the sink thread! Thank you. ♡
Hey anytime I'm here to help too, you can also PM most of us if you really need to talk. I'm always open to talking to people if they need help, as long as I'm not too busy. I do wish you the best though.
Hey well I'm here and I'm sure anyone else who's a regular in the lounge could say the same. You can say bitch too btw hahaha.Thanks a lot. I'll probably need to PM someone closer to my time to CTB. I'd also like to think I'm here to help but I'm just a whiny b***h. :')
I wish you the best too..whatever that may be. ♡
'twas a nightmareI hope everyone had a good weekend.
I definitely hear that, I won't go there though lol.'twas a nightmare
Fuuuck yea! Now that is good news!I received my temporary card for the MMJ registry! Now I just have to choose a dispensary that delivers to my borough.
Shit
You?
There's a friend I've been talking to from here for some time... Trying to discuss our daily troubles. Recently, they got incarcerated in an MH facility for, for m what I can gather, no good reason. We've been trying to get through the days till we both get out of our current shitty situations. Things were difficult for them since they weren't able to appeal their forced containment.
They haven't responded for over a week. I keep wondering if they are still alive. I requested them to tell me if they decided to CTB, I wanted to be able to say goodbye. I don't know if they are just indisposed right now, or they found a way to go through with it. If they're gone, I can't find it in myself to grudge them for their decision... But I hate the fact that I've been left hanging here. I know that they probably didn't have time to alert me, but I want to not be left behind like this, with no knowledge of whether I should grieve or wait.
It's tough when something like that happens. I've had a few similar circumstances on here. No idea what what happened.There's a friend I've been talking to from here for some time... Trying to discuss our daily troubles. Recently, they got incarcerated in an MH facility for, for m what I can gather, no good reason. We've been trying to get through the days till we both get out of our current shitty situations. Things were difficult for them since they weren't able to appeal their forced containment.
They haven't responded for over a week. I keep wondering if they are still alive. I requested them to tell me if they decided to CTB, I wanted to be able to say goodbye. I don't know if they are just indisposed right now, or they found a way to go through with it. If they're gone, I can't find it in myself to grudge them for their decision... But I hate the fact that I've been left hanging here. I know that they probably didn't have time to alert me, but I want to not be left behind like this, with no knowledge of whether I should grieve or wait.