Note your level of mental distress now

[Defenestration]

5

 

[nitrogenous]

9.5 out of 10. At the emergency now, which is a fair call given I was going to commit otherwise… or at least very tempted to do so because all I could think of is to just die… I see no future anymore, I'm tired and done with life.

 

[BlueMist96]

6/10

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[nihacc]

Around 5/10. My chosen method of shotgun mouthwash has become almost unavailable to me, and now I'm starting to consider other methods and possible outcomes of out necessity.

Yesterday was easily an 8/10. That was the day I went to the gun store and was unable to purchase a firearm, even though I had been gathering all the required documents for months. They couldn't sell due to reasons completely out of my control. It only got worse when I was talking to my friend about it and he said that if I was really suicidal, I would've done something already. ????? As if i haven't been trying for months to obtain my preferred method, and he tells me this???? I felt extremely invalidated, but it's pushing me to want to attempt sooner with a different method. He said he didn't mean it that way but it still stung.

 

[witchcraft]

I'm honestly not sure. Very drunk right now, so not the most stable.

Tonight has become one of those nights in which the only way I'm getting to bed is if I pass the fuck out. So I don't know what "level" that would be, but probably a 7... except that the alcohol is nerfing it to a "pseudo 5" if that makes sense.

 

[Cepheuss]

Yesterday was a 10/10 right now i just feel heavy so probably a 4/10