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@new life about your dog, are you afraid of walking him/her now with the coronavirus being about, it's making me question whether i should still be walking my dog? Also are you still attending uni?
I still walk him yes, if i get the virus i get it LOL does not bother me. They have moved uni to online learning only.
 
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I still walk him yes, if i get the virus i get it LOL does not bother me. They have moved uni to online learning only.
Haha, i'm not too afraid of it myself but i'd hate to pass it to my elderly mother as i live with her. I will carry on walking my dog as i don't go far or come into contact with people. I'm doing a distance learning degree so corona makes no difference to this.
 
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As of late, I've been watching Twitch.tv the entire day. That's my life.

I'm only staying alive because of my family. I don't know how long I'm going to hold out.
 
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Haha, i'm not too afraid of it myself but i'd hate to pass it to my elderly mother as i live with her. I will carry on walking my dog as i don't go far or come into contact with people. I'm doing a distance learning degree myself with open university so corona makes no difference to this.
Yes i would not like to.pass it on to anyone either. I dont have contact with people either. Thats good then at least it reduces your risk. Are you planning on ctb.
As of late, I've been watching Twitch.tv the entire day. That's my life.

I'm only staying alive because of my family. I don't know how long I'm going to hold out.
I just watch youtube, tv and movies aswell so i know how u feel. I understand your reason for staying alive. I am not saying don't stay alive for your family, but you need to do what is right for you. Your family will carry on living whatever you choose. If you decide to ctb i wish you peace. Again I am not saying dont stay alive we all wish you did, but u need to do what is right for you.
 
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Yes i would not like to.pass it on to anyone either. I dont have contact with people either. Thats good then at least it reduces your risk. Are you planning on ctb.

I just watch youtube, tv and movies aswell so i know how u feel. I understand your reason for staying alive. I am not saying don't stay alive for your family, but you need to do what is right for you. Your family will carry on living whatever you choose. If you decide to ctb i wish you peace. Again I am not saying dont stay alive we all wish you did, but u need to do what is right for you.
I'm unhappy now but not exactly suicidal, my thoughts on ctb is that it won't happen until after my mum dies, it would literally break her heart if i killed myself now so i just can't do it. I don't judge others who ctb with loved one's around as i know everyone's situation is different. It'll be the loneliness after my mum passes that'll drive me to ctb i can see no point in a life without human contact.
 
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Cancer is horrible i hope they find a cure that works.
ITs my personal opinion that they have a cure. But big pharma don't want the public knowing about it. It's all about disease management... Not curing. That's just my personal opinion.
cancer is horrible. Seeing my grandmother in hospital with a hole in her throat was awful. I bought scarves for her. She wanted her throat covered. Everytime I visited I bought her a new scarf. I miss her.
 
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ITs my personal opinion that they have a cure. But big pharma don't want the public knowing about it. It's all about disease management... Not curing. That's just my personal opinion.
cancer is horrible. Seeing my grandmother in hospital with a hole in her throat was awful. I bought scarves for her. She wanted her throat covered. Everytime I visited I bought her a new scarf. I miss her.
That was nice off you and i respect your opinion.
 
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That was nice off you and i respect your opinion.
Thank you very much. I know the subject is contentious. I wish cancer never existed!
 
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I'm unhappy now but not exactly suicidal, my thoughts on ctb is that it won't happen until after my mum dies, it would literally break her heart if i killed myself now so i just can't do it. I don't judge others who ctb with loved one's around as i know everyone's situation is different. It'll be the loneliness after my mum passes that'll drive me to ctb i can see no point in a life without human contact.
I completely get why you dont want to ctb yet. You dont want to hurt your mum at all and i understa d. My situation is i am still going to ctb as i need to do what is right for me, and i belive i cant hold on to life and be unhappy just because of my mum
 
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I play video games and watch movies then i cry myself to sleep. Thats practically my day in day out since January .
 
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Is that your quote thats really nice, do you mind if i use it for Twitter etc.
In my mother tongue we say "Time heals all wounds", so probably not mine :hug:
 
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I manage by distracting myself with various stuff - videogames, TV shows, movies, books, going out (obviously not right now beacause of the pandemic but usually I'd go out with friends every now and then) and last but not least - meds. I still manage to get through my days and even though there are good moments, my anxiety, depression and self-loath have tired me so much that I don't know how much longer I will be holding on.
 
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I try to avoid depression triggers and distract myself with activities I find stimulating. In essence, it's a kind of constructive escapism. It works just fine now, but it will obviously not work forever.
 
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I play video games and watch movies then i cry myself to sleep. Thats practically my day in day out since January .
I can relate to that, i cry quite often.
In my mother tongue we say "Time heals all wounds", so probably not mine :hug:
I still like it either way.❤
I manage by distracting myself with various stuff - videogames, TV shows, movies, books, going out (obviously not right now beacause of the pandemic but usually I'd go out with friends every now and then) and last but not least - meds. I still manage to get through my days and even though there are good moments, my anxiety, depression and self-loath have tired me so much that I don't know how much longer I will be holding on.
I do some of the atuff you said myself such as tv and movies and gping out with my.one best friend. I take my meds also even though they don't work but intake them to keep mental health team happy that i am engaging in support. I have had enough of anxiety and depression as well that's why i am letting go in August. If you decide to go and ctb and wish you a peaceful journey and hope you find peace.
I try to avoid depression triggers and distract myself with activities I find stimulating. In essence, it's a kind of constructive escapism. It works just fine now, but it will obviously not work forever.
I use to be able to avoid depression triggers and had activities i enjoyed and did quite a lot, not anymore though i just want to ctb. It is constructive escapism for definite.
 
