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Someday_Somehow32

Someday_Somehow32

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Jul 20, 2022
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I've always drawn and written, it's just who I am. But I've finally reached the end. I can't write anymore, I'm so burnt out nothing feels right. I hate the feeling but it makes CTB a little more easy to think about.
 
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VioletNight

VioletNight

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Jan 24, 2023
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I can relate heavily, I feel worthless if I'm not creating something.

Burnout is completely normal in a field like that though, you should definitely try taking some time off and see if that helps.
 
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Lunareonn

Lunareonn

professional crashout artist
Feb 6, 2023
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I've always drawn and written, it's just who I am. But I've finally reached the end. I can't write anymore, I'm so burnt out nothing feels right. I hate the feeling but it makes CTB a little more easy to think about.

Same, my life goal is to create, it's my purpose.
I'm a media student, studying video editing and camera work, and I'm looking into writing a story and turning it into a horror series. Most likely analog horror as saturated as that market is.
 
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Source Energy

Source Energy

I want to be where people areN'T...
Jan 23, 2023
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I wanted to be a novelist when I was younger. I used to write beautifully. Now, my mind is empty. Everything that is about interactions among people creeps me out, and creative writing has people in it. Even reading is not a pleasure anymore, but to kill time. I just don't want to be here anymore, let alone read or write about the countless way we mistreat each other and how that makes life a "journey".
 
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Bitterman1996

Bitterman1996

Student
May 20, 2020
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Honestly i think creatives are partially cursed for having this drive of creating art and tying their self worth with it. It's self-torture. Well maybe not for some artist, it's hard to always 'enjoy the process' for me personally. I think even when i dont have art block and actually creates something well enough for my standards, there's ever lingering self doubt.

in the end just have to persevere and push through

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fell

fell

bpd, cptsd, bipolar 2, trying lots of things 💞
Feb 4, 2023
50
I also love creating. I feel it's why I'm in the world and it's what I want to do. It feels extremely hard when I'm depressed - I can't motivate myself to do anything, and it takes some "mental space" and distance from stress for me to create, which is really hard in our society. I feel always overworked, burnt out, stressed about work and finances - there's nothing left in the tank to create with 😞
 
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