hospital was probing if i read about suicide online

[iCryInMySecretSpot]

so i was hospitalized on sunday night u guys might have seen my post

the hospital was probing about WHY and where i read about the critical point on my neck

i only told them i strangled myself out of self harm, hence the multiple attempts and the ones where i just lied in bed and kept pulling on the belt. i was like i knew i wasnt gonna die. which is true.

what i wasnt honest about, is that i was testing. i wanted to figure out which spot would make me faint so i could hang myself properly.

i feel like if i was honest, and told them i read about it online, they wouldve locked me up for a long long time. i hated the fucking ER

 

[Fadenself00_]

The whole system is whack how it currently is.. Like obviously you will lie/not tell the entire truth if you're at risk of involuntary hospitalization.. It's extremely inhumane how the system treats us..
They are worse than talking to police

 

[iCryInMySecretSpot]

The whole system is whack how it currently is.. Like obviously you will lie/not tell the entire truth if you're at risk of involuntary hospitalization.. It's extremely inhumane how the system treats us..
They are worse than talking to police

it was so so so bad.

i went on my own. voluntarily. seeking help. and they treated me like a criminal. after my first point of contact/triage nurse, she told me "if you try to leave, we will call police on you and find you"

like damn, i just came here on my own, and you tell me that??? thanks lady

then they took me to a room in the ER. uncomfy bed. i stayed there just sitting for an hour, before a nurse came and saw me and talked to me. then i talked to the doctor. then they came and served me with a form giving them the right to lock me up and giving me clothes to wear. i couldnt even keep my phone.
i couldnt close the door. the bed was mad uncomfy. police were there multiple times at night. so many fights. i was so stressed out it lowkey made me feel worse. when i tried to block out the light and sound with the blanket, they came running and removed it.

of course i will lie to get out.

 

[Dejected 55]

Yeah, the system sucks... and multiple times when I was in hospital the group therapy sessions would start with the therapist saying how she wanted to call in sick to work or how she couldn't wait to stop working there and do something else. Then a lot of the nurses would complain too... just like any other random job... so, don't get twisted and think people care even if it is theoretically their job to care.

 

[peacebenow]

I did not know you were there. i missed the post. I'm so sorry experienced.

 

[Matchaaa]

I'm sorry you had to go through that.
If people who seek help are met with punitive treatment, then the system has already failed.

I've seen many people hide their true feelings just to avoid being forcibly admitted. If that's happening, then what was this system supposed to achieve in the first place? It seems to have lost sight of its purpose— a safe and comfortable environment for healing.