I don’t think I’ll talk about my feelings anymore.

[Water-Lily]

All my life I've been labeled too sensitive. I worry too much. I get too angry. I'm too emotional, I need to calm down, etc etc

It makes me wonder if I was really abused growing up. If maybe I was just a sensitive kid who should have been tougher to shake off the things done to me

Maybe it's my fault. Maybe the next time someone says or does something that hurts me, I just smile and take it

No point in verbalizing that I'm hurt by something someone does if I'm just a sensitive and unstable person

Maybe if someone hurts me it's not even abuse. I probably did something to deserve being treated a certain way. That usually does seem to be the case because I'm explosive and unstable anyways

So yeah, it's my fault. If I'm sad it's my fault. If I cry it's my fault. If someone hurts me it's my fault

 

[GlassMoon]

I honestly don't believe you deserve to be treated in a bad way, Water-lily. You don't have to accept someone else hurting you. Even if you feel guilty or worthless, you still deserve to be treated fairly and respectfully.

 

[CravingPeace]

It was never your fault, I can guarantee that. You seem like a kind-hearted person. Abuse can come in many forms, but sometimes I feel the worst is in the form of being gaslighted as a child. You are taught that your feelings are inappropriate for the situation, but your feelings are simply that - your feelings. There are no "wrong" feelings.

I'm glad you're here, friend

 

[opheliaoveragain]

I honestly don't believe you deserve to be treated in a bad way, Water-lily. You don't have to accept someone else hurting you. Even if you feel guilty or worthless, you still deserve to be treated fairly and respectfully.

agreed. you don't deserve to ever be hurt especially when younger, it's not your fault. even if your self worth bar is in hell, I don't believe anyone deserves abuse or harm. life is enough. sending you a massive hug

 

[easypeasy]

All my life I've been labeled too sensitive. I worry too much. I get too angry. I'm too emotional, I need to calm down, etc etc

It makes me wonder if I was really abused growing up. If maybe I was just a sensitive kid who should have been tougher to shake off the things done to me

Maybe it's my fault. Maybe the next time someone says or does something that hurts me, I just smile and take it

No point in verbalizing that I'm hurt by something someone does if I'm just a sensitive and unstable person

Maybe if someone hurts me it's not even abuse. I probably did something to deserve being treated a certain way. That usually does seem to be the case because I'm explosive and unstable anyways

So yeah, it's my fault. If I'm sad it's my fault. If I cry it's my fault. If someone hurts me it's my fault

It sounds like you haven't been supported how you deserve. Which means you need to use that sensitivity to love yourself and screw anybody who hurt you - deliberately or through neglect. It's up to you, now focus on your physical and emotional health.