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nitritegirl

nitritegirl

anguish.
Jun 26, 2025
89
my suicidality is like 9/10 right now but mental distress? honestly the more i think about suicide the more i feel calmer. the more i feel like this is my destiny and life will soon end... i think mental distress is like 6/10 right now. i can only think about suicide but that's good. but it varies a lot, when i wake up it's like 10/10 no joke.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,153
my suicidality is like 9/10 right now but mental distress? honestly the more i think about suicide the more i feel calmer. the more i feel like this is my destiny and life will soon end... i think mental distress is like 6/10 right now. i can only think about suicide but that's good. but it varies a lot, when i wake up it's like 10/10 no joke.
Yes the morning is hard
Wake up alive
 
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mikidagreen

mikidagreen

dismal enjoyer
Apr 14, 2026
24
9/10
everytime i look my wife in the eyes i feel even worse knowing how bad i want to die and how much she loves me even though im a fucking failure
 
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somethingisntreal

somethingisntreal

The future prepared for us is a twisted joke.
Aug 30, 2025
181
5/10. I hate mornings. (Its 8am in my time zone)
 
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wannabeangel

wannabeangel

꒰ა Missing Wings ໒꒱
Mar 14, 2026
137
8/10 almost 9/10 because i am making impulsive decisions while so confused over my relationships and might just say fuck it and do something dumb that i'll maybe regret too but fuck it i hate my life why not just go all out like teen me would have wanted? but i am still so heartbroken, i just want to get out of my head
 
Gomomon

Gomomon

The Mentally Loud Overthinker
Feb 24, 2026
46
Note your level of mental distress each day.

now: 8/10

You can explain or just give /10
Pretty bad 7/10 I'm probably Pmsing and the new drug is having an effect on me. I sat in the shower crying for an hour and struggled to drive
 

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