Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

To cease existing is just all I see as desirable.
It truly is all I see as desirable and is just all I hope for in this torturous, futile existence where there's all this endless suffering and cruelty and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so dreadful to me and I wish that more than anything I never existed.

I always wish I never suffered in this existence at all and I suffer so much as a result of this painful, dreadful existence, all I want is to be free from it all, I just hope and wish to never suffer again.

I'd just never wish for this painful, deeply undesirable existence where I suffer so much and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, all I want is peace from it all, I just want to never exist again and I'll just always see existing as only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always the problem to me.
It truly is always the problem to me and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, it's all so dreadful and terrible and I wish I never existed more than anything, the fact that this existence was even imposed is always the most terrible tragedy to me and I'd just never wish for the pain and suffering of existing rather I just want to be at peace.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and is just all I see as desirable, as long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer again and I just suffer so much as a result of this cruel existence I never would had wished for and I always wish I never suffered, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I just never would had chosen and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence so cruel that just caused and brought suffering and I'll always see this torturous existence as only suffering no matter what, all I want is to be free from it all, I just hope and wish for no more suffering so finally I can be at peace with this deeply undesirable existence all gone and forgotten.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so painful to exist.
No matter what I really will always find it so painful to exist and more than anything I just wish I never suffered in this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence, in this existence where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer only non-existence can bring me peace and as long as I exist I'll only wish and hope to never exist again.

I wish for no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this painful, cruel existence, for me non-existence really is the only relief and is all I see as desirable, I just wish for peace from all the pain and suffering of existing but of course all the suffering just continues and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is peace.

I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never exist again, for me non-existence really is the only relief in this existence so dreadful I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me relief from, all I want is to be gone, I just want all to finally be forgotten for me in non-existence with no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for eternal sleep.
No matter what all I could hope for is eternal sleep, I just wish for peace from the pain, cruelty and suffering of this existence I always saw as a mistake and for me existing really is only suffering.

It's just all so dreadful to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, for me non-existence is all that's desirable and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this existence I always saw as a mistake, all I want is to never exist again. I just want all to be gone for me in non-existence and I suffer simply from existing, all I want is to never suffer again but of course the suffering just continues and it feels like I've suffered for so long in this deeply undesirable existence that to me is just waiting to die and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death.

It's just suffering all for the sake of it and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this cruel existence I always saw as a mistake that I never would had chosen and never would had wished for, for me non-existence really is the only relief in this existence so torturous and dreadful and as long as I exist I'll just wish to never wake again, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this torturous, cruel existence where I just hope and wait to be gone and I always wish I never suffered more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it so terrible how this existence was imposed.
I truly do find it so terrible how this existence was imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result and I suffer simply from existing, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist.

I just want to never suffer ever again but of course I always wish I never suffered, never existing at all would had saved me from so much suffering in this existence I just always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake again. I just want non-existence to solve everything for me and finally bring me the relief I search for from this existence that to me is just waiting for death and I always suffer from waiting to die in this dreadful, torturous existence I never would had chosen that just caused and brought so much suffering just torturing existing beings.

I really will always see it as an abomination to exist and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to be at true peace, I just want to never suffer in this existence ever again and I just suffer so much as a result of this futile existence, all I want is to be gone, I just want to be free from it all and I'll just only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence I always saw as a mistake causing and bringing all this harm and suffering as a result.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only eternal sleep is desirable for me.
It truly is all that's desirable for me and is all I could hope for in this torturous existence where there's all this endless cruelty and suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, all I want is to be free from it all.

I just want to never exist again but of course all the suffering continues and it's suffering only an eternal sleep can take away for me and bring me relief from as after all there are no disadvantages to being gone.

