XYZ

XYZ

I just can’t get these damn wrists to bleed
Jul 22, 2020
800
I hate her so much. I know I should just pack up my bags and get the fuck out. This is not what I signed up for all these years ago. I know I am to blame, I insisted on this thing we have now, but how the fuck was I supposed to know she would turn out to be a fucking monster from hell? How can anyone be so mean, so hateful, so selfish and nasty and out to hurt others? She taught me the meaning of hate. I never really hated anyone before, didn't even think I was capable of such a destructive feeling. I hate her with such passion, I am on fire with hate. And look at me, motherfucking loser, writing about it on a forum instead of packing my bags. Can't leave, can't kill myself. L O S E R. No way out. No redemption. Suffer till the day I die.
 
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Worthless_nobody

Enlightened
Feb 14, 2019
1,384
I hate you life... haven't I suffered enough?... apparently not
 
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nerve

nerve

fat cringey shut-in
Jun 19, 2019
1,013
Boyfriend: how are you?
Me: I'm okay, a little bored and restless
Boyfriend: ... I have nothing to say to that and I feel like I get trapped in these conversations with you because you get upset no matter what I say

So don't ask me how im doing :(
 
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Deleted member 18655

Deleted member 18655

Enlightened
Jun 4, 2020
1,422
I'm not a patient person. I want to die now...Now... N.O.W! Waiting will be the hardest and most frustrating thing I'll ever have to do.:mmm::hmph:
 
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Lorntroubles

Lorntroubles

Photography by Haris Nukem.
Jan 19, 2020
3,095
I'm wasting away...

Away...

......a...w.......a.............y........
 
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Worthless_nobody

Enlightened
Feb 14, 2019
1,384
Nostalgia is a bitch..."hey remember things from the past you love but you can't have anymore"...
 
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WOODESITY

WOODESITY

Experienced
Mar 15, 2019
217
There Is something behind every interaction
Sometimes I really struggle to think of a reply to people's threads. I want to write something but mental blockage hits hard. So I usually just leave an appropriate reaction to the post, just to let them know I read it.
I sometimes do the same
 
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KleinerWolf

KleinerWolf

Account Wipe.
Apr 30, 2020
2,700
Drunk as f,
Don't care about SH1T,
No emotions, no worries, NOTHING!
Let's see if I get hangover tomorrow,
ABSOLUT!
:sunglasses: :pfff:
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
Drunk as f,
Don't care about SH1T,
No emotions, no worries, NOTHING!
Let's see if I get hangover tomorrow,
ABSOLUT!
:sunglasses: :pfff:
Cheers brother! I've got some catching up to do!
20200730 152917
 
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Worthless_nobody

Enlightened
Feb 14, 2019
1,384
Ok life hi yeah it's me again...so can I please please have something positive happen?? Please!??
 
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XYZ

XYZ

I just can’t get these damn wrists to bleed
Jul 22, 2020
800
Ok life hi yeah it's me again...so can I please please have something positive happen?? Please!??

Can you put in a good word for me as well. Life won't even pick up when I call.
 
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Eren

Eren

Si hablas español mándame un MP
Oct 27, 2018
1,073
I love the South Park series, but butters makes me very sad.
 
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Worthless_nobody

Enlightened
Feb 14, 2019
1,384
Can you put in a good word for me as well. Life won't even pick up when I call.
I sure will but sadly life isn't picking up for me either :( I probably cussed life out too much and I'm blocked now.

It's like one bad news after another I can't take this.
 
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Morphinekiss

Enlightened
Jun 8, 2019
1,207
Covid sucks ass
 
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ArtsyDrawer

Enlightened
Nov 8, 2018
1,446
Tomorrow my brain is getting probed physically and for whatever reason I'm not afraid. I have 13 needles the size of a fucking pen in my left brain hemisphere, and for whatever reason I'm not freaking out.
Even the neuro agrees that something is fucked with my brain. It's fucked in a convenient manner for all parties involved, yes, but something is decidedly wrong here. We both hope I don't start losing my shit during the probing.
 
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Worthless_nobody

Enlightened
Feb 14, 2019
1,384
Here we go again the outcome of the next few days will either make me want to live or ctb. I WANT to live...but I just can't take being beaten down anymore.
 
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iDieUDie80

iDieUDie80

Arcanist
Jul 6, 2020
403
I hate when pro-life people try to talk with you about your suicidal ideation when your mind was already set.
 
so tired or manic

so tired or manic

Arcanist
Jun 12, 2020
462
I liked being turquoise better than this green
 
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ForensicallyAware

ForensicallyAware

Specialist
Feb 10, 2020
314
When hell is full the dead walk the earth
 
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Wisdom3_1-9

he/him/his
Jul 19, 2020
1,954
This is the fourth night in a row my husband and I have slept in separate rooms. Normally, I cave and try to fix things. This time, I want him to be the mature one. I'm tired of it always being on me. I know that's not particularly mature of me, but I want him to show that he cares that we fix this.
 
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XYZ

XYZ

I just can’t get these damn wrists to bleed
Jul 22, 2020
800
Monday finds you like a bomb
That's been left ticking there too long
You're bleeding
Some days there's nothing left to learn
From the point of no return
You're leaving

Hey hey I saved the world today


 
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so tired or manic

so tired or manic

Arcanist
Jun 12, 2020
462
so I realized I mostly use the avatars to associate people when poking around here so figured I should get one too.

featuring: me
 
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Morphinekiss

Enlightened
Jun 8, 2019
1,207
Anonymously got sent flowers and I'm a little creeped out
 
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Morphinekiss

Enlightened
Jun 8, 2019
1,207
Fuck, shit, damnit. If he dies because I gave him covid I'm ctb ASAP.
 
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Lorntroubles

Lorntroubles

Photography by Haris Nukem.
Jan 19, 2020
3,095
I'll tell you right now, there will never be fucking justice for victims.
 
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Wisdom3_1-9

he/him/his
Jul 19, 2020
1,954
I can't get people to understand that I'm just not meant for this world.
 
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Sinai Silence

Sinai Silence

I think I'ma die alone inside my room
Jul 6, 2020
810
Everyday there's this wasp that tries to get into my room. Somedays it gets in others it doesn't. I wish it would sting me so I die in my sleep.
 
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Inferdan

Inferdan

Meeting the first minor relapse after recovery
Nov 3, 2019
450
Living and dying...both fulfilling in a way, but they both hurt. They're similar if you think about it...
In life, you need to work hard and suffer to have a good life...
So what if there was an alternate version of that in the after? Not exactly the same, could be very different, but in a sense, it's the same?

Don't worry about this, since, for one, you can't change it, and second, it's very, very, very, very, very likely that I'm wrong. It's just a random thought, not a guess, estimate, or conclusion :/
 
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