how often do you all think of suicide?

[citrusrope]

I think of it every few minutes. I'm slowly wearing down.

 

[Jade10666]

as i find myself getting older and still facing my mental health issues and suicidal thoughts i've realized that i've just increasingly grown more suicidal despite efforts to get better and now having different reasons to be.

these past few months have been especially hard, as i've genuinely thought about suicide. every. single. day.

i can distract myself for a little, maybe even a while, but eventually i'll go back to feeling like i want to die. or that i should've been dead already. or that i have to die.

and, without fail, these thoughts happen at the very least once day (though it's most often more than once).

so, i was just curious about how often you all think about suicide and in what ways it manifests?

also, this is my first post so hi everyone! :)

My feelings about suicide goes innwsves. I will obsess about it and plan it to the point I'm booking hotel rooms nd buying the rope.

The wave falls apart and so does the desire. If I make an attempt that is successful it will be on a wave

 

[worthless123]

Every minute of every day. All my thoughts eventually lead back to "Yeah but you know you still have to CTB, right?"

 

[dontletthembribeyou]

I think about it every day, basically whenever I reach a certain level of being upset. It's been this way since I was like 8

 

[LostLily]

Nearly every day, it is almost always in the back of the mind .

 

[divinemistress36]

Most people think about what needs to be done for the day, childhood memories, sex, ect but my brain thinks about death most the day

 

[Ligottian]

I think about it all the time. Especially wondering what will be the final straw or breaking point that prompts me to actually do it instead of thinking about it.

 

[bankai]

Every day for the past few years.i fantasize and pray.I pray for death. I'll choose death over suicide. I hope you understand what I'm trying to say. I wish to pass on automatically rather than have to actively take my life. I still think of suicide as a waste. However, if it comes to that, then fine. I'll take my own life.I pray to God and the devil and everything in between to take my life, but it just doesn't happen. Every day I wake up just having to go through the day all over again. Soon enough, I'll be the master of my own destiny.Fuck this world.

 

[deepsweetdiver]

Every single day. I used to be a little better about the thoughts and could distract myself from them, but now they're a constant thing gnawing in my brain. Each morning I realize I'm still alive and it feels like torture.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

Every single day. Checking the days off the calendar, each day passed is one less to have to wait.

 

[Lostmyonlyson]

The moment I wake up I realize I'm still here, then it all starts to flood back again, I work almost 12 hours per day, resting at weekends, usually I keep focused on my task but sometimes I caught myself wondering about suicide and stop whatever I was doing.

 

[billie]

i'm chronically suicidal and therefore i think about suicide every day

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

Every day, it's always there, like a shadow.

 

[NonEssential]

My psychiatrist told me to call the hotline if I ever felt suicidal. I wanted to tell her I can't call that much.
(not going to call there even once, sorry)