Random thoughts

[KleinerWolf]

Euphoria is my best friend where I am unable to achieve the things I wanted for myself.
The fucking limitations can fuck off and kiss my arse!

 

[ForensicallyAware]

Life is a mug's game

 

[ArtsyDrawer]

Next week the temperature drops by three-four degrees at night. This affects the length of hell temperatures during mid day. It'll still be 32c, but for a shorter time.
Relief from THAT comes in two months.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

I've never done any illegal drug (not even pot) in my life, but I really wanna do E or Molly. Would be nice to experience unfettered euphoria before I go.

 

[Lorntroubles]

Where are all these people finding lengthy forests to ctb in? Too much development here and the mountain trails are hours away. I have never been to that area before. Nor can I.... sighhhh.

 

[Lorntroubles]

I wasn't meant to die...yet. Even with proper planning, I missed an important part due to overconfidence. Funny how I got ill as I'm trying to sayonara. Dammit.

 

[throwaway123]

I can't do this anymore. This stupid bullshit.
I don't know what to do or anything. Nobody is here to help. Nobody wants to.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

Why why why why......wtf did I do to deserve this....I want to die yet I don't. I want to live yet I want to die. I'll never be happy.

 

[ForensicallyAware]

Only the ruthless heartless selfish prosper

 

[KleinerWolf]

There's nothing better than getting drunk, listening to music you like,
and having a complete blank on your mind.

Other than having your life together of course lol

Ugh fuck me.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

If I was alone I would ctb tonight...I'm so sad, so heartbroken and so done.

 

[Lorntroubles]

When you want to go but you're stuck and getting impatient!!!! I'm tired of living. If people only knew the pain I carry...
God, what a fake POS person are you??? I'm saying my goodbyes to you and your response is to block me. Psssh, people! At least I got my SS fam, beyatch!!

 

[nerve]

Urrrghhggn my brain has felt like complete paste lately :( There's been a lot of good threads I wanted to reply to except I'm having such a hard time stringing thoughts together...

 

[WOODESITY]

Tonight is worst night in long time, i got drunk and it's no excuse but it was definitely reason, i talked with my friend about my thoughts of wanting to end my life and I was going to do it no matter what, it was clearly a wrong thing to do as I'm feeling awful for telling such thing, I should've stayed quiet but I couldn't, even i tried, it was better that way keeping my thoughts to myself. I feel like selfish asshole monster for telling this to him

 

[Deafsn0w]

Mom told me to clean up the mess and I was like "sorry mom but I'm too lazy to clean up the mess because I'm ready to leave this planet soon."

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I never take my phone with me when I go out these days. It's only ever within walking distance due to my condition. But the other day I visited an old haunt and found a tiny black toadlet on the path. I picked him up and put him in the heather, bless him. Would have taken a pic if I'd had my phone. Just pretend I took this pic instead...

http://www.herpetofauna.co.uk/forum/uploads/timhamlett/2009-04-08_132008_toadlet.jpg

 

[hello570]

Can't make a thread yet not enough posts been lurking a week or so on here. So here are some random thoughts.
Been feeling very suicidal lately. I have zero friends at all never have. I hate when people say they have no friends but you see them hanging out with people on social media it makes me feel like shit. I feel like I have no in between of spilling my guts out to people or complete shutting myself out and going on autopilot. Tried to get metoclopramide or however you spell it two days ago but I have severe social anxiety and my voice was so shaky. Had an entire story but I completely forgot everything because I was so nervous. So the doctor said you don't have a history of migraines or acid reflux. He refunded me so that's good. Have all the other meds for SN. Goal is to do it before the end of the month. Might wait until winter though because I am way more suicidal in winter. I want to be able to make my own posts because I want to meet people but I'm very bad at taking initiative because I hesitate when reaching out to people. Even online. When I want to reply to someone's post I just feel a wave of anxiety. I also want to document my method and possibly my attempt. Does anyone know how many posts until I can make my own thread?

 

[WOODESITY]

This world isn't safe place, there is possibility of getting abused and assaulted anytime, even places you would think is safe, tonight i got beaten up by 2 strangers by store, they kept hitting me until I started screaming For help, I couldn't stop thinking about how could they just do it fo no good reason. I don't know what's coming next but I'm pretty sure life has got it all

 

[KleinerWolf]

This world isn't safe place, there is possibility of getting abused and assaulted anytime, even places you would think is safe, tonight i got beaten up by 2 strangers by store, they kept hitting me until I started screaming For help, I couldn't stop thinking about how could they just do it fo no good reason. I don't know what's coming next but I'm pretty sure life has got it all

omg wtf thats assault!
They must be on drugs or some shit.

Is the police involved?
Perhaps there are surveillance footage that can be checked?

 

[ForensicallyAware]

Life is a cruel sick lottery

 

[KleinerWolf]

The world is chaotic;
Bad cards were dealt, but I enjoy the haunt.
While I'm behind, my animal instincts flourish.

 

[nerve]

I wake up most days concerned with what I'm going to do to pass the time :( Been sleeping a lot lately and really appreciating it. Last therapist said something about how it's my decision if I want to "sleep my entire life away" and I think it is. I think this is what I want.

 

[WOODESITY]

omg wtf thats assault!
They must be on drugs or some shit.

Is the police involved?
Perhaps there are surveillance footage that can be checked?

I believe so, there were cameras, and I called police and filed complaint yesterday, one guy was asking me for my phone and I lied I didn't have any because I couldn't afford losing it, so I think that passed him off

 

[Worthless_nobody]

All the pain, disappointment, sorrow....it all just adds up...I'm not anymore suicidal than I was before I'm just done...less afraid. I'm actually more sad because I *almost* made it out I almost achieved a life worth leading then fucking covid crushed that dream...and I'm left with nothing but a pointless, pathetic failed life.

 

[KleinerWolf]

I believe so, there were cameras, and I called police and filed complaint yesterday, one guy was asking me for my phone and I lied I didn't have any because I couldn't afford losing it, so I think that passed him off

Robbery and assault.
The cops will get em.
Instant karma is especially real with crimes.

Hope you are okay :(

 

[Deleted member 18655]

I'm having way too much fun - as an anonymous sh*t disturber on Twittter. I'm stirring the pot in certain political circles. I didn't think I liked politics (I've always refused to vote but could debate anyone under the table) but this is fun! Wit without accountability, so to speak. It fills time and politics offers so much material LOL!

 

[Lorntroubles]

Thinking if we had speed dating for us SS'ers, how much of a shit show it would be. Ha ha! I don't want none of y'all crazy asses. I'm crazy myself!

 

[WOODESITY]

Robbery and assault.
The cops will get em.
Instant karma is especially real with crimes.

Hope you are okay :(

I'm doing fine now, thank you for your replies, I just don't want them to be walking free and doing same to others, but from now on I'm on always constant lookout for them, and I'll just try avoid such situations

 

[KleinerWolf]

I'm doing fine now, thank you for your replies, I just don't want them to be walking free and doing same to others, but from now on I'm on always constant lookout for them, and I'll just try avoid such situations

It's misfortune we have those kind of scumbags roaming around terrorising people.
I believe there's a special place in hell reserved for them.
Or at least they'd drop the soap in prison at some point.

 

[Lorntroubles]

All those times I could have died in life and I still didn't die!! Fuck!!!