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Valhala

Valhala

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Jul 30, 2024
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I started to consider the practical realization of my CTB plan. I already have SN and benzo, I still need metho, propranolol and paracetamol. However, my plan is to travel from my continent (EU) to some remote part of the world and before implementing the protocol I will destroy all personal documents and my phone in order to make it impossible to identify my body. That way I would simply "disappear" for everyone who knows me, which seems to me the best solution. To the only woman I loved in my life I would send her an email in which I would explain the many things that led me to break up with her and thus completely make my life meaningless. I note that I would not even tell her directly about my CTB so as not to burden her with it, all I would like is for her to understand how much I still loved her endlessly and for her to finally be aware of it.
 
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cassie

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Jul 19, 2020
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if youre going to travel, theres little chance to keep your identity hidden
 
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Peter Skellern

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Won't your family search for you? Thinking you may have been murdered.
 
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Valhala

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Jul 30, 2024
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if youre going to travel, theres little chance to keep your identity hidden
I will travel by plane from my continent and then I will cross to another country by local, land transport.
Won't your family search for you? Thinking you may have been murdered.
I don't have an immediate family that would look for me. I have children who are grown and with whom I have almost no contact. There is no one who would look for me.
 
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Peter Skellern

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I will travel by plane from my continent and then I will cross to another country by local, land transport.

I don't have an immediate family that would look for me. I have children who are grown and with whom I have almost no contact. There is no one who would look for me.


But many hotels ask to see your passport at check-in, primarily for legal reasons as they are often required by local laws to record guest information including nationality and passport details for security and immigration purposes.

I'd imagine if you're obviously a foreigner that's going to happen.
 
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Valhala

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Jul 30, 2024
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But many hotels ask to see your passport at check-in, primarily for legal reasons as they are often required by local laws to record guest information including nationality and passport details for security and immigration purposes.

I'd imagine if you're obviously a foreigner that's going to happen.
I know and I have two potential solutions for that problem. The first (and best) is to try to find accommodation where identification is not required, and the second (if that doesn't work) is to go somewhere far into nature and do CTB there where no one will ever (or at least for a very long time) find me.
 
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ForeverCaHa

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Feb 16, 2025
442
I will travel by plane from my continent and then I will cross to another country by local, land transport.
I would imagine there would be passport checks on land borders too, no? I've never entered a country this way, but I'd definitely check how that system works between your countries of choice. Unfortunately in this day and age it's pretty hard to fully vanish, but it's a pretty interesting idea I'd say!
 
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Peter Skellern

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The first is extremely unlikely if you're very obviously a foreigner though - and you will be. Pretty much everywhere will want to see some form or other of ID in this day and age.
 
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locked*n*loaded

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You're going to travel with, at least, SN and benzos in your possession? Airplanes? Boats? Borders? Customs? Not going to end well for you.
 
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Peter Skellern

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You're going to travel with, at least, SN and benzos in your possession? Airplanes? Boats? Borders? Customs? Not going to end well for you.
Not without Prescriptions
 
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physic1st

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Feb 18, 2025
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I started to consider the practical realization of my CTB plan. I already have SN and benzo, I still need metho, propranolol and paracetamol. However, my plan is to travel from my continent (EU) to some remote part of the world and before implementing the protocol I will destroy all personal documents and my phone in order to make it impossible to identify my body. That way I would simply "disappear" for everyone who knows me, which seems to me the best solution. To the only woman I loved in my life I would send her an email in which I would explain the many things that led me to break up with her and thus completely make my life meaningless. I note that I would not even tell her directly about my CTB so as not to burden her with it, all I would like is for her to understand how much I still loved her endlessly and for her to finally be aware of it.
Idk how I can dm you, but can we like talk in dms please?
 
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Peter Skellern

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It's a nice idea and it might have worked in 1975 but unlikely to in 2025.
 
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FuneralCry

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I wish you the best in plans, I hope you find the freedom you search for.
 
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SchrodingerIsDed

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Feb 17, 2025
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This is not counting all the cameras and machine learning facial recognition they have these days. Not to mention whatever satellite magic they have now. Shit is getting very precise. There's no disappearing in 2025, not really. The data they have is deep and the technology is ridiculous. You leave the paper trail, but you are also leaving a digital trail, and a face trail wherever you go. They can even analyze the way you walk, so even if you wear a mask, they can still know it's you. Crazy shit. And that's just what we know about. Who knows what they have tucked away for their eyes only.
 
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Valhala

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Jul 30, 2024
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I would put SN in two bags of 25 g each, which I would vacuum seal or maybe repackage it in a box of powder supplements. I can get a prescription for benzos, and I would omit metho and propranolol from the protocol. Paracetamol can be bought without a prescription almost everywhere. Peru and Bolivia are some of the possible options, so maybe that way I would be able to get to N, SN would then only be a backup option.
You're going to travel with, at least, SN and benzos in your possession? Airplanes? Boats? Borders? Customs? Not going to end well for you.
Idk how I can dm you, but can we like talk in dms please?
Send me a message if you want, no problem.
 
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Peter Skellern

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Jan 10, 2025
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I'd point you to what the British Foreign Office said about Bolivia on another thread....

"Tourists, especially those travelling alone, are at some risk of 'express kidnapping' in Bolivia. These are opportunistic abductions aimed at extracting cash from the victim and/or their family. Victims may be held hostage for up to several days or even weeks while criminals use stolen bank or credit cards."
 
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physic1st

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I would put SN in two bags of 25 g each, which I would vacuum seal or maybe repackage it in a box of powder supplements. I can get a prescription for benzos, and I would omit metho and propranolol from the protocol. Paracetamol can be bought without a prescription almost everywhere. Peru and Bolivia are some of the possible options, so maybe that way I would be able to get to N, SN would then only be a backup option.


Send me a message if you want, no problem.
I still cant dm you for some reason so I'll just post it here. Would you mind sharing some of the places one can get SN? Im not based in the US so I wouldn't be aware of any of the places users here get it from. Any tips aswell regarding SN would be much appreciated - as if all else fails and ctb is the only contingency I wouldn't really want to fail..
 
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Valhala

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Jul 30, 2024
497
I still cant dm you for some reason so I'll just post it here. Would you mind sharing some of the places one can get SN? Im not based in the US so I wouldn't be aware of any of the places users here get it from. Any tips aswell regarding SN would be much appreciated - as if all else fails and ctb is the only contingency I wouldn't really want to fail..
Browse Polish sources online.
 
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