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SMxj9

SMxj9

From 🇧🇷
Mar 28, 2026
55
Sometimes I wish this website were pro-suicide instead of pro-choice. If the people here actively encouraged me to die by suicide it would be a little easier, but people here are kind most of the time :hug:.
 
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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
3,990
Pro-choice ALL THE WAY.

Everyone has their own rights and ideals BUT no one should ever "force, read encourage" someone else to do something that can NEVER EVER be undone.

Like me, 2 attempts, both were VERY knee jerk reactions to horrible situations, and I was way too emotional at the time to think 100% clearly.

Everyone has or should have the right to do as they please, but I be darned if I am going to help someone commit the ultimate act of no return.

Here is my though, "do I want blood on my hands?" HELL, NO NEVER!

I am 70, please I have had enough crap about my age, thank you, and I have seen and done things that I would NOT redo ever.

If and when quantity of life overtakes quality of life, I have 24/7 chronic pain from a VERY nasty car crash, car crash not my fault, just wrong place at the wrong time, then decisions will be made, BUT it will be by and for me without outside influence ever.

Walter
 
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SMxj9

From 🇧🇷
Mar 28, 2026
55
Pro-choice ALL THE WAY.

Everyone has their own rights and ideals BUT no one should ever "force, read encourage" someone else to do something that can NEVER EVER be undone.

Like me, 2 attempts, both were VERY knee jerk reactions to horrible situations, and I was way too emotional at the time to think 100% clearly.

Everyone has or should have the right to do as they please, but I be darned if I am going to help someone commit the ultimate act of no return.

Here is my though, "do I want blood on my hands?" HELL, NO NEVER!

I am 70, please I have had enough crap about my age, thank you, and I have seen and done things that I would NOT redo ever.

If and when quantity of life overtakes quality of life, I have 24/7 chronic pain from a VERY nasty car crash, car crash not my fault, just wrong place at the wrong time, then decisions will be made, BUT it will be by and for me without outside influence ever.

Walter
I understand, i don't want people forcing others to commit suicide, but i wish they would try to encourage me to do it.
 
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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
3,990
I understand, i don't want people forcing others to commit suicide, but i wish they would try to encourage me to do it.
I love and care deeply about YOU, 100% no B.S. EVER and I could never ever think about harming you.

Just the thought gives me nightmares.

Hugs and love to you, my good friend.

Walter
 
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_wishforwings

_wishforwings

Forever is such an unpleasant word.
Feb 4, 2026
79
People who are so against everything about this forum make it seem like people actively encourage you into suicide on here, it's insane. I've literally interacted with the kindest people here and never once been encourage into anything. I too sort of wish someone could just encourage me into it as well but realistically I know that would be quite immoral
 
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Lazuli

Lazuli

Member
Oct 26, 2020
42
Although it should be easy to do because I don't even know how the person looks, even if to said person ctb is the freedom they seek instead of punishment (exactly my case actually), encouraging one to commit ctb will still be a blow to my conscience.
 
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burninghill

Student
Dec 2, 2025
185
I agree with you.

I've made countless accounts across lots of different websites to try and have people encourage me to die, I got what I wanted once or twice and honestly it just didn't work. I think I'm too self-aware or something. Being encouraged to commit suicide (short-term) didn't really change anything for me or make shit easier.
 
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3rdworldsadness

Can you ever stop the suffering?
Dec 22, 2024
146
Same. Everyone here is extremely kind it's makes me ugly cry cause I never felt so much kindness from anyone ever. Actively people in my life tells me that nobody cares, they will joke about suicide and laugh at my face...it makes me pain in the heart. I never knew strangers can be so lovely, understanding and caring.
 
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thelostautistic

Arcanist
Jul 31, 2025
430
I don't think it's ethical to encourage people to harm themselves. I'm pro choice but I'm not gonna encourage you or help you to harm yourself.
 
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kurgan

Wanderer
Jun 6, 2025
330
if you need encouraging then you're not ready to die.
 
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SMxj9

From 🇧🇷
Mar 28, 2026
55
if you need encouraging then you're not ready to die.
Maybe... But i hope i am. I still need to organize some things before CTB, after all this i'll be "free" to think and do it. I'm still trying to get all the medications, rn there's only benzos left. I already decided to CTB on june 20th.
 
Myforevercharlie

Myforevercharlie

Global Mod
Feb 13, 2020
3,274
You all realize that encouraging people into suicide is a criminal offence where someone could end up in jail for right?
 
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SMxj9

From 🇧🇷
Mar 28, 2026
55
You all realize that encouraging people into suicide is a criminal offence where someone could end up in jail for right?
Yeah, that's Why it's Just a wish, and i wish someone did this to me, not to others
 
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