I really thought my birthday last year would be my final one. But I have decided to really try to turn things around in 2026. It is really difficult but I'm trying. If things don't get better by the end of the year then I'll resume my plans to ctb. Anyways this means that I'll have another birthday and I don't know what to do. I've hated my birthday since my teens for lots of reasons. I have a lot of bad memories associated with that time of year. I was sectioned for the first time on my 20th birthday. There have also been many birthdays where I've been forgotten or let down by family & friends. Part of me also believes that I don't deserve to be celebrated. I don't know where that comes from though. I also find the attention quite overwhelming but when people forget my birthday I get upset
Last year I took myself away for the weekend so maybe I could do that again?
Do other people struggle with their birthday too? I'm so anxious just thinking about it.
Last year I took myself away for the weekend so maybe I could do that again?Do other people struggle with their birthday too? I'm so anxious just thinking about it.
