15dec
ember in the dark
- Dec 7, 2018
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More going on but less people. It's pretty good that way imoLess going on/less people around/less stimuli?
More going on but less people. It's pretty good that way imoLess going on/less people around/less stimuli?
at least now she knows how you really feel.....I think fucked up. I wrote a 32 page letter to my wife and sent it to her. Then I messaged her on our wedding anniversary and told her I hoped that she was ok. She looked at it, and I was happy. The next day the package arrived and I'm assuming she's opened and might have read it. I've messaged her twice in the last 2 days and she won't even look at it. I shouldn't have sent the letters, I should have just kept my damn feelings to myself! We would be half ass talking and I would be happy, but instead... I'm just here, wondering if she hates me for explaining everything. My depression has gotten worse and my suicidal thoughts have gotten bad. I felt ok when we were talking, I could deal with life, but now that she won't say or look at my messages, I feel empty... I don't know what to do.... I'm fucking helpless and I don't know what to do...
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I don't understand how people can still believe there is purpose in suffering.
No! Suffering is pointless!!! When will you fucking get it???!?!?
Jessus Christ... 10 min ago I was laughing and now I'm going insane thinking I might actually get fired. Why is everything so hard?I just made a dark humor joke at work. A really really bad one. I couldn't even control it, that's what it hurts me most, the lack of control and self awareness. It just hit me 5 minutes after...
This is why I never made it in life and probably never will.... I have the mind of an impulsive reckless child.
Someone please just kill me.
Ok, fuck this. I'm changing my perspective. I won't sweat this. It's hard to control who I am. If they fire me or ostracize me, fine. I'll be on my way. Fucking tired of caring, fucking tired of always being on guard. A generation of pussies. I'm not even in this shit because I want to, but because I can't end. Might as well live with some strength.I just made a dark humor joke at work. A really really bad one. I couldn't even control it, that's what it hurts me most, the lack of control and self awareness. It just hit me 5 minutes after...
This is why I never made it in life and probably never will.... I have the mind of an impulsive reckless child.
Someone please just kill me.
Jessus Christ... 10 min ago I was laughing and now I'm going insane thinking I might actually get fired. Why is everything so hard?
I know this feeling...All I want is her. Please god why can't you just give me her. You rather I die