How close are you to commit suicide?

[jinmaopoison]

If my SN comes like this week or the next im probably not making it to Thanksgiving lmao

 

[NonEssential]

I got a date set for a while now, but I'm not currently very confident in the hanging spot I have found and I need to find a better one. I also need to
learn the knots and not back out.

 

[konkurs]

I think about it often admittedly, and i'm sure i'll do it someday but right now I choose to live

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd be long gone if I could have the option to peacefully cease existing and never suffer again but of course I exist in this horrific world where suicide is seen as a crime where I cannot have the option to cease existing painlessly that is guaranteed to escape from the terrible, torturous abomination of existence that I just always saw as a mistake, all I want is to not exist. For me non-existence is just all that's positive and is the only peace, I just want to never suffer again, I'd never wish for this existence that just causes and brings so much pain and suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

 

[loakms8]

i am ready to do it now, just finding the most optimal and reliable way

 

[braintorture]

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if i had to rank it on this scale i think i would be a 5 lol

I'm at 9 I think

 

[cherrylost]

I've been thinking of doing this for six months but only for short periods of time. In the last two months, I'm thinking about ctb every minute, because my mental state is already at the limit. I had a choice between strangulation with a ligature and hanging. The first method seemed risky for me, so I chose hanging instead. Im going to do it tonight (in 12 hours). All I have to do is choose a tree or another location .

 

[itsgone2]

I wish you luck. My plan was yesterday morning. Did so much then couldn't step off the platform. Tried so hard. Leaned into it and put a lot of pressure on, but ultimately still so far away. I hate it. Everything has been put in place and the desire is there but here I am still.

 

[Terrible_Life_99]

Today after I woke up the symptoms of my ocd were so horrible that I got very angry. Then few minutes later everyone left the house so I am completely alone. I asked myself for what did I woke up? To continue this pain and suffering and sadness?! Then my mother messaged me that she's annoyed from me which gave me another push. I swear I could have done it in that moment because it was one of these moments where it feels like from all sides the message is: kill yourself!! For what are you waiting?

 

[Blueberry Panic]

Soon

 

[loakms8]

I wish you luck. My plan was yesterday morning. Did so much then couldn't step off the platform. Tried so hard. Leaned into it and put a lot of pressure on, but ultimately still so far away. I hate it. Everything has been put in place and the desire is there but here I am still.

are u just purely plan to jump off without any pills or anything?

 

[mysticatedwine]

very close. the main point of my life now is to save up on money for CO, and find a partner.

 

[itsgone2]

are u just purely plan to jump off without any pills or anything?

Yes. Though that clearly isn't working.

 

[Terrible_Life_99]

Yes. Though that clearly isn't working.

How high is be the Building from which you wanna jump? I'd recommend hanging instead of jumping

 

[bleedxi]

if i get SN (will see this week if i got scammed lol), i plan on doing it early next year (mid-jan)

maybe that plan will fall through, but idk. i'm tired.

my plan was also mid-jan. we'll see.

 

[itsgone2]

How high is be the Building from which you wanna jump? I'd recommend hanging instead of jumping

Sorry I was replying to the fsh comment. So not jumping. Can't commit to the fsh step forward.

 

[Terrible_Life_99]

Sorry I was replying to the fsh comment. So not jumping. Can't commit to the fsh step forward.

I think after a long time when a person did reflect everything and came to the conclusion he wanna die then its his decision he has the right to do it. But then si comes in and I think in my case I just have to force myself to ctb because honestly this life isn't worth it to torture myself any longer. I want to die and therefore I have to kill this si by just doing it like a roboter that is programmed to do something

 

[itsgone2]

I think after a long time when a person did reflect everything and came to the conclusion he wanna die then its his decision he has the right to do it. But then si comes in and I think in my case I just have to force myself to ctb because honestly this life isn't worth it to torture myself any longer. I want to die and therefore I have to kill this si by just doing it like a roboter that is programmed to do something

Agree but today I feel horrible and it's slowly getting worse and no way I could do it still. How my life got here so suddenly is stunning to me. Not really suddenly, years of mistakes, but still.

Agree but today I feel horrible and it's slowly getting worse and no way I could do it still. How my life got here so suddenly is stunning to me. Not really suddenly, years of mistakes, but still.

 

[calicocat07]

I dont know. I dont think I ever do tbh, I would say pretty close but I think its just my seasonal depression. I always get depressed more than usual around the holidays. My family is so sick of my depression tho lol.

 

[Terrible_Life_99]

I dont know. I dont think I ever do tbh, I would say pretty close but I think its just my seasonal depression. I always get depressed more than usual around the holidays. My family is so sick of my depression tho lol.

I'm sorry to hear this. Why is your family sick of your depression? Shouldn't they instead support you talk to u and be there for u? Isn't this actually the main thing a family should do?

 

[catinthefurnace]

I'm firm that Im going to do it, dont have a date yet. I dont want to be here for Xmas

 

[Beholder]

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if i had to rank it on this scale i think i would be a 5 lol

I consider myself to be feeling good these days. I am feeling WAY better than I did after my first botched attempt many years ago. So, if I just gave a number without looking at the text of this test, I'd say 3 but I'm actually at 6.
LOL, my "way better" self is at 6.

 

[calicocat07]

I'm sorry to hear this. Why is your family sick of your depression? Shouldn't they instead support you talk to u and be there for u? Isn't this actually the main thing a family should do?

My family doesn't really acknowledge mental illnesses. Plus support or emotional stuff is not something my family is familiar with. When a therapist told my mom I was clinically depressed at 10-13 she immediately pulled me out and told me she was crazy.

 

[jazzcat621]

I have everything I need, and honestly im ready, but this girl i started dating wants to ctb with me if I do it. Im hoping things turn out better on my last attempt at making a good life for us, but I feel the end is drawing close. All of this hangs on the balance of getting disability. If that fails, we are both going to ctb.

 

[lunar02102009]

Hey everyone,
I would like to know how close you are to committing suicide and how confident you feel about going through with it.

I will use hanging as my method of suicide. I've prepared everything. I should have died years ago. Every day is just torture. I somehow struggle through the day, and then a new day begins, and the suffering continues. I should really use the next opportunity to kill myself, but unfortunately, I'm afraid. I think the fear isn't necessarily that I might fail; it's more that everything feels so strange. One moment I'm alive, and then a few seconds later I pass out, and that's it. I think it has a lot to do with the fact that I'm very sad about how my life turned out and that I haven't had anything good in it.
In the end, I think I have to accept this painful fact and finally hang myself, because time passes so quickly, and the more time passes, the more broken I become because of this suffering.

I have Failed my past attemps because of SI but this time i wont , im definitely killing myself , i wont fail this attempt im done.

 

[deathisapanacea]

About as close as Taylor Swift is to becoming American President.

 

[SpencerSees]

It's definitely coming up on me now. It's harder to imagine not going through with it when you have a rope in your closet