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[worldexploder]

I will let the Christmas holidays pass. In January I will jump the New River Gorge Bridge. I am so tired of searching for methods and so tired of stalling. I need everything to be over and done with. I tried for years looking for methods. I'd rather die at home but nope can't do that.

I am lucky in a way that I have an 876 foot drop ahead of me. No chance of survival. I can't get a firearm, Nembutal, or nitrogen. Can't bring myself to hang. What's left but the bridge. It will be terrifying but only for a few seconds. It's nothing compared to another year of living. 35 years of torture is long enough. I want to be in the state I was before life was imposed on me.

 

[Bex83]

Ah loved reading you're post, think jan will be my time . Good luck pal :)

 

[Roulette]

The posts you've made are something I'll remember for a long time. Luckily theres still a bit of time to have you around. Wishing you the best of luck in mentally prepping yourself til then

 

[worldexploder]

Ah loved reading you're post, think jan will be my time . Good luck pal :)

The posts you've made are something I'll remember for a long time. Luckily theres still a bit of time to have you around. Wishing you the best of luck in mentally prepping yourself til then

Thank you both so much.

 

[Miss clefable]

Hugs wishing you the best

 

[worldexploder]

Hugs wishing you the best

Aw thank you so very much. I'll still be around to see 2019. I ain't gonna leave y'all just yet. January will take me away.

 

[weedoge]

I think I'm feeling similarly. Not sure really, emptiness and fear but January definitely seems like a good time

 

[stargazer]

One thing's for sure, even I was thinking earlier this week, is that: I won't live to welcome in 2019. I'm hoping to be purchasing my bus ticket as my early Christmas present to myself. The gift that keeps on giving.
Note: I like dark humour, always have.

 

[stargazer]

I will let the Christmas holidays pass. In January I will jump the New River Gorge Bridge. I am so tired of searching for methods and so tired of stalling. I need everything to be over and done with. I tried for years looking for methods. I'd rather die at home but nope can't do that.

I am lucky in a way that I have an 876 foot drop ahead of me. No chance of survival. I can't get a firearm, Nembutal, or nitrogen. Can't bring myself to hang. What's left but the bridge. It will be terrifying but only for a few seconds. It's nothing compared to another year of living. 35 years of torture is long enough. I want to be in the state I was before life was imposed on me.

When you leave us/them in January, will you be taking inspiration from the Joker from Dark Knight, laughing all the way down (minus Batman's rope catching him just before)?
I liked how the Joker laughed all the way down, head first. Happy, lol.

 

[Help_Me]

I hope you'll read my post as well, friend. I am not gonna lie : your ctb will be absolutely the hardest and unbearable pain for me on this forum. Still, I wish you all the best cause you didn't deserve to suffer so hard. And sorry to hear you have no choice but jumping (pretty morbid way)...

 

[Sinbad]

I will let the Christmas holidays pass. In January I will jump the New River Gorge Bridge. I am so tired of searching for methods and so tired of stalling. I need everything to be over and done with. I tried for years looking for methods. I'd rather die at home but nope can't do that.

I am lucky in a way that I have an 876 foot drop ahead of me. No chance of survival. I can't get a firearm, Nembutal, or nitrogen. Can't bring myself to hang. What's left but the bridge. It will be terrifying but only for a few seconds. It's nothing compared to another year of living. 35 years of torture is long enough. I want to be in the state I was before life was imposed on me.

I agree with everything you said. Jumping is my go to method. Tho i will try my luck in MEX with the money I got. Why not spend it all before going. But if it fails I will jump from the Mungstener Bridge in January as well.

 

[Sinbad]

It will be terrifying but only for a few seconds.

With the right mindset, the fall could be pleasurable.

 

[worldexploder]

I agree with everything you said. Jumping is my go to method. Tho i will try my luck in MEX with the money I got. Why not spend it all before going. But if it fails I will jump from the Mungstener Bridge in January as well.

Thank you for sharing. I personally would rather not jump but I don't have any other methods left. I NEED to die. It's more than just a want. I wish you the best of luck and only peace.

 

[worldexploder]

With the right mindset, the fall could be pleasurable.

