Sleep is all I look forward to

[JaegerBombastic]

Every day I wake up and dread coming back to conciousness. It takes all my strength just to get up in the morning. All day long I'm just going through the motions trying to get by. All I can think about is how excited I am to go to bed at night. I never dream, so it's just non-existence for a few hours every night (assuming I can actually fall asleep). But I love it because then I don't have to think about everything wrong with me. It's like the only time I feel happy is when I can't feel anything at all. Does anyone else get this?

 

[zappynomore]

I am exactly the same. Sleep is the only thing I enjoy now, takes away all my pain.

I always kind of pray aswell like please just let me die in my sleep. but it never happens sad.

Of course death is the most peaceful sleep of all so thats what i look forward to.

 

[dayhell]

It's like that for me too, just trying to sleep the pain away for as long as I can.

 

[ijbolijbol8979]

i'm the same! Its to the point where i'm pretty sure I have hypersomnia. I sleep more than 14 hours everyday, and even then, I STILL get tired and sleepy and take 4 hour naps. I can't even function for more than a few hours everyday.

I might need to tell my doctor about this

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

Yes, same exactly.

 

[secretghost]

Yeah. Especially the kind of sleep so deep it just seems to slip time. I think a lot of us here can relate, sorry you're experiencing such troubles

 

[Raven2]

Yeah I dont dream either but every day look forward to getting into bed and just getting respite from my thoughts.
If only I could get away with sleeping the majority of the day i would. I've thought about just getting sleeping pills so I could take them when waking up and just going back to sleep

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand as all I want is to not exist and for me sleeping is the closest to not existing, all I want is to be unconscious with no more pain and no more suffering, I'd never wish for the dreadful, torturous burden of existing rather all I want is to sleep, I just want some peace, I just want to never suffer again.

 

[KimDokja]

I can relate. I love sleeping, and if I could, I'd be sleeping all the time. I tend to dream from time to time, although it makes me sad not to dream as much as before or not to remember my dreams as much. It just makes me happy to be able to live in a world where I'm not me, but some character I like, or someone else.

 

[Pluto]