I feel so empty, so sad and so mad all the time. I'm mad at myself for being the one I am that I push away people, I'm mad at myself for being so ugly, I'm so mad, I wish I wasn't born the way I did, I hate the way my mind thinks, I really hate it, there isn't a single thing that I don't hate about myself. I hate the way I associate all the things to my surroundings tu being ugly, and I just realized that all the bad things happen to me cs im a selfish bad person.
I wish i didn't need to feel the need to feel loved, I wish I could be okay on my own, I wish i could just shut the fuck up.
I hate the way I walk, I hate the way my voice sounds, I hate the way of how I treat myself, I hate the way how I treat others, I hate the way how I expect something about people knowing how pathetic I am, I hate the way I am bad person and how I envy people I shouldn't, I hate the way I look, I hate ny weight, I hate how fucking big is my head, I hate the way that I didn't realize it until I heard my friends talk about my fucking big head, I hate the way I treat badly my friends, I hate the way how my friends sended pictures of me knowing how fucking ugly and fat I am to make feel bad.
I hate the way of how people expected things from me and then got disappointed, I hate expectations.
I really hate the way I just can't fucking shut the fuck up, everything will be easy, I hate the fucking way how I feel the need to feel surrounded and it doesn't matter cs I will always feel alone.
I hate the way I envy everyone for every little thing that I'm not, for them having money, for them having beauty, for them having a good relationship with their parents, for the way they close friendships, for the way they are so kind, for the way they take care about themselves. I hate the way they have motivation and I all I do is scroll so I can't think of how pathetic i am
I feel that all my friends hate in secret for the fucking disgusting thing I am, I really feel like that book from osamu dazai no longer human, cs of how pathetic, bad, ugly, fat person I am.
I really hate feeling surrounded cs that fucking makes me feel sad and so conscious of myself, I wish I was one with the nothingness.
How the fuck can i stop being ugly
I wish i didn't need to feel the need to feel loved, I wish I could be okay on my own, I wish i could just shut the fuck up.
I hate the way I walk, I hate the way my voice sounds, I hate the way of how I treat myself, I hate the way how I treat others, I hate the way how I expect something about people knowing how pathetic I am, I hate the way I am bad person and how I envy people I shouldn't, I hate the way I look, I hate ny weight, I hate how fucking big is my head, I hate the way that I didn't realize it until I heard my friends talk about my fucking big head, I hate the way I treat badly my friends, I hate the way how my friends sended pictures of me knowing how fucking ugly and fat I am to make feel bad.
I hate the way of how people expected things from me and then got disappointed, I hate expectations.
I really hate the way I just can't fucking shut the fuck up, everything will be easy, I hate the fucking way how I feel the need to feel surrounded and it doesn't matter cs I will always feel alone.
I hate the way I envy everyone for every little thing that I'm not, for them having money, for them having beauty, for them having a good relationship with their parents, for the way they close friendships, for the way they are so kind, for the way they take care about themselves. I hate the way they have motivation and I all I do is scroll so I can't think of how pathetic i am
I feel that all my friends hate in secret for the fucking disgusting thing I am, I really feel like that book from osamu dazai no longer human, cs of how pathetic, bad, ugly, fat person I am.
I really hate feeling surrounded cs that fucking makes me feel sad and so conscious of myself, I wish I was one with the nothingness.
How the fuck can i stop being ugly
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