Sometimes I strangle myself

[claviceps.purpurea]

Some nights are so unlivable that I can't keep going. Thus, I put my hands around my neck and start to strangle myself. I am perfectly conscious that I can't die this way, but it's like my body needs it. I don't know why, but I feel a sort of relief this way.

Has anyone experienced something like this? Do u think there is a biological or scientific reason?

 

[monetpompo]

it's the same reason people self harm. it's a physical sensation you can focus on instead of the emotional pain you're in. i've talked about choking myself as a kid to my friends in high school before, but they didn't really understand or just made jokes about it. it's similar to cutting, i think, but cutting is just easier for people to understand.

 

[[Lord Void]]

I actually did this once, shower cord. I knew it wouldn't do anything but that didn't stop me.

 

[claviceps.purpurea]

it's the same reason people self harm. it's a physical sensation you can focus on instead of the emotional pain you're in. i've talked about choking myself as a kid to my friends in high school before, but they didn't really understand or just made jokes about it. it's similar to cutting, i think, but cutting is just easier for people to understand.

I also think it's one of the reasons and generally it's the most common in self harming. But when I do that it's like there is something else, something deeper that I didn't figure out yet...

I actually did this once, shower cord. I knew it wouldn't do anything but that didn't stop me.

May I ask u what you felt while doing it?

 

[monetpompo]

May I ask u what you felt while doing it?

i was frustrated with myself and being young, but i knew i couldn't hurt anybody around me or break anything because i would get in trouble. i had no real way of coping with anything as a child so it was easy to see hurting myself as a natural solution to stress.

 

[AuraByte]

I have scratched, slapped and punched myself at times.

Sometimes I just need to take the anger out on myself, it's a form of release.

 

[[Lord Void]]

I also think it's one of the reasons and generally it's the most common in self harming. But when I do that it's like there is something else, something deeper that I didn't figure out yet...

May I ask u what you felt while doing it?

Frustration. Also worth mentioning I also scratched my arms raw, beat myself in the head, and slapped myself in the face. Oh and as soon as I was able to I cut myself as well. I know that feelings of stress push me further to do these things.