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anopenwound

anopenwound

I̸'̷m̵ ̸g̶o̷i̶n̵g̷ ̶h̵o̶m̶e̶.̵
Jul 27, 2024
180
Simultaneously 10000000 and null. Void.
 
nitrogenous

nitrogenous

Just wanna break free of all suffering
Dec 26, 2025
266
6/10 (mostly because I feel empty and "done" with everything). Still waiting for my SN as the public holidays have delayed the delivery of it, and contemplating on whether I will be patient for a couple of days to do it after my birthday instead...
 
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,153
8/10 comments of PF
 
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herlockshomes

Member
Apr 6, 2026
15
3/10. Is anyone ever at a 1/10? Must be nice.
 
PropaneOctane

PropaneOctane

( ദ്ദി ˙ᗜ˙ )
Oct 10, 2023
41
4/10
It's been 7 years, so it has become my new normal. My usual one is this, but it can easily get to a 8/10 or a 10/10.
 
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,153
3
 
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itsgone2

-
Sep 21, 2025
1,650
10. I don't know anything else. The despair is crippling
 
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no.death.bed.reQ

Member
Sep 25, 2024
17
8-9/10 - losing my dog changed everything

I'm actively doing my second round of TMS and still feeling this way
 
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wannabeangel

wannabeangel

꒰ა Missing Wings ໒꒱
Mar 14, 2026
138
slides between 5/10-8/10

sitting in my room thinking about life's recent events that are all my fault, and my health flare up on top of everything else is driving me insane, and keeping it all inside and seeming together enough to not make people concerned is even more insanity inducing. when guilt hits hard it can get up to 9/10, but i feel like 8 seems more reasonable. i only ever felt 1/10-0/10 with him, i cant have that anymore, so im back to where i was before
 
StalkedByDeath

StalkedByDeath

Borderline Personality Disorder
Sep 5, 2019
79
With a 10/10 being the mental state I was in during past attempts and a 0/10 being baseline... I'm at around a 6/10

I'm "doing well" externally, but it's so tiring. Internally I'm a mess. I find myself questioning if it's even worth it. One day I will die by my own hands, so is pushing through the pain to see what's on the other side really worth it? Dying means release. No more pain. No more struggles. It throws away what the future holds, but there's no guarantee the future doesn't hold more pain. For all I know, if I don't do it now, I'll do it in a few years and all this distress could have been avoided.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,153
Sur une échelle de 10/10 représentant mon état mental lors des tentatives précédentes et de 0/10 mon état de base, je me situerais autour de 6/10.

En apparence, tout va bien, mais c'est épuisant. Intérieurement, je suis un désastre. Je me demande même si ça en vaut la peine. Un jour, je mourrai de ma propre main, alors est-ce que ça vaut vraiment la peine de souffrir autant pour voir ce qui se trouve de l'autre côté ? Mourir, c'est la libération. Plus de douleur. Plus de souffrance. C'est renoncer à l'avenir, mais rien ne garantit qu'il ne réserve pas d'autres souffrances. Qui sait, si je ne le fais pas maintenant, je le ferai dans quelques années et toute cette détresse aura pu être évitée.
I think Same things🫂
 
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honestmind

Member
Jul 4, 2024
30
8.5/10 on the suicide scale, 7/10 on the mental distress scale.
 
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,153
Sur une échelle de 10/10 représentant mon état mental lors des tentatives précédentes et de 0/10 mon état de base, je me situerais autour de 6/10.

En apparence, tout va bien, mais c'est épuisant. Intérieurement, je suis un désastre. Je me demande même si ça en vaut la peine. Un jour, je mourrai de ma propre main, alors est-ce que ça vaut vraiment la peine de souffrir autant pour voir ce qui se trouve de l'autre côté ? Mourir, c'est la libération. Plus de douleur. Plus de souffrance. C'est renoncer à l'avenir, mais rien ne garantit qu'il ne réserve pas d'autres souffrances. Qui sait, si je ne le fais pas maintenant, je le ferai dans quelques années et toute cette détresse aura pu être évitée.
I think Same things🫂
8.5/10 on the suicide scale, 7/10 on the mental distress scale.
Suicide scale 3 mental distress 6
 
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nitrogenous

nitrogenous

Just wanna break free of all suffering
Dec 26, 2025
266
7.5/10 idk why I've woken up randomly feeling horrible today :(
 
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CookedRamen

Don't Look Down
Jun 10, 2024
9
4/10
I'm not particularly stressed. Mostly tired as others have said. It feels like I am carrying the weight of so many problems on my shoulders. And at the exact same time I'm carrying nothing. It's a confusing and convoluted feeling. I'm coming to terms with the idea of being homeless soon.
 
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PanaxMan

Experienced
Apr 11, 2023
289
About the same 8/10 at the end of this week it'll be a 9/10 until I eventually kick the bucket
 
randomuser2348

randomuser2348

Vandemonian
Apr 2, 2026
47
9/10

My only opportunity at escape has been ripped away because of people who have not only taken advantage of my good nature, but actively recognized that at my lowest they sought to drive me deeper.

I had nothing to do with those people, I did nothing to them, I interacted with them twice at most; and what do I get for it? My life flipped upside down and everything of value torn away from me. Why? Why would they do such a cruel thing? For supporting an individual's identity.
 
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Aflame5926

Aflame5926

le tired
Apr 3, 2026
354
8/10 - pretty bad day today. just feeling. exhausted feeling worthless
 

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