maybe todays the day

[bbye111]

currently chugging down a bottle of gin.. family's out.. maybe for a couple while. i gotta hurry.. will be attempting today

currently chugging down a bottle of gin.. family's out.. maybe for a couple while. i gotta hurry.. will be attempting today

alxohol tastes like absolute shit

 

[GasMonkey]

What's your method?

 

[bbye111]

What's your method?

hanging..hey i pussied out. it hurts like hell. shit ill be continuously living this shit of a hell. fuck.
i kept on sweating the whole time... my neck and lungs felt as if they were about to burst. ah god. i hate how pussy i am. why is ctb as hard as living. fuck.

 

[peacetime]

Yeah, I couldn't hang myself either. Currently waiting for next week, probably getting SN in less than 7 days. Then, peace. Fucking finally.

 

[bbye111]

hi... i failed... i got these dot marks on my neck, they look like. a bunch of mosquito bites. im drunk as hell and sweating a lot.

i won't recommend hanging... done it twice... still a fucking pussy... i think i'd rather have some SN instead, vomiting the hell out of shit... inside pain instead of this... god im tired. i didn't know it'd be this painful and hard... i just wanna die.

Yeah, I couldn't hang myself either. Currently waiting for next week, probably getting SN in less than 7 days. Then, peace. Fucking finally.

where did you get your SN?

 

[yyytry]

hi... i failed... i got these dot marks on my neck, they look like. a bunch of mosquito bites. im drunk as hell and sweating a lot.

i won't recommend hanging... done it twice... still a fucking pussy... i think i'd rather have some SN instead, vomiting the hell out of shit... inside pain instead of this... god im tired. i didn't know it'd be this painful and hard... i just wanna die.

where did you get your SN?

Sounds like you got hives going on from the alcohol. It used to happen to me with certain types of alcohol.

Sorry you're feeling like shit rn.

 

[FuneralCry]

Hanging really does sound like such a difficult, risky and horrible method to me, it's why I've never attempted it before but I really do envy those who managed to succeed with it and the courage that they had. It really makes hanging sound so much easier than it actually is when you hear about all the people managing to go through with it.

But what you went through sounds like such an awful experience and it's just so incredibly unfair how we have to suffer so much in finally leaving this hellish world behind, to feel trapped here is a punishment that we don't deserve. But I hope that you eventually find the freedom that you wish for, as I get that it's tiring still being here when you really want to be gone.

 

[bbye111]

Hanging really does sound like such a difficult, risky and horrible method to me, it's why I've never attempted it before but I really do envy those who managed to succeed with it and the courage that they had. It really makes hanging sound so much easier than it actually is when you hear about all the people managing to go through with it.

But what you went through sounds like such an awful experience and it's just so incredibly unfair how we have to suffer so much in finally leaving this hellish world behind, to feel trapped here is a punishment that we don't deserve. But I hope that you eventually find the freedom that you wish for, as I get that it's tiring still being here when you really want to be gone.

as i dropped the thought of attempting suicide, i said i'd live my life now as a better person.. but fuck, everything got way worse. i understand you sm on the part where you feel trapped now. the fact that this isn't going to end soon... horrible.

my depression's worse now. ngl, when i was planning the suicide i was so happy, i ate a lot without checking my weight or monitoring... no worries with my looks, what i did, just plain free. because i knew i was going to die anyway. and it wouldn't matter if i spent most of my money too.

now i'm just... here again. this time.. its not ending soon... :)

 

[june]

Hanging really does sound like such a difficult, risky and horrible method to me, it's why I've never attempted it before but I really do envy those who managed to succeed with it and the courage that they had. It really makes hanging sound so much easier than it actually is when you hear about all the people managing to go through with it.

But what you went through sounds like such an awful experience and it's just so incredibly unfair how we have to suffer so much in finally leaving this hellish world behind, to feel trapped here is a punishment that we don't deserve. But I hope that you eventually find the freedom that you wish for, as I get that it's tiring still being here when you really want to be gone.

I've heard it is hard to go through with