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- Feb 16, 2021
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Yes that was the one I hadYou mean something like this? I've thought about using it myself but people on the internet say it needs to be screwed on to the door-frame or it slips.
Yes that was the one I hadYou mean something like this? I've thought about using it myself but people on the internet say it needs to be screwed on to the door-frame or it slips.
I appreciate the kind words brother. I hope we all find our peace one day. I truly doHey please don't say that. You have no clue how many times I failed partial attempts, it's difficult to go through with it. It must have been insanely difficult going through that, it personally broke me mentally and I think I'm going insane. I can relate. It's too hard, very unnecessarily difficult to just do it and end it all. I hope we can find peace, just for things to not be as bad as we expect.
It really depends on you, as no one knows your tolerance for these substances. But you can experiment and figure out how much you really need to feel the courage to commit.and what amounts should I take?
Your doctor was right: lorazepam and alprazolam are both benzodiazepines and therefore both do the same thing. If you take both, you will double the effect.I ask because my doctor said I shouldn't use alprazolam with lorazepam. I would be interested in the tolerability of the drugs. not that the drugs cancel each other out or rather reinforce each other?
I wish I knew.... Tried it yesterday night, really meant it, got a sure position to block the arteries, but such a visceral fear seized me when sounds (chatter in the street) started to fade and get distorted… It was so awful, I felt so bad. Then tried it again, kind of passed out while fiddling with the noose, came back feeling even worse, now I got a scratch on my neck I hope nobody notices. Overall it really felt like a total failure, but I wonder if repetition and practice could somehow help control the SI ? Am I kidding myself again ?How do you make it?
I have been asking myself this question after every attempt or "practice" with partial. It's just too difficult. Am I just scaring myself doing useless things with hanging and playing around or am I gradually lowering my SI and hopefully dying out soon? Is it worth all the trouble, I just can't fucking know...Am I kidding myself again ?
I'd rather avoid alcohol as it would only make me more likely to mess things up, and not really make me less anxious, but maybe an anti anxiety could help. But I suspect a quite large dose would be required. I'm quite immune to chemicals. I once tried to eat oleander to ctb, but only made my stomach hurt like hell for a few days... Well it was a long time ago and a totally unplanned desperate act. Stupid. Don't do it !have you tried alcohol and medication like me? I apparently had a little too much to do the rest in a controlled manner. then SI basked not being so strong
Are you able to resist it for a longer time now ? I'm hoping that by gradually increasing the delay I could succeed almost by accident, a bit like kids playing the scarf game. But I have a long way to go, I bail out after a couple seconds right now, well barelyI have been asking myself this question after every attempt or "practice" with partial. It's just too difficult. Am I just scaring myself doing useless things with hanging and playing around or am I gradually lowering my SI and hopefully dying out soon? Is it worth all the trouble, I just can't fucking know...
yes, but i think alcohol inhibits something. that it is easier because thoughts are kept to a minimum. I just don't think I should take that many pills. only tablets don't do much, I've already tested it. there is a lack of 'don't care' attitudes and that can only be achieved with alcohol I thinkI'd rather avoid alcohol as it would only make me more likely to mess things up, and not really make me less anxious, but maybe an anti anxiety could help. But I suspect a quite large dose would be required. I'm quite immune to chemicals. I once tried to eat oleander to ctb, but only made my stomach hurt like hell for a few days... Well it was a long time ago and a totally unplanned desperate act. Stupid. Don't do it !
Are you able to resist it for a longer time now ? I'm hoping that by gradually increasing the delay I could succeed almost by accident, a bit like kids playing the scarf game. But I have a long way to go, I bail out after a couple seconds right now, well barely
It probably varies from one person to the other, if it works for you then use it For me it would require a lot, as I am a regular drinker, and I would be afraid to lose control at such a crucial time. But it's my control freak side...it may be different for you (hopefully, because yes it could be really useful)yes, but i think alcohol inhibits something. that it is easier because thoughts are kept to a minimum. I just don't think I should take that many pills. only tablets don't do much, I've already tested it. there is a lack of 'don't care' attitudes and that can only be achieved with alcohol I think
? Repostdoes anyone have experience to cushion the rope that you can still breathe? I try to test it under the chin because it is too painful under the larynx. I just can't breathe under my chin. should I place a washcloth on the front of the windpipe? or does that increase the pressure then even more? or is there less pressure on the arteries then? does anyone have experience with upholstery?
I place the rope below the Adam 's apple and I have no problem with breathing, and am quite comfortable, no pain but a bit of irritation due to rope friction. But it seems to be person dependent, as I heard some prefer above the apple.does anyone have experience to cushion the rope that you can still breathe? I try to test it under the chin because it is too painful under the larynx. I just can't breathe under my chin. should I place a washcloth on the front of the windpipe? or does that increase the pressure then even more? or is there less pressure on the arteries then? does anyone have experience with upholstery?
IMO sounds like a good idea.I think it would be best to prepare the setup. sober once hang test. so that the stability is tested. then drink something, possibly with a drug. keep drinking and when you notice it is slowly coming, put another tablet in the sling. then continue drinking. The sling should be slightly tightened and in position, then at some point you just let yourself go and the rest should be done. do others do the same? or is there any improvement?
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with me you express that very under the apple. that's very uncomfortable that's why I want to do it over it but then I can't breatheI place the rope below the Adam 's apple and I have no problem with breathing, and am quite comfortable, no pain but a bit of irritation due to rope friction. But it seems to be person dependent, as I heard some prefer above the apple.
Pull-up bar, rope coming from above. partial suspension. I tend the loop to chest height, and then let it sink inIMO sounds like a good idea.
What kind of setup do you have for hanging?
put a cloth or scarf around your neck, some padding is okay, just not too thickI tryed partial hanging today i lasted barely 20 seconds the rope burned my neck so much
isn't it the point? xDwith me you express that very under the apple. that's very uncomfortable that's why I want to do it over it but then I can't breathe
Pull-up bar, rope coming from above. partial suspension. I tend the loop to chest height, and then let it sink in
put a cloth or scarf around your neck, some padding is okay, just not too thick
I also would like to know this, I've half attempted by trapping the rope in the top of the door , I've done the hand test, pulling down with my hand it stays in position . I've only managed to get as far as putting my head through the loop but no further as si keeps getting in the way I'm as scared it will go wrongIs it possible to hang yourself without a ligature point - ie. by trapping a rope or similar within a closed door?