How do you deal with the guilt of leaving a partner behind? How do I let them know it's not their fault?

[lameemo]

I just want to throw everything out there, I'm in a pretty bad headspace. To be honest I have for years, past 6 months or so it's been getting worse. I'm autstic and I can't work due to it (no I won't prove shit to anyone that I can't work, believe me or don't). It's just been driving me insane, I cannot live on SS, oh plus they won't fucking give it to me. He has his own issues, and I doubt he'll make enough to support both of us. Being with me is setting us up for a lifetime of poverty.


Yeah he might be fine with that ..but I'm not. I'm only 20, I simply do not want to live like this anymore. My issues can never be fixed because they're sytemtic. The country will never just start caring about people like me. We've been together for years, since 8th grade. But love just isn't enough, love cannot save me here


How do I communicate, that I'm sorry I'm hurting him. That I love him, but I'm just so tired. He out of everyone knows I tried.

 

[DoomsdayCTB]

Write what you said in the 2nd paragraph. If you're certain, put a well written letter in a place only he can get to. His jacket/car/active email/etc. Tell him to move forward and live a happy life. That you will be looking for him, helping him on the other side. That seems to be a thing that comforts people. It has comforted me.

 

[lameemo]

Thank you that is good advice,I truly would want him to live the best he could without me