best place to jump from in pittsburgh? please respond.

[Kokonoe]

jumping is my backup method if fsh is unattainable to me. after getting caught mid fsh as my last attempt it's been really hard to pull off fsh with everything that's been taken away from me and all the surveillance.
my back up plan if i can't hang is that after i go to therapy tomorrow, i'll go straight to wherever my jumping spot is, and jump. the reason to do it after therapy like that is so i have an excuse to be out of the house without causing concern.
i know jumping is a bad method, but it's all i really have. i know it's risky, but my life is so bad now and i'm so desperate that i deem it worth the risk. i just want to maximize my chances of death. ideally i lose consciousness quickly so i don't suffer too much.
the bridge i initially thought of is liberty bridge. it seemed high enough when i was last there. but according to google it's only 44.4 feet above the water. i'm very concerned that that's not enough.
the tallest bridge i saw is the westend bridge, but it's only 66 feet above the water. i only haven't seen the bridge myself so idk how realistic it is to jump from.
which of these would be better? is 44.4 feet ok to jump from? or is it too risky?
please help.

 

[Forveleth]

Rule if thumb is 150ft onto concrete or 250ft onto water for a 99% chance of death. You could easily survive jumping from either bridge.

 

[Kokonoe]

Rule if thumb is 150ft onto concrete or 250ft onto water for a 99% chance of death. You could easily survive jumping from either bridge.

deeply upsetting to hear, but thank you.
i have no clue what i'm going to do, then.
i don't want to be stuck living.
maybe there are tall enough buildings i could realistically get to the roof of? or high enough to at least jump out a window?
maybe i could find a way to hang myself in a park at night or something..
that would raise caution when i left the house but i think maybe i could get away with it long enough to still die..

 

[JoeFailure]

deeply upsetting to hear, but thank you.
i have no clue what i'm going to do, then.
i don't want to be stuck living.
maybe there are tall enough buildings i could realistically get to the roof of? or high enough to at least jump out a window?
maybe i could find a way to hang myself in a park at night or something..
that would raise caution when i left the house but i think maybe i could get away with it long enough to still die..

Yeah this is one of those where I understand the high anxiety of wanting to end it, I really do. It's unbearable.

At the same time, jumping from a questionable height could leave you alive with a ton of injuries and pain. It's so cruel.

But yeah I would make sure the plan is solid.

 

[isthisthingon]

Jumping attempts from one study show a 46% success rate. The lower the height the less success.

 

[butterbutter143]

I don't even live in America, nor have I ever been to Pittsburgh, but do you think the Grandview Avenue overlook would work? If you aimed to fall onto the rocks or railway tracks it could work. It's ~400ft tall, so you'd definitely die and you wouldn't feel anything either.
I'm not sure when your therapy is, but if you go early on a weekday morning or during bad weather like rain or something then there will be less foot traffic. If you do go there after therapy and there are a lot of tourists there, you have to ensure that you act quickly so that nobody can try to stop you.

If you can't get there, there is the Oliver parking garage that is about 120ft tall onto concrete. Ik this isn't 150ft, but if you land headfirst then it could still be lethal. I would definitely try the Grandview Avenue overlook first though. If you want to get over SI, try counting down from 3 and do not pause after 1, like immediately jump once you hit 1. You can practice doing this in your head a few times before you actually get there.

 

[Kokonoe]

I don't even live in America, nor have I ever been to Pittsburgh, but do you think the Grandview Avenue overlook would work? If you aimed to fall onto the rocks or railway tracks it could work. It's ~400ft tall, so you'd definitely die and you wouldn't feel anything either.
I'm not sure when your therapy is, but if you go early on a weekday morning or during bad weather like rain or something then there will be less foot traffic. If you do go there after therapy and there are a lot of tourists there, you have to ensure that you act quickly so that nobody can try to stop you.

If you can't get there, there is the Oliver parking garage that is about 120ft tall onto concrete. Ik this isn't 150ft, but if you land headfirst then it could still be lethal. I would definitely try the Grandview Avenue overlook first though. If you want to get over SI, try counting down from 3 and do not pause after 1, like immediately jump once you hit 1. You can practice doing this in your head a few times before you actually get there.

i'll look into both of those places! thank you so much!!!

 

[bugunmasked]

hey, i'm in pittsburgh too. if you want someone to talk to who potentially feels similar emotional pain & is nearby, i'm open to chatting

 

[butterbutter143]

i'll look into both of those places! thank you so much!!!

Yw!! There are some other places in Pittsburgh like the George Westinghouse bridge but that's really far from all of your locations. A bridge would definitely be more convenient than a tourist location but either way, you should just do whatever is possible for you :3

 

[Kokonoe]

going to the spot i picked to jump now. goodbye.
i told sis i was going to catch the bus to my jumping spot and she just accepted it. she just watched me leave knowing i'm going to die. she didn't even want to stop me. i asked if i could just stay with her a little longer instead, and she said no. i'm truly worthless.
i'm so scared.
the grandview won't work. it's too slanted of a hill, i can't see anywhere i would fall very far, especially onto concrete or tracks. of course it doesn't work. i'm so frustrated. i just want to die. i can't keep living anymore.

