im pathetic

[ilk]

im tired of making the same stupid mistakes. im tired of hurting & crying, im tired of feeling. i want to ctb to avoid it all. why do i have to be so weak so fucking stupid & vulnerable. people hurt me. people call me crazy, weird, stupid. etc. my past haunts me. much more hurts me & all i want is to hang myself & be done.

but my family.

i love them. some days the urges get so strong i forget i do love them.

i hope one day ill finally be able to do it & write the best note possible for them wishing for forgiveness.

 

[unluckysadness]

I'm so sorry life has been so hard for you. You can PM if you want. You deserve peace. We all deserve peace here. That's so cruel

 

[Feldsparc]

I'm weak too. Can't think straight...only emotions bubble up in me. I screwed up my own life methodically