Help getting SN in the U.S

[itbelikethat]

Can anyone help me get SN in the states.

Im too scared use a gun, ive briefly thought about laying down on some train tracks but I dont trust myself to stand still, and id like my body to be intact. Would also suck to traumatize a train driver.

I fucked my life up pretty bad, no friends (other than someone I met on here), ive bought a house and lost my job, and its not looking like ill be able to get another one. Even before all this I've wanted to die. I cant get away from these suicidal thoughts. I cant afford therapy anymore either.

I was texting my ex for emotional support, but she rightfully decided to stop emotionally supporting me.

I cant make it out here, im too broken, I'm a mess of mental illness, and every waking moment my brain is in torment.

I could go live with my sister, but her house is overfilled as it is. And its disgusting, shes also not stable.

Im also in a fair amount of debt due to recent car troubles, and my own dumb impulsivity. If the bank ends up forclosing my house I could apply for bankruptcy and start again, but i dont think its worth it. I cant be stable.

I cant cope with who I am and the things I've done, thankfully im completely alone with no one depending on me, but thats a double edged sword for obvious reasons.

Please help me find a new source other than DMC. It doesn't seem to be available anymore.

I just want to pass away in my sleep. Peacefully.

Please pm me with instructions on how to get the right SN.

 

[aufrechtm7]

It's not allowed, sorry. There are means to find it with the search function if you must.

 

[chloeburbank]

Sorry for what you are going through. I hope you are able to find peace one day. If you have the search bar unlocked, search up "DSL" and read through the threads for clues! Sending hugs

 

[SDB]

Can anyone help me get SN in the states.

Im too scared use a gun, ive briefly thought about laying down on some train tracks but I dont trust myself to stand still, and id like my body to be intact. Would also suck to traumatize a train driver.

I fucked my life up pretty bad, no friends (other than someone I met on here), ive bought a house and lost my job, and its not looking like ill be able to get another one. Even before all this I've wanted to die. I cant get away from these suicidal thoughts. I cant afford therapy anymore either.

I was texting my ex for emotional support, but she rightfully decided to stop emotionally supporting me.

I cant make it out here, im too broken, I'm a mess of mental illness, and every waking moment my brain is in torment.

I could go live with my sister, but her house is overfilled as it is. And its disgusting, shes also not stable.

Im also in a fair amount of debt due to recent car troubles, and my own dumb impulsivity. If the bank ends up forclosing my house I could apply for bankruptcy and start again, but i dont think its worth it. I cant be stable.

I cant cope with who I am and the things I've done, thankfully im completely alone with no one depending on me, but thats a double edged sword for obvious reasons.

Please help me find a new source other than DMC. It doesn't seem to be available anymore.

I just want to pass away in my sleep. Peacefully.

Please pm me with instructions on how to get the right SN.

This is basically my life

 

[beyonddone]

Sorry for what your going thru, im also in the us and also trying to successfully succeed…
OD didnt work…
been thinkin bout the speedway train pullin in front of it and letting it tbone me in car but also feel as u do about my body and the driver…
you can buy dry ice still, 15-20 pounds of it, wait for it to melt in a small room or car (car in my situation i have no home) and the carbon dioxide will do it…
Another thing i been looking into is a diy grill thing, also in a small area or car, the charcoal will give off carbon monoxide which will do the job fairly quick… the items u can easily buy…
Little clay plant pot, charcoal, and foil (below)

I havent tried the diy pot, planning on tonight or tomorrow just making a little fire with my driver door open a lil and rest doors & windows all closed, let it burn for a lil while, shut the door and go to sleep and hope not to wake.. i also still have dry ice left in my car that didnt work, i bought 10pds, thats y i said 15-20pounds cuz i think i didnt have enough, it melts very very slowly and the weather is severely cold like freeze alerts issued last few nights and tonight…
If you decide to try it goodluck and i hope it works for u, i hope we both get the peace we long for!

 

[Izzo 5617]

I realize it seems hopeless right now but can you find even one tiny spark of hope. You don't need much, just a spark. In 2023 I was convinced it was hopeless. Suffered for years, bedridden, abandoned, poisoned by pharma drugs .. lost my son, cheated on, left. I pulled out of it and am relieved for his sake (my son's) that I did not pull the trigger the day. (or use any of my other 3 alternative plans I had lined up). I hate telling you this when I remember back then being in so much agony feeling like a cornered animal with no good way out. Just hold onto that tiny spark for now. If you have even a modicum of health, of life in your body, you can beat this situation. It's the ones with chronic illness and agonizing physical pain .. these are the ones I feel it is sometimes more merciful to help. We treat dogs better than we do humans in this country. But there is help for you out there, I promise. Send a smoke signal out.
Help will come.
You will be ok.
You are not alone.