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Bunabelldearest

Bunabelldearest

Internet angel ໒꒱
Jun 21, 2026
11
For me when I do go through with it I want to be dressed in a pretty dress. I want to look my best, makeup and all. Maybe its just cause the idea of people seeing me when im ugly even if im dead is really really mortifying to me.

What about you? I know most wont care what its in as long as there life is over. I'm just curious cause this is something I think about often.
Nso GIF
 
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pillfriends

pillfriends

Member
May 29, 2026
8
actually, yes


i will wear my dolce&gabbana jeans, and most likely either a hoodie or t-shirt rom my favorite brand (mari's rock)
 
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mutsu

mutsu

全部壊して
May 17, 2026
63
i would like to be in one of my jfashion coords, actually i have one thats similar to what ame wears, and id like to be hugging my guitar as i pass, its one of the few things i can kind of keep doing

i relate with the thought of not wanting to be seen ugly even in death,,, i want to die fashionably i suppose
 
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Bunabelldearest

Bunabelldearest

Internet angel ໒꒱
Jun 21, 2026
11
i would like to be in one of my jfashion coords, actually i have one thats similar to what ame wears, and id like to be hugging my guitar as i pass, its one of the few things i can kind of keep doing

i relate with the thought of not wanting to be seen ugly even in death,,, i want to die fashionably i suppose
Ohh I love jfashion! If I had any coords of my own I'd wear it...
Id like to be hugging my K-Angel doll. NSO has been my main joy for a few years so its helped me keep going...

dying fashionably is exactly how id put it! Being cute even when dead is my dream.
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
7,551
I don't think I'm particular in what I wear to CTB, I'm solely focused more on operational success than just aesthetics, but of course, with each CTB it is a very personal decision. I feel my time is coming closer itself too. I recently have even worse omens and recently things have taken a turn for the worst. I did make the most out of my copes but even then there is an ending or so.
 
Passenger4224

Passenger4224

I appreciate everything that can kill me.
Mar 8, 2026
274
Camouflage so nobody sees me!
 
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Tomorrow Is Today

Tomorrow Is Today

don’t get any big ideas
May 16, 2026
75
I used to paint shoes as a hobby, so I'll wear the first pair of Nike AF1s I've done with a sakura design. Maybe a nice short-sleeve button-down and my favorite Uniqlo pants

I get that it won't really matter when I'm gone but I really want to be in clothes that are comfortable and representative of me ya
 
seeyoulater26

seeyoulater26

Member
Feb 22, 2026
36
I want to wear something PRETTTTAAAAAAY!!!!
I want to die pretty!!!! I'm going out in style!
 
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Untoten_

Untoten_

Will be CTBing this year.
Jan 29, 2026
135
Meh, I can post it. They'll require a lot of sprucing up, but my old Number 1A uniform (Dress blues for anyone who is ex USMC since that's their only equivalent.), I don't mind making a little effort to get them back into shape. IMG 6291
 
ikiruNObungaku

ikiruNObungaku

I'm literary nonsense.
Jan 3, 2026
34
Wow, I never even considered what outfit to die in. I feel like it shouldn't be a casual outfit, but I also don't think it should be fancy either. I have never given it thought. Maybe something comfortable but nice looking? I would not want my outfit to halt the process in any way.
 
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astaroth81

Member
Feb 7, 2025
11
Nope doesn't matter in my case I'm planning to hopefully never be found or if I am hopefully my body will be fully decomposed by then so no one will have to see or deal with the unsightly look of post mortem swelling and excretion of bodily fluids and waste which just makes a huge disgusting mess and the last thing I want to be is a burden in death like I was in life.
 
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daemos

Member
Apr 26, 2026
22
A diaper (to catch all those nasty ass bodily fluids), and my nicest suit, on my bed with the airconditioning running and a plastic tarp all over to prevent anything leaking out so my room is spotless.
 
Lamentice

Lamentice

Schizoid Velvet Worm
Mar 27, 2023
252
Probably some comfy pajama-type clothes.
 
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DeathSweetDeath

Enlightened
Nov 12, 2025
1,332
Something super comfortable, and I'll also have a vinyl tarp under me for easier cleanup.
 

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