I hate being trans.

[borderline-feline]

Yep. Definitely TERF Island rn. I've been waiting 3 years to start low dose T and try and get top surgery. I'm way too poor to go private. And I've pretty much given up on it happening tbh now they've scrapped the biggest gender clinic in England and not provided a suitable alternative. (Doesn't help on top of the pre existing bpd/cptsd and occasional psychotic delusion...)

I feel you. I wish some of these people would just stop and pause to listen. Really listen, to what trans and trans fem/trans masc people are saying. Being trans or trans fem/masc in this world is harrrrd. No one is doing it for shits and giggles are they

Yeah, I started transitioning before I was diagnosed with BPD, so it didn't end up impacting my transition, but I can absolutely see how it could be a barrier with the "identity disturbance" thing. It can admittedly be a source of imposter syndrome for me, but I think the fact that I felt like I was on top of the world and was consistently happy for a few days really shows that it's the combination of imposter syndrome and OCD and not an actual sign that this wasn't right for me. My emotions rarely last long enough for me to fully process what I'm feeling, but I've been able to now that I've gotten breast implants.

I hope you're able to be the person you truly are, whether that's in life or in death.