I hate this

[SadGirl]

I have bipolar disorder with severe depression, generalized anxiety, and ADHD. Currently, I'm abusing alcohol and cocaine. This makes me lie to get money to buy drugs, which gives me a horrible feeling of guilt. I cheat, but I hate doing it; it seems like I do everything impulsively, which explains the bipolar disorder (hypomania). I don't want to be like this anymore, to feel this horrible guilt. I intend to and will get out of this, get clean and sober. Any help?

 

[timf]

There are some interesting videos on youtube by petersmithuk.about bipolar.

Before starting experimentation to see what might be effective in controlling this, it may be a good idea to get a little stability in your life. If you can begin to substitute other coping activities to replace drugs and alcohol, you might be able get the breathing room you need.

 

[deny_conformity]

As someone who knows all about poor impulse control due to bipolar I completely sympathise. It's important to get off the alcohol and cocaine because they just makes things worse. The hypomania is likely being induced by the cocaine, I keep well clear of it because it makes me fully manic.

I'm over a year into a major depressive episode but my medication is making things sort of manageable (mood stabiliser and antidepressant).