I don't know what to say

[SadGirl]

I have suicidal ideation, but I just don't do it now because I got a job and I want to give life another chance or whatever. I have ADHD, depression and anxiety, this hinders a lot in my daily life, so let's see what this new job leads to. I really hope it works, my mother is totally narcissistic, she treats me badly, she tells me negative things, I really don't know how I'm still putting up with all this. If everything goes wrong, what is the best method for CTB? I've tried hanging but I can't. I want something quick and fatal.

 

[LostHighway]

I have suicidal ideation, but I just don't do it now because I got a job and I want to give life another chance or whatever. I have ADHD, depression and anxiety, this hinders a lot in my daily life, so let's see what this new job leads to. I really hope it works, my mother is totally narcissistic, she treats me badly, she tells me negative things, I really don't know how I'm still putting up with all this. If everything goes wrong, what is the best method for CTB? I've tried hanging but I can't. I want something quick and fatal.

Put CTB out of your mind for now. Focus on the job. Focus on your friends and things you love. Art? Photography? Music? Outdoor concerts? If you don't have friends, ask yourself why. And reach out to other young people by joining fun groups on Meetup. Don't tell people, except those you trust with your life, anything negative. No woe-is-me. This scares them off. I'm not saying you do this. I'm talking about how I was when I was young. Get therapy for that mom of yours. I'm so very sorry about that. It must be so difficult.

 

[SadGirl]

Put CTB out of your mind for now. Focus on the job. Focus on your friends and things you love. Art? Photography? Music? Outdoor concerts? If you don't have friends, ask yourself why. And reach out to other young people by joining fun groups on Meetup. Don't tell people, except those you trust with your life, anything negative. No woe-is-me. This scares them off. I'm not saying you do this. I'm talking about how I was when I was young. Get therapy for that mom of yours. I'm so very sorry about that. It must be so difficult.

My mother wouldn't go to therapy, but I do! I have few friends but I think I'll try to go out more and try to make more friends. I'm not sociable, I'm shy and introverted and I feel excluded even by my family and in fact I am. So I'm getting used to being alone forever.

 

[Alias Pluto]

Im getting used to being alone too. Some rando told me "you're a bad father, your son is acting naughty outside." I'm like nice to meet you too. Fuck off. My girlfriend didn't like that. I'd rather be alone than deal with bullshit.

 

[SadGirl]

Im getting used to being alone too. Some rando told me "you're a bad father, your son is acting naughty outside." I'm like nice to meet you too. Fuck off. My girlfriend didn't like that. I'd rather be alone than deal with bullshit.

Are you a father? If you're doing your best it's okay, so as a daughter I'm trying to be a better person, stop drinking and using cocaine. This job will help me, at least I hope. If it doesn't work out, there is a high probability of me CTB.

Im getting used to being alone too. Some rando told me "you're a bad father, your son is acting naughty outside." I'm like nice to meet you too. Fuck off. My girlfriend didn't like that. I'd rather be alone than deal with bullshit.

Don't mind the people say, no matter how hard it is. I hear from my family that I'm "bad." But I try not to let it get me down so much, but sometimes I get sad about it, because it's my fault most of the time.

 

[Alias Pluto]

I beat myself up all day so i don't need someone to verbally remind me too. I agree with you. Sorry for your struggles. I just snapped recently and it's fresh in my mind and ruminating about that persons comment about my son and me. I get defensive when people say negative things to me like I'm unaware. Anyways didn't want to take over your thread had to vent

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

I have suicidal ideation, but I just don't do it now because I got a job and I want to give life another chance or whatever. I have ADHD, depression and anxiety, this hinders a lot in my daily life, so let's see what this new job leads to. I really hope it works, my mother is totally narcissistic, she treats me badly, she tells me negative things, I really don't know how I'm still putting up with all this. If everything goes wrong, what is the best method for CTB? I've tried hanging but I can't. I want something quick and fatal.

Jumping

But in your situation dont actually jump

Just go to the bridge and look at the horizon and talk to random concerned guys
You might be surprised at the results

 

[LostHighway]

My mother wouldn't go to therapy, but I do! I have few friends but I think I'll try to go out more and try to make more friends. I'm not sociable, I'm shy and introverted and I feel excluded even by my family and in fact I am. So I'm getting used to being alone forever.

No, don't talk that way! You're shy, and that's okay! I used to be painfully shy. I was bitter and resentful of people. Then, something just clicked. And I popped out of my shell. It truly does get easier. Just be warm towards others, be an active listener by asking questions and genuinely listening and responding to their answers. Keep your negative thoughts about yourself to yourself when you're getting to know people. And another really important tip - if you don't know much about it - learn about current events and pop culture. Politics, what's happening in our society, good films and music, good TV shows, etc. That way, when you talk with people you can keep up with conversation. And add your own insights. I know people don't like small talk, but it's how friendships start. Enjoy your new job. And keep us posted. Oh, one more thing - when you make new friends, make sure they are supportive, positive, emotionally healthy, interesting and kind to others. Create a new family.