idkwhatlol
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- Oct 18, 2024
- 19
I'm going to CTB sometime with my boyfriend. We don't have a fixed date, but he tells me he's ready whenever I am. I know it's going to be very soon though. I am stressed worrying about what if our plan fails, because if we're found before then, I might never see him again. Months of deliberation went into this, and we really can't have this fail. I feel as though I'm not ready to leave yet, but I've been suffering for years mentally and I haven't wished to live for years. He has been through a really troubled life as well, and I just want us to find peace together. I am committed to CTB'ing, because this attempt is not one that we can easily just try again later.