That is true. People BASE jump off the bridge in October. They love it but they also figure that there parachutes will open. A few people died from it.

People don't report on suicides from the bridge. They don't want to "attract attention". A local said that about 4 or 5 people jump a year. Nobody survived from what I read. There is a couple news stories.

https://www.nationalparkstraveler.o...-river-iconic-bridge-attracts-suicide-jumpers

https://www.register-herald.com/new...cle_92cc79b9-a33a-5d6d-b224-56a20340da8f.html

 

[Sinbad]

I wish you the best of luck and only peace.

Thank you. I hope we both find that peace soon.

 

[BurningLights]

Damn dude, finally decided? I hope I can speak for most and say you will truly be missed.
I've said it before but I really respect you, you speak the truth, and very respectful in your ways.
If I was to jump, I would acquire some ketamine, it's dissociative properties would mean you probably wouldn't realise your falling. Just a suggestion.

 

[worldexploder]

Damn dude, finally decided? I hope I can speak for most and say you will truly be missed.
I've said it before but I really respect you, you speak the truth, and very respectful in your ways.
If I was to jump, I would acquire some ketamine, it's dissociative properties would mean you probably wouldn't realise your falling. Just a suggestion.

Thank you so much man! You are one of my favorites on SS. I'll still be around for a couple more months buddy. I'm gonna just let Christmas and New Years happen. Then I'll jump. I got to do this otherwise I'll just be miserable. But before I do jump I'll let y'all know beforehand.

 

[Sinbad]

That is true. People BASE jump off the bridge in October. They love it but they also figure that there parachutes will open. A few people died from it.

People don't report on suicides from the bridge. They don't want to "attract attention". A local said that about 4 or 5 people jump a year. Nobody survived from what I read. There is a couple news stories.

https://www.nationalparkstraveler.o...-river-iconic-bridge-attracts-suicide-jumpers

https://www.register-herald.com/new...cle_92cc79b9-a33a-5d6d-b224-56a20340da8f.html

The thing is falling doesn't hurt. So in my mindset why not be excited about the fall. My life has been dull without any real excitement. But now I have a chance to experience something soo thrilling before greeting the end. I even wish to scream wohooo with a smile on my face.

 

[worldexploder]

The thing is falling doesn't hurt. So in my mindset why not be excited about the fall. My life has been dull without any real excitement. But now I have a chance to experience something soo thrilling before greeting the end. I even wish to scream wohooo with a smile on my face.

That's a good way to look at it! On Bridge Day in October people yell WOO HOO when they are BASE jumping. I am afraid of heights so I can't see myself having that feeling. I am more afraid of living a life of mental torture. Jump or be miserable? I'll jump any day over that!

 

[Sinbad]

That's a good way to look at it! On Bridge Day in October people yell WOO HOO when they are BASE jumping. I am afraid of heights so I can't see myself having that feeling. I am more afraid of living a life of mental torture. Jump or be miserable? I'll jump any day over that!

I am afraid of heights myself. Please note that I am trying to die using Nembutal. So the mindset I talked about is more something I would like to have. In reality, I might shit my pants, get all sweaty, and spending time contemplating.. I probably won't jump until a train or a guy approaches me.
But I would try.

 

[BjartNO]

January-budz

 

[Xerxes]

Every time I think of jumping especially from such a height, I start humming the song Free-Falling by Tom Petty.

 

[Johnnythefox]

I'll miss your intelligent and insightful wisdom.

 

[Afterman]

Your posts are some of the most memorable ones out of any forum I've been on

 

[worldexploder]

Your posts are some of the most memorable ones out of any forum I've been on

Thank you so much buddy. It means a lot to me

 

[sadsoul]

I think I'm gonna jump in January too, maybe with a partner. I just can't seem to overcome the survival instinct with hanging and I don't have access to more peaceful methods.

I will miss you a lot, your posts are always so insightful and you're an amazing person. You're such an important part of this community, this family. I hope you can become a true revolutionary and find eternal peace.

 

[Virgo]

Good luck.

 

[TAW122]

I wish you the best and I will miss your contributions and posts, but I know you need to get this over with as you have been suffering for way too long. I really hope you have the courage and enough gumption to overcome your SI next month.