cowplantabduction
Beam me up, Scotty
- Jul 21, 2025
- 30
My roommates I've been essentially couchsurfing with (I've been unemployed for a year) are moving out and not taking me with them so I'm about to become homeless. I'm on the waitlist for shelters in my area and applying for public housing but I have to be out this month so it looks like I'll be going back to my abusive father's house until I get contacted by a shelter or by public housing.
My father lives about 3 or 4 hours away from where I live currently, and he lives in the middle of nowhere with no hope of me finding work since I can't drive and there's no public transportation there.
I've been pretty suicidal and seriously considering suicide, looking up methods and making plans but I have a hamster, my emotional support animal. I love him so much and I can't stand the thought of abandoning him. If I go I don't know what will happen to him, he could end up in an animal shelter, end up with people who don't know anything about proper hamster care, he could be put in a tiny cage instead of the 40 gallon tank I have him in now. He's such a skittish little guy but he trusts me, I spent a year building that trust. Ending my suffering would be perpetuating his, and that is unacceptable to me.
So it looks like I'm going to try to survive, for him. I'll go back to an environment I feel miserable and unsafe in but I'll survive it. Hopefully I won't be trapped there forever.
My father lives about 3 or 4 hours away from where I live currently, and he lives in the middle of nowhere with no hope of me finding work since I can't drive and there's no public transportation there.
I've been pretty suicidal and seriously considering suicide, looking up methods and making plans but I have a hamster, my emotional support animal. I love him so much and I can't stand the thought of abandoning him. If I go I don't know what will happen to him, he could end up in an animal shelter, end up with people who don't know anything about proper hamster care, he could be put in a tiny cage instead of the 40 gallon tank I have him in now. He's such a skittish little guy but he trusts me, I spent a year building that trust. Ending my suffering would be perpetuating his, and that is unacceptable to me.
So it looks like I'm going to try to survive, for him. I'll go back to an environment I feel miserable and unsafe in but I'll survive it. Hopefully I won't be trapped there forever.
