How many of you have jobs?

[Emily_Numb]

I have my own business that I am no longer able to work in because of my mental health problems. Thankfully I am financially solvent.

 

[makingsure4]

I'm on disability. Wish I could work. Leaves my life empty...not having a job. Anyone want to hire me! Just joking :)

 

[Zimcity]

I have a job I love and Excel in.
Meaningless without my family.

 

[WornOutLife]

I've been unemployed for 6 months because of becoming a NEET but somehow now I'm better and working again.
I teach English to spanish and chinese speakers.

 

[hoffnungstod]

My job is meaningless.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

On track to make two years unemployed come the spring.

 

[Freedom Believer]

I'm in college but it sucks. I've been in college since fall 2019 and I only have about 20 credits to my name. I have a part-time job and it's not bad but it's repetitive.

 

[soakmeinbleach]

on disability,, i went to my first job interview last year(?) after finishing school n had a massive breakdown after n since then been staying home

 

[TotallyIsolated]

I am super lucky to have a job that isn't affected by COVID. I freaking hate working from home, though. As soon as this shit is over I'm going straight back to the office!

 

[CatabolicSeed]

Just started a new job today. Won't last that long though since I set my date for May of this year.

 

[Shadowrider]

Forever unemployed.
Because cleaning the toilets, washing the floor, doing the dishes or flipping burgers is too much to ask for - if you are an immigrant like me, with an unacceptable name that sounds too foreigner-ish.
No wonder you don't even get a low-status job that's typical for immigrants to get. Especially now that supermarket cashier jobs are slowly disappearing.
They don't even read your job applications, because of your foreigner-sounding name. You have to set your foot in first and gradually work yourself up.
(At least this is what I had to hear from certain nice people who claim to personally disagree with discrimination. They said this in aim to comfort me and to make me more optimistic. I still wonder what they would have said if they had wanted to make me even more hopeless.)

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

I can't work or study, tried many times. Still trying, actually. It always ends with me breaking down and quitting. Not in a cringy, public way at least. I just accumulate psychological damage after seeing normal people without my environmental and genetic defects. After a while it gets too much and now I'm practically undesirable on the job market until/if I get some kind of education/expertise or something unexpected happens. I don't get any money from the gov't, but might have to later idk. The plan is to not think about the future whilst still being able to anticipate when the bad shit really starts and cingtb.

 

[inthemoonblue]

I just started a new job. I chose it because it seemed fun and less stressful than my previous one, but the anxiety it's been causing me is still so intense. I feel like such a joke. Seems like I can't mentally handle having any amount of responsibility whatsoever.

 

[Shadowrider]

I can't work or study, tried many times. Still trying, actually. It always ends with me breaking down and quitting. Not in a cringy, public way at least. I just accumulate psychological damage after seeing normal people without my environmental and genetic defects. After a while it gets too much and now I'm practically undesirable on the job market until/if I get some kind of education/expertise or something unexpected happens. I don't get any money from the gov't, but might have to later idk. The plan is to not think about the future whilst still being able to anticipate when the bad shit really starts and cingtb.

This sounds so damned familiar! I tried to study. Ended up being self-dangerous and hopeless.
Being practically undesirable... oh yes. Sad to see that I am not alone!
The most difficult question is: how does one get any kind of education or experience while one is unable to function and this inner damage is accumulating until you feel CTB is the only rational thing to do?

Damned crap. I assume there are many of us who just want to earn their living and to contribute to the world - not to become the top CEO or the Very Important yuppie whatsoever -, is this such a grandiose dream to have? :(

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

This sounds so damned familiar! I tried to study. Ended up being self-dangerous and hopeless.
Being practically undesirable... oh yes. Sad to see that I am not alone!
The most difficult question is: how does one get any kind of education or experience while one is unable to function and this inner damage is accumulating until you feel CTB is the only rational thing to do?

Damned crap. I assume there are many of us who just want to earn their living and to contribute to the world - not to become the top CEO or the Very Important yuppie whatsoever -, is this such a grandiose dream to have? :(

I don't really care about "earning" or "contributing" anymore. I'm not really sure why I'm even considering getting a job/edu tbh. Guess there's still some guilt being produced by my pee-brain from social conditioning during kindergarten or sum shit heh.

 

[AutoTap]

I can't mentally handle a job.. I can barely mentally handle staying alive. Always so anxious... living with parents

 

[confused-gemini]

I do have an office job were no college education is needed and that's not too difficult (and just a little stressful sometimes).
I consider myself lucky to have found something I actually can do without feeling too pressured or overwhelmed.
Otherwise I'd definitely be on disability.

What job is it? I want an office job that isn't customer service related which I'm not even sure exists

 

[Teas]

I used to have a job till the pandemic hit. I'm just finishing up my school coursework now.

 

[LenkaX]

I had together about 15 jobs in my life and now I'm NEET.

 

[NegativeSymptoms]

I am on disability (which is very small in my country) and living with my parents. Rotting on my sofa or in mental hospital for the last 5 years. Too dumb/uneducated/anxious/inept/inadequate for any kind of job. I should have killed myself sooner.

 

[mattymate]

And hating it!

 

[AbandonedGirl]

Started working as an accountant a month ago. First job ever.

 

[greebo6]

I wish I could get/have a job.
Its horrible being unwanted by anyone for anything anywhere.

 

[Darrenloses]

I work in a call centre it's a decent job... honestly I joined this forum just before I landed this job thinking I'd ctb because I couldn't aspire to anything in life, the new job held me over but I've realized the suicidal thoughts have nothing to do with work it runs much deeper.

 

[Nightwillalwayswin]

"High powered" job. I am grateful to be in work but also don't want to work.

 

[NightNight20]

I think in total I worked for about five months in my life. It sucked, not doing that again.

So how do you support yourself?

 

[untimelydemise]

on disability uk xx im lucky bur probs cos i was sectioned have autism and was under a child protection order

 

[ashedout]

I work a regular actually 8-4 office job. The 2 perks are being able to work from home and flexible paid vacation/time off. Every single thing else about that hell hole is torture - it's basically a right of passage to have to go on stress leave.

 

[Toonloon]

I work at a daycare and my boss is a bitch who thinks cause I have no kids of my own I'm an idiot. I also have another job where I'm a professional submissive. I do that one once in blue moon now thanks to fucking covid, before that I had a session atleast once a week with one-three clients.

I miss that work. It was fun and I made great money.

In case you don't know what professional submissive work is it's where I'm paid to get spanked,tied up, beat, role play,ect. I'm the polar opposite of a professional Dominatrix.

 

[diyCTB]

Been self-employed for 12 years and failed. Being absent from regular job market for that long nothing awaits me here anymore. Not on benefits. Waiting for the right time.