Venting so disgusted i wanna puke

[ToothFairy]

Im so disgusted at myself i did so many sick disturbing and disgusting things that i cant turn back anymore and i lost everyone that i knew and cared about because of them, i keep having nightmares and panic attacks when i remembered what happened and i fucking wish i was just dead by now so i dont warm anybody else anymore, i'm a bad and disgusting people and there's nothing else to do besides killing myself, its one of those things where no matter how much help and therapy i get i will never be able to forgive myself and i dont know what to do anymore
Writing this while i have an exam in six hours but i cant sleep because im panicking and there's disturbing thoughs in my head

 

[flyingangel]

You can change. You can try to make up for the things you've done, if you feel this much remorse. Have some compassion for yourself.

 

[iwkmsssb]

i struggle with similar thoughts, sometimes i can't sleep because my mind keeps racing because of them. gone to therapy and they always say that it'll take time but you'll learn how to be more gentle with yourself.