Random thoughts

[Shinkansen]

this short film is one of my favorites, I think it's the clearest representation of human life.
if you don't know it, I recommend you to see it.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

I just sink lower and lower into this hell of hopeless despair...ctb is the only way..why can't I just get it over with then? I know my problems are too hard to fix/overcome. I want to live but not like this...I just want to get it over with.

 

[ArtsyDrawer]

I've been moved to the neurosurgery wing for recovery after removing the electrodes from my brain. These nurses seem mildly retarded:

1) One went to get a urination "bottle" so that I can finally take a piss. She came back, remembered she's supposed to go fetch the bottle, and departed again. I've been waiting for about five hours now. The "summon nurse" button seems to have been disconnected.
2) The nurses rotate. The new nurse came in, was introduced, was informed I need the goddamn "bottle", went to fetch it, also disappeared.
3) The new nurse was asked whether or not I can finally wear pants. She promised to look into the subject. As you can guess, no answer. I'm forced to wear a humiliating dress with an ass slit and a poorly located iv.
4) I had a conversation on the topic of the right to die with dignity. Judaism says that even if I get trapped in LIS, I am to be kept alive and intubated.
5) I was promised that the surgery I want is followed by an optional psych follow up. It's not optional.

To conclude, I fucking hate these people.
Update: it took her SIX FUCKING HOURS, but I can finally take a piss.

 

[Bct]

My future is just hopeless. While I haven't done any diagnostic, it sucks when your brain is wired differently than most people & sometimes oblivious with various social rules & cues

 

[Circles]

I wonder who's zoned out and stared off into space the most. Most likely prisoners or old people in hospitals and nursing homes.

 

[ForensicallyAware]

If I hadn't seen such riches I could live with being poor

 

[Worthless_nobody]

I stupidly looked at a old photo album trying to get a picture of my dog and instead saw childhood pictures of myself...it's depressing. Seeing little me so cute and innocent..who would have thought I would have such a shitty pointless life and end up dying by suicide.

 

[Circles]

I can't even watch a random documentary that doesn't have suffering in it. It's like I can't run away from it unless I close my eyes and even then. Why aren't there much entertainment that's without suffering and death? It's like I have to search for a 90s movie or whatever just to watch something that's actually fun instead of fucking depressing all the fucking time.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

My husband and I have been going through "Family Guy" recently. I haven't watched the show in probably over 10 years, so it's mostly all new for me. It's amazing though how often things pop up that most people would probably laugh at, but makes is a bit uncomfortable. In the episodes we watched today, there were a number of suicide references, which is kind of an awkward topic around our house these days...

 

[ArtsyDrawer]

Post nut clarity is arguably one of the worst sufferings for men. One moment I'm entranced by... things.... and a few seconds later my mind is full with "what the absolute fuck is on my screen?!"

 

[Notwinnernotawin]

For unknown reasons people have a lot of fun ruining my life. Now I'm also a rapist and a murderer. Let's see what I'll be if I make it alive until the next month's.

 

[Shinkansen]

dinosaurs were better.

 

[ForensicallyAware]

Funny how people who seem to have everything to live for kill themselves
And people with punishing humdrum dreary existences carry on



Can't even cry

 

[ArtsyDrawer]

"Duck hunt" sounds unpleasantly close to "the cunt".

 

[so tired or manic]

why does kindness always come with a price to pay?

 

[ForensicallyAware]

Life is complete utter fucking HELL

 

[Morphinekiss]

I've replaced drinking with working out and tiktok. What the helll? I'm age regressing.

 

[Lorntroubles]

You stupid piece of shit, always wanna play tough but when it's time for you to sit in prison for what you did, you wanna cry because you're "uncomfortable". Wussy ass degenerate!

 

[KleinerWolf]

UGH.
>.<

 

[Fear191829218]

We need a haha or lol reaction on SS for funny comments.

 

[nerve]

Im so bored and restless and weepy tonight It's 4am and I'm tired, like I should probably try to sleep, it's just so scary when I'm like this. Dark quiet room and the next terrible thought or memory is always on its way :(

The loneliness has been tugging at me a lot lately. Usually when I feel like this, I start journaling more but now I don't even want to bother. It's kind of a cruel reminder that there's no one to actually speak to about how I'm feeling. I don't have the strength to tend to myself right now if I try something and it doesn't go well. It's a shame that most of my coping skills end up becoming triggers at some point. I wish I could figure this out.

 

[Wayfaerer]

Why am I me? Why are you, you? I see through these eyes but no one elses. I move my limbs freely as I control them. What makes an individual?

 

[Circles]

Jesus Christ == Cheese and Rice? Hmm does sound similar.

 

[iDieUDie80]

What gives those with everything the right to tell us with nothing to endure our hopelessness and suffering?

 

[KleinerWolf]

Is it insane/contradicting to have a glimpse of belief supporting simulation theory while still wanting to win in life?

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

What gives those with everything the right to tell us with nothing to endure our hopelessness and suffering?

Because we are the cogs in the machine that keeps their basket overflowing.

 

[HillWhereIWillRest]

Writing suicide note and getting anxious and scared. I feel like a child! I need a long and tight hug :(

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

After one of the worst days of my life, I had a semi-decent week. I thought more about a positive future than killing myself, and that hasn't happened in a long time. But today I feel bad again. Like, what's the point? Why keep going through this cycle of hope-despair when the ending never really changes?

 

[Worthless_nobody]

This dark hopeless feeling grows stronger and stronger....had I known covid would happen I wouldn't have tried I got so close so close but it's impossible. I just want to accept I'll never get my dreams and die already... suicide is so fucking hard.

 

[WOODESITY]

At Some point I Often think that I don't just want to stop existing but I have to, I'm going to die anyway, I'm not looking forward for much which makes existence just survival of its stupidest, just pointless day to day life. Keep living for me is just wasted suffering