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I use to be able to avoid depression triggers and had activities i enjoyed and did quite a lot, not anymore though i just want to ctb. It is constructive escapism for definite.

I fear that I'll reach that point soon too. May I ask what changed so you couldn't live like that anymore?
 
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I fear that I'll reach that point soon too. May I ask what changed so you couldn't live like that anymore?
I am just fed up of everything, i have no job, failed uni nearly twice, autistic and nobody understands and everything i try and do just fails. Thats just a few of the long list of things.
 
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I am just fed up of everything, i have no job, failed uni nearly twice, autistic and nobody understands and everything i try and do just fails. Thats just a few of the long list of things.

That's a shitty situation, not two ways about it. Are there no job opportunities where you live? If so, would it be possible to give uni one more shot instead?
 
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That's a shitty situation, not two ways about it. Are there no job opportunities where you live? If so, would it be possible to give uni one more shot instead?
It is a shit situation for sure, thsts why i am ctb. There are job opotunities but i get nowhere, most likely because i dont know what to say in interviews due to me being autistic . I cant give uni another shot as i have ran out of funding. I just want to go now and be at peace, we do not get a choice to be born but we have a human right when to die.
 
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If there are job opportunities, maybe you shouldn't give up just yet? I know there are instructional videos about how to behave in different social situations, so maybe you could take a look at that? Social interaction in everyday life is tricky, but it's rather scripted and predictable in job interviews.
 
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If there are job opportunities, maybe you shouldn't give up just yet? I know there are instructional videos about how to behave in different social situations, so maybe you could take a look at that? Social interaction in everyday life is tricky, but it's rather scripted and predictable in job interviews.
The job opportunities are going to dry up really quick cause of this coronavirus. This shit is without a doubt going to severely damage the economy and put the world into another recession.
 
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If there are job opportunities, maybe you shouldn't give up just yet? I know there are instructional videos about how to behave in different social situations, so maybe you could take a look at that? Social interaction in everyday life is tricky, but it's rather scripted and predictable in job interviews.
I am giving up as i want to ctb, i have never been so certain. I might take a look at those videos thank you. It is scripted and i can't seem to follow that script and be normal like everybody else.
The job opportunities are going to dry up really quick cause of this coronavirus. This shit is without a doubt going to severely damage the economy and put the world into another recession.
It almost is a certainty. That's why ctb also seems to be the best thing to do before the recession hits.
 
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I am giving up as i want to ctb, i have never been so certain. I might take a look at those videos thank you. It is scripted and i can't seem to follow that script and be normal like everybody else.

It almost is a certainty. That's why ctb also seems to be the best thing to do before the recession hits.
Yeah this coronavirus thing changes everything.

idk if I should ctb or wait till the recession is done with and see how the exchange rates are with various currencies across the globe.

If the US has a really strong position relative to other currencies I may decide fuck it and just go live in another country for a year or so, fuck around and have fun while the US economy fixes itself.
 
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Yeah this coronavirus thing changes everything.

idk if I should ctb or wait till the recession is done with and see how the exchange rates are with various currencies across the globe.

If the US has a really strong position relative to other currencies I may decide fuck it and just go live in another country for a year or so, fuck around and have fun while the US economy fixes itself.
Sound like a plan, i wanted to live in another country but cant as i dont have the money at the moment. I need all my money for my ctb kit in augast.
 
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Sound like a plan, i wanted to live in another country but cant as i dont have the money at the moment. I need all my money for my ctb kit in augast.
Yeah I'm lucky to have a financial bunker for safety.

Im really hoping the scenario I laid out becomes reality. If the economy tanks but travel restrictions are lifted and the dollar is strong I'm just gonna get the hell out of here and just go have fun wit my life. My lease on my apartment ends by summer so I really really hope travel restrictions are lifted by then.
 
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Yeah I'm lucky to have a financial bunker for safety.

Im really hoping the scenario I laid out becomes reality. If the economy tanks but travel restrictions are lifted and the dollar is strong I'm just gonna get the hell out of here and just go have fun wit my life. My lease on my apartment ends by summer so I really really hope travel restrictions are lifted by then.
Sure they will be.
 
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Sure they will be.
I hope you're right.

its going to suck so bad if there is no travel all through summer. I'll definitely ctb if I'm stuck here and can't leave before my lease ends
 
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Why can't you ctb now.

Why can't you ctb now.

I don't think I can cause of the quarantine. Can't rent a hotel and there's no way I'm ctbing in my apartment. No one comes to my apartment so my body wouldn't be found for weeks.

If I get desperate I'll just drive somewhere in nature and take my SN there.
 
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I don't think I can cause of the quarantine. Can't rent a hotel and there's no way I'm ctbing in my apartment. No one comes to my apartment so my body wouldn't be found for weeks.

If I get desperate I'll just drive somewhere in nature and take my SN there.
Ohh your country is under quarantine the uk is not yet. Yeah i can see why you dont want to ctb in your apartment, you at least want your body to be found, at least i do. Taking SN in nature is a nice place to do it, however what youngoing to do whilst waiting to die, dosent it take a few hours to kill you.
 
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Ohh your country is under quarantine the uk is not yet. Yeah i can see why you dont want to ctb in your apartment, you at least want your body to be found, at least i do. Taking SN in nature is a nice place to do it, however what youngoing to do whilst waiting to die, dosent it take a few hours to kill you.
Yeah exactly.

yeah I want my body to be found so ctbing in my apartment is not an option.

Yeah I'm staying alive for now to see what happens with this coronavirus but I'm at the brink of ctbing so I could change my mind at any moment.
 
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