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briardweller

briardweller

Dreamer
Nov 16, 2025
24
I can get over it if I need to but I just don't sit well with the feeling of being punished biologically as my last act on planet Earth. My entire life has been suffering and anguish, punished just for existing.. I just feel like it would fuck me up psychologically in those last moments in an ironic way that here I am, being punished again in a horrific way just for trying to free myself from this loop of pain. I don't have barbiturates or anything like this. I don't have the ability to obtain those things. I would have to just take 25 grams of SN in water. I've had mine for a year and went back and forth with it. I've considered trying to save up for a cheap pistol and eating a bullet, but you have to aim it perfectly to hit your own brainstem. And it's just ugly and violent, I would prefer not to do it like that. And I'm really broke and it's hard to save up. I'm getting so overwhelmed I feel like screaming and just throwing myself off a building.
 
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swan7o7

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Apr 15, 2026
24
I need help for someone to shoot me, alot of times in the head. I don't even have messaging ability yet I'm hoping I get it later today
 
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jakethesnake

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DeathSweetDeath

Paragon
Nov 12, 2025
912
I hear you. No antiemetic? Better to at least have that.
 
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SASU-KE

Wizard
Nov 26, 2025
689
I need help for someone to shoot me, alot of times in the head. I don't even have messaging ability yet I'm hoping I get it later today
I think I've seen you post in the partners thread. That threads been deleted I believe.
 
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PanaxMan

Arcanist
Apr 11, 2023
411
I can get over it if I need to but I just don't sit well with the feeling of being punished biologically as my last act on planet Earth. My entire life has been suffering and anguish, punished just for existing.. I just feel like it would fuck me up psychologically in those last moments in an ironic way that here I am, being punished again in a horrific way just for trying to free myself from this loop of pain. I don't have barbiturates or anything like this. I don't have the ability to obtain those things. I would have to just take 25 grams of SN in water. I've had mine for a year and went back and forth with it. I've considered trying to save up for a cheap pistol and eating a bullet, but you have to aim it perfectly to hit your own brainstem. And it's just ugly and violent, I would prefer not to do it like that. And I'm really broke and it's hard to save up. I'm getting so overwhelmed I feel like screaming and just throwing myself off a building.
Well it'll hurt your stomach introducing the gag reflex so depends on you feel about that
 
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absolutethistime

shinigami
Feb 20, 2026
49
It might not be the most pleasant experience.
It'll work though.

"It is worth noting that some reports suggest there is a painful burning sensation upon consumption of SN and you are likely to vomit, this has led to the advice that one should make two servings in preparation in case the first is vomited. Even the PPH doesn't give SN a super high peacefulness rating in spite of the reported timeline, contrasted to Nembutal (barbituate) and Morphine (opioid)."
[Read more here]
 
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nights5467

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Aug 10, 2023
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I need help for someone to shoot me, alot of times in the head. I don't even have messaging ability yet I'm hoping I get it later today
if only there was a way for suicidal people to seek out homicidal people to do the job for us 😭 dexter shouldn't be killing criminals he should be killing the suicidal damn it
 
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Daisy*

Student
Mar 31, 2025
102
if only there was a way for suicidal people to seek out homicidal people to do the job for us 😭 dexter shouldn't be killing criminals he should be killing the suicidal damn it
Okay this is brilliant, if only...
 
purebliss

purebliss

"Just be happy" =)
Mar 3, 2026
363
if only there was a way for suicidal people to seek out homicidal people to do the job for us 😭 dexter shouldn't be killing criminals he should be killing the suicidal damn it
That would be one forum I would make sure to frequent every day.

A forum to meet people that want to kill and people that want to be killed.
With preferences and everything. Hell yeah
 
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gardenhouse

Experienced
Mar 26, 2026
242
That's why benzo is required to render u unconscious when sn is killing you.
 

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