dqngerous
i am the damned, i am the dead
- Nov 11, 2024
- 31
hello, i'm @dqngerous! you can call me danger if you want. i'm a 19 year old girl from the US.
i discovered this site last night, it's kind of silly if you think about it. i am addicted to "dark" videos on youtube lol. long story short, i was watching a reddit video that mentioned the old subreddit and someone's story, danny, i think.
the youtuber in question was judgemental of the sub, but i was intrigued. i googled the subreddit and low and behold found this site! i spent hours lurking last night and decided to register this morning.
anyway, i'm getting a little carried away, lol!!! i'll try to make my story as condensed as possible.
i don't want to give away too much about myself so i'll just say this: i've been an anxious mess since i gained consciousness and depressed and suicidal (on and off) since adolescence. my mom died when i was 12 which has negatively affected me in many ways. in the past couple years i've realized my struggle with BED since i was a kid. i grew up in a poor family and my dad worked long hours so i hardly saw him as a kid, and when i did, he was always so angry. he's medicated and a great dad now, but i think the way he was when i was a child affected our ability to really connect. i love him but i don't feel close to him. but we have a good relationship. i think that pretty much covers everything.
it could be worse. i'm grateful for everything i have even if i can't help but feel a bit sorry for myself. i'm not looking for pity. just some people who won't judge me.
as of now i feel kind of stuck. i still live with my dad working a part time job. my social anxiety is holding me back. i know it is. and yet i can't seem to do anything more with my life. i don't think i'm capable to exist and function as a regular person in society. i've never felt i fit anywhere. the closest i've felt is in online fan spaces but even those can feel a bit cliquey.
anyways, that's a bit about me in terms of mental health and trauma, lol. i don't have any plants to CTB (i used the term!) as of now, but we'll see how it goes.
P.S. if you can't tell by my profile, i'm a huge michael jackson fan. if there's anymore on here feel free to comment or PM me!!!
i discovered this site last night, it's kind of silly if you think about it. i am addicted to "dark" videos on youtube lol. long story short, i was watching a reddit video that mentioned the old subreddit and someone's story, danny, i think.
the youtuber in question was judgemental of the sub, but i was intrigued. i googled the subreddit and low and behold found this site! i spent hours lurking last night and decided to register this morning.
anyway, i'm getting a little carried away, lol!!! i'll try to make my story as condensed as possible.
i don't want to give away too much about myself so i'll just say this: i've been an anxious mess since i gained consciousness and depressed and suicidal (on and off) since adolescence. my mom died when i was 12 which has negatively affected me in many ways. in the past couple years i've realized my struggle with BED since i was a kid. i grew up in a poor family and my dad worked long hours so i hardly saw him as a kid, and when i did, he was always so angry. he's medicated and a great dad now, but i think the way he was when i was a child affected our ability to really connect. i love him but i don't feel close to him. but we have a good relationship. i think that pretty much covers everything.
it could be worse. i'm grateful for everything i have even if i can't help but feel a bit sorry for myself. i'm not looking for pity. just some people who won't judge me.
as of now i feel kind of stuck. i still live with my dad working a part time job. my social anxiety is holding me back. i know it is. and yet i can't seem to do anything more with my life. i don't think i'm capable to exist and function as a regular person in society. i've never felt i fit anywhere. the closest i've felt is in online fan spaces but even those can feel a bit cliquey.
anyways, that's a bit about me in terms of mental health and trauma, lol. i don't have any plants to CTB (i used the term!) as of now, but we'll see how it goes.
P.S. if you can't tell by my profile, i'm a huge michael jackson fan. if there's anymore on here feel free to comment or PM me!!!
