GT Darkarage
GT / always fear
- Nov 17, 2018
- 186
I'm very suicidal at the moment. Psh is my method. But everything is running out of time.
An uncle of mine died today. He is not exactly near, he lives in another city. The point is that even if my family is not directly affected.
That changes a few things. I'm sure that my parents maybe can travel to visit the family.
That makes things easier as I will have maybe some extra time. But more difficult as I planned to not let this week pass.
My parents are planning to travel soon. If I let them go, that means they will be far away if I do something stupid.
This scares me. Like, I need to be faster now or I will dealing with the consequences (being alone by my own for half a month).
Now I don't have antidepressants and the days have been very hard. I'm not able to find a job. Just a few savings I still have.
This is hard and it is what happens when you're not prepared or let time pass for too much time.
An uncle of mine died today. He is not exactly near, he lives in another city. The point is that even if my family is not directly affected.
That changes a few things. I'm sure that my parents maybe can travel to visit the family.
That makes things easier as I will have maybe some extra time. But more difficult as I planned to not let this week pass.
My parents are planning to travel soon. If I let them go, that means they will be far away if I do something stupid.
This scares me. Like, I need to be faster now or I will dealing with the consequences (being alone by my own for half a month).
Now I don't have antidepressants and the days have been very hard. I'm not able to find a job. Just a few savings I still have.
This is hard and it is what happens when you're not prepared or let time pass for too much time.