 

[Aknu132]

going to the spot i picked to jump now. goodbye.
i told sis i was going to catch the bus to my jumping spot and she just accepted it. she just watched me leave knowing i'm going to die. she didn't even want to stop me. i asked if i could just stay with her a little longer instead, and she said no. i'm truly worthless.
i'm so scared.
the grandview won't work. it's too slanted of a hill, i can't see anywhere i would fall very far, especially onto concrete or tracks. of course it doesn't work. i'm so frustrated. i just want to die. i can't keep living anymore.

WTF is wrong with your sister, you are in pain and she won't help you, how she can just accept that you're going to die and she doesn't wanna stay with you for a moment, please Kokonoe, don't do anything in impulse. You're not worthless.

 

[Kokonoe]

WTF is wrong with your sister, you are in pain and she won't help you, how she can just accept that you're going to die and she doesn't wanna stay with you for a moment, please Kokonoe, don't do anything in impulse. You're not worthless.

a lot. really a lot. she has never once really been there for me and yet she insists she's close and that she supports me. she makes me so miserable and yet i can never escape her. i don't want to keep living because of her.
it was so hurtful when she told me i couldn't stay with her for a bit. all because her parnter hates me and they were coming to meet up with her, and she picks them over me. like she always. even when i'm in crisis and suffering, she picks them over me without any hesitation.
i can't go back home. i can't live another day. i have to figure out some way to die today.

 

[Aknu132]

a lot. really a lot. she has never once really been there for me and yet she insists she's close and that she supports me. she makes me so miserable and yet i can never escape her. i don't want to keep living because of her.
it was so hurtful when she told me i couldn't stay with her for a bit. all because her parnter hates me and they were coming to meet up with her, and she picks them over me. like she always. even when i'm in crisis and suffering, she picks them over me without any hesitation.
i can't go back home. i can't live another day. i have to figure out some way to die today.

Calm down, don't do anything that could end up hurting you even more. forget your sister, go back home, go to your room, try to sleep a little, you don't need to go now, and if you act impulsively you might end up worse off. I'm so sorry for you Kokonoe, i'm sorry for how much you are suffering but you need to think straight.

 

[Kokonoe]

currently at the top of a parking garage that is supposedly 165ft tall. don't know how accurate it is. but it's onto concrete. apparently my family and the police are out searching for me. i can't go home anymore. i'm still so scared. it's still so hard to jump. i should die on impact but i look over the edge and i feel like i can't trust it. i'm scared. i don't know what to do. last time i gave in and ended up in the hospital my life got 10x worse. if i let it happen again it will get so much worse. i may never have a chance to ctb again. i feel forced. i am so scared. why couldn't i be allowed to live. why couldn't i just be loved. why couldn't i just be worth something.

 

[itsgone2]

it's still so hard to jump.

Every method must be hard in that last moment. I know what you're going through. I've no advice just that everyone here feels for you. I wish I could have had a normal life too.

 

[Kokonoe]

got found by my family. couldn't avoid them fully. dodged some of my family but not my older sister (not the abusive one i've mentioned before, that's would be my oldest sister, specifically.) i felt so fucking horrible when i realized they found me. i had left my jumping spot to sit down and get a drink somewhere nearby because i was dying of heat exhaustion and i couldn't jump in that moment. on my way back to go jump is when i got caught. i was so fucking close. but i only have myself to blame for not jumping when i had the chance. i'm such a fucking failure. my life is already getting so much worse again and i hate it. all because i couldn't jump when i should've. i hate being such a coward. i hate being such a failure. i hate being alive. i wish i just fucking died. i hate myself so much. someone please just kill me.
i already want to attempt again. or hurt myself. or try to figure out something. or just keep walking as long as i can. not much could really happen at this point, though. i hate sitting here with it, unable to do anything, and being forced to think about the consequences of continuing to live after this. it's so miserable. life never gets better. it only ever gets worse.
maybe i will just take off and get away as fast as i can. maybe i will risk something stupid. anything is better than this. i can't just sit here and give up.
i already want to attempt again. or hurt myself. or try to figure out something. or just keep walking as long as i can. not much could really happen at this point, though. i hate sitting here with it, unable to do anything, and being forced to think about the consequences of continuing to live after this. it's so miserable. life never gets better. it only ever gets worse.
maybe i will just take off and get away as fast as i can. maybe i will risk something stupid. anything is better than this. i can't just sit here and give up.
i did take off. got followed of course. but at least i'm outside. it's nice out. resting on a bench, just sitting here in the night is nice. i'm slowly making my way to a bridge. not one i think will kill me. but by now, it's about proving a point more than anything. my sister told me to kill myself, so i will. i know she thinks i won't ever actually die. so the jumping and succeeding, or failing, is the best i can do to get back at her. that's all i really care about now. i hate her so much.

 

[Kokonoe]

final update for tonight:
got stalked by cops. real creepy shit. even after my mom called off the search and said i was safe. they were still fuckin hunting for me. luckily i didn't get 302'd or anythin, they just told me to go back home. and then followed me all the way home....we live in a fuckin surveillance state dog. real evil shit.
but anyways i am now home and did not get hospitalized or anything. i am now going to curl up and hold my friend tightly until i fall asleep. and then my sister (the cool one not the abusive one) took the day off tomorrow so i'm going to get to spend time with her so yayyyy. that's exciting. i still really, really want to die, but at least i don't feel as miserable as i did earlier today. i will figure out how to die again another time, when it's more possible. for now, i will vibe.

tl;dr: home safe. cops suck.
wait slight addition i think that was my first time being an actual missing persons. so that kinda rocks actually??? neat. i love going missing.

 

[geepeedee]

glad ur ok op