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mustangharry

mustangharry

New Member
Mar 19, 2025
4
6/10 but that's an improvement from last week when I was teetering on 9.
 
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Spite

Spite

I don't like this world.
Aug 20, 2025
469
About a 6/10 at the moment, which is better than what it usually is. I usually sit around an 8/10 on an average day.
 
BlueMist96

BlueMist96

Member
May 12, 2026
96
3/10

Had an okay day. I love the rain :)
 
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DonLockwood

DonLockwood

Actor
Jan 22, 2026
53
9/10. More lost than I've ever been
 
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throwaway070806

throwaway070806

Shameful Martyr
May 5, 2025
18
10/10.
i'm lost. i've detached myself from everyone.
i've suffered for far too long.
 
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hereandthere13

hereandthere13

why me?
Sep 14, 2023
152
2/10 on a good day

7-8/10 on a bad day

right now id say like a 1.5
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,373
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,373
6/10 nervous
 
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ulove88

Member
Dec 4, 2025
6
9/10. only a few months left of cash and unemployed.
 
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ilovenewyork

Experienced
Nov 16, 2025
283
9/10 so so bad
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,373
6/10 exhausted
 
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frubble

Member
May 15, 2026
5
9 I think im losing my two best friends today and its my fault. Im canceling my plans with other friends for tomorrow. I don't know what I'm going to do. I think this may be the thing to finally push me over the edge
 
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somethingisntreal

somethingisntreal

The future prepared for us is a twisted joke.
Aug 30, 2025
235
6/10 I'm sleepy but can't fall asleep
 
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E4syW3y0u7

E4syW3y0u7

Wasted it all.
May 19, 2026
61
5/10, waiting for my mean to arrive, hoping it will arrive, that's the only thing that's on my mind day and night. It's summer already, i wish it was winter or fall...
 
TheCavernousDeep.

TheCavernousDeep.

“One Last Tour for the Lady of the Ink.”
Oct 22, 2025
81
10/10 I've set a date. I know this will hurt the people I care about BUT I AM DONE. I'll do my best to explain myself in my note but it is fucking over. Nothing can change IF I AM THE PROBLEM.

But I'm not bitter. That's what life wants. To keep me here and make me bitter. In truth I'm grateful. My life has been a robbery and let me tell you, I wasn't the mark. I'm the one who got lucky, I'm the one who tasted happiness, and I'll be the one to escape this fucking downward spiral before I have to pay for any of the mistakes I've made.

Game over, I win.
 
LonelyForest

LonelyForest

Member
May 9, 2026
14
2/10

I'm not mentally distressed,I'm just tired and not willing to put the effort to better my situation, I'll die in the upcoming week. Hopefully tomorrow
Honestly, this really describes my situation as well. I have spent so much time on 8/10, 9/10, 10/10 that I have become sort of numb to the pain. Now I just feel tired and too exhausted to do anything to better my life.
 
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BlueMist96

BlueMist96

Member
May 12, 2026
96
8/10

I want to take a roadtrip to somewhere far away. I just need to get away for a while. I'm so fucking lonely that it hurts. I'm afraid of everything. I think I'll be leaving soon.
 
mydeadflowers

mydeadflowers

Member
Apr 3, 2025
24
Note your level of mental distress each day.

now: 8/10

You can explain or just give /10
9/10

If it were a 10/10 I would have done something about it, regardless of how irrational my actions my be. This is one of those moments where I am at the precipice. Its really just a matter of whether or not I choose self care over self harm anytime soon
[posted and edited while drunk]
 
VoidButterfly

VoidButterfly

Flitterby
May 17, 2025
147
10. I attempted last night but it just didn't work, going to try again today. I can't take this.
 
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,373
Honnêtement, ça décrit parfaitement ma situation. J'ai passé tellement de temps sur les 8/10, 9/10 et 10/10 que je suis devenue insensible à la douleur. Maintenant, je me sens juste fatiguée et trop épuisée pour faire quoi que ce soit pour améliorer ma vie.
Same
 
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LittleJem

Visionary
Jul 3, 2019
2,849
8/10: Agitation. Hideous, immobilising. Can't think straight. Don't know what to do.
 

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