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jinmaopoison

jinmaopoison

Member
Oct 6, 2025
44
If my SN comes like this week or the next im probably not making it to Thanksgiving lmao
 
NonEssential

NonEssential

Hanging in there
Jan 15, 2025
517
I got a date set for a while now, but I'm not currently very confident in the hanging spot I have found and I need to find a better one. I also need to
learn the knots and not back out.
 
konkurs

konkurs

Member
Sep 6, 2025
8
I think about it often admittedly, and i'm sure i'll do it someday but right now I choose to live
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
45,452
I'd be long gone if I could have the option to peacefully cease existing and never suffer again but of course I exist in this horrific world where suicide is seen as a crime where I cannot have the option to cease existing painlessly that is guaranteed to escape from the terrible, torturous abomination of existence that I just always saw as a mistake, all I want is to not exist. For me non-existence is just all that's positive and is the only peace, I just want to never suffer again, I'd never wish for this existence that just causes and brings so much pain and suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.
 
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loakms8

loakms8

Member
Oct 19, 2025
11
i am ready to do it now, just finding the most optimal and reliable way
 
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cherrylost

cherrylost

Member
Aug 20, 2025
17
I've been thinking of doing this for six months but only for short periods of time. In the last two months, I'm thinking about ctb every minute, because my mental state is already at the limit. I had a choice between strangulation with a ligature and hanging. The first method seemed risky for me, so I chose hanging instead. Im going to do it tonight (in 12 hours). All I have to do is choose a tree or another location .
 
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itsgone2

Experienced
Sep 21, 2025
292
I wish you luck. My plan was yesterday morning. Did so much then couldn't step off the platform. Tried so hard. Leaned into it and put a lot of pressure on, but ultimately still so far away. I hate it. Everything has been put in place and the desire is there but here I am still.
 
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Terrible_Life_99

Experienced
Jul 3, 2025
223
Today after I woke up the symptoms of my ocd were so horrible that I got very angry. Then few minutes later everyone left the house so I am completely alone. I asked myself for what did I woke up? To continue this pain and suffering and sadness?! Then my mother messaged me that she's annoyed from me which gave me another push. I swear I could have done it in that moment because it was one of these moments where it feels like from all sides the message is: kill yourself!! For what are you waiting?
 
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loakms8

loakms8

Member
Oct 19, 2025
11
I wish you luck. My plan was yesterday morning. Did so much then couldn't step off the platform. Tried so hard. Leaned into it and put a lot of pressure on, but ultimately still so far away. I hate it. Everything has been put in place and the desire is there but here I am still.
are u just purely plan to jump off without any pills or anything?
 
mysticatedwine

mysticatedwine

rotting autistic sun
Mar 4, 2025
163
very close. the main point of my life now is to save up on money for CO, and find a partner.
 

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