Story Self-strangulation

[peaceindeath]

Hi
Thanks for accepting me. I'm a mom of two. I have OCD and sleep anxiety. I'm so tired of struggling. I long for the peace of death. For me, human consciousness is a prison, everything else is on the other side called nature.
I've been trying to strangulate myself in bed. I never dared to really kill myself. The thought of losing consciousness makes me so scared. But I've been reading pressure on the neck can cause delayed death. I also have this idea of cutting myself and get germs in the blood stream and it can cause sepsis. I don't know if it would work though.
But the most i want is assisted dying! I love the idea of knowing it's going to end and you can spend last days in peace! But i guess it's almost impossible for someone with mental problem to get that kind of help??
Why is it so hard to get rid of consciousness?? I just want to be nothing. Just want to be free from this imprisonment.

 

[SewerslideHoliday]

I don't think self strangulation would be possible. If you were even able to get to the point of passing out it would cause your grip to loosen, so you wouldn't be able to do it to the point of death. I don't know if the sepsis thing would work, but something to note is that sepsis deaths can take months or even years.

 

[FuneralCry]

I could never understand why someone who has awareness of how existence is an harmful burden would choose to bring more life here, but anyway I wish you the best. I certainly see existence as being so prison like especially as it's this difficult to cease existing. Consciousness is so torturous and unnecessary which is why the thought of permanent nothingness is perfection to me, I hate how we exist in a world that tries to force people to be slaves to suffering.

 

[Walilamdzii]

I don't think self strangulation would be possible. If you were even able to get to the point of passing out it would cause your grip to loosen, so you wouldn't be able to do it to the point of death. I don't know if the sepsis thing would work, but something to note is that sepsis deaths can take months or even years.

Self strangulation is unusual, but several people have done this.