All I hope and wish for is to never exist again and I just suffer so much as a result of this futile, cruel existence I always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence really is the only relief and is all I could ever wish for, I wish for no more suffering and I'll only be at peace from all suffering in dreamless eternal sleep where finally all is gone and nothing in this painful, torturous existence can concern me. I just hope to never exist again and I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what, I just suffer so much as a result of this existence I never would had wished for and never would had chosen, it's so dreadful to me how there's all this pain and cruelty in existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence is positive for me.
It truly is all that's positive for me and no matter what I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this cruel, torturous and deeply undesirable existence and I just wish I never suffered more than anything.

In this existence where there's all this endless suffering only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for, I just want to never wake ever again but of course all the suffering just continues.

As long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to be gone, all I want is some peace, I just want to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so cruel to me and I'd never wish to exist rather all I want is to never wake, I just hope for non-existence to solve everything for me in this existence I'll always see as waiting to die and I suffer simply from existing, all I want is to be gone, I just want non-existence to finally solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for from this dreadful, torturous, futile and unnecessary existence I just always saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for.
It truly is all that can bring me the peace and relief I search for and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me.

I'd never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is an eternal sleep where this torturous, dreadful existence I just always saw as a mistake is finally all gone and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, all I hope for is to never exist again.

In this existence I never would had chosen that just causes so much pain and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway only ceasing to exist is desirable for me, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of this existence, I just want to never exist again, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from what the true problem is for me which is existence itself and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so dreadful and terrible and I wish I never had to exist more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just an unnecessary harm to me.
It truly is an unnecessary harm to me and I just wish I never suffered in this dreadful, torturous existence at all and all I want is to never suffer ever again, non-existence really is all I could hope for and wish for but of course all the suffering just continues.

I always suffer so much as a result of this existence I always saw as a mistake just waiting to die anyway and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just hope and wish to never exist again.

I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what, as long as I exist I really will just hope for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where this existence is all forgotten and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this harmful existence no matter what, in this existence so torturous, cruel and dreadful only non-existence can bring me any relief and as long as I exist I'll just hope for no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being conscious in this existence just waiting to die anyway, non-existence really is the only peace for me and is all I could hope for, I wish for no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this dreadful, deeply undesirable existence I just never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is always so dreadful to me.
No matter what I'll just always find it so dreadful to suffer in this futile, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, in this existence so cruel and deeply undesirable only non-existence can bring me peace.

I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer, for me non-existence really is just the only relief, it's all I see as desirable and is all I hope for, I just want to never exist again with no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see this painful, deeply undesirable existence as only suffering no matter what.

I just want to be gone, I just hope to be free from it all, only eternal dreamless sleep can bring me the peace I search for from this harmful existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel and painful to me and there's just so much pain in this existence I never would had chosen and would just never wish for. I just want to never suffer again and finally forget about this existence I just never would had chosen that only ever caused so much suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what, it's just all so cruel, dreadful and painful to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring to not exist.
No matter what I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer and I just wish I never suffered in this torturous, cruel existence more than anything.

As long as I exist I really will just hope for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where this deeply undesirable existence I always saw as a mistake is finally all forgotten and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never exist ever again.

I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, it's all so dreadful to me and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, for me non-existence is just the only peace and relief, it's all I see as desirable and is all I could ever wish for, I'll just always find it so terrible to be conscious burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily just waiting to die and to me existing will always be waiting for death no matter what

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is the only relief for me.
It really is the only relief for me and is all I'll hope for no matter what, all I want is to never suffer again and I just suffer so much as a result of this dreadful, torturous existence, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable.

All I wish for is no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, as long as I exist I really will just hope to never wake again but of course all the suffering just continues, it's suffering only an eternal dreamless sleep could ever take away for me and for me non-existence is just all I could hope for. I just want to never suffer again and I'll always see existing as only suffering, existence to me really is the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve and bring me relief from, all I wish for is an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where this existence is finally no longer my problem, some peace truly is all I could hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is always so undesirable.
No matter what I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence and I just wish I never suffered more than anything.

As long as I exist I'll only hope for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where this dreadful existence is all forgotten and I'd just never wish for the burden of existence rather all I want is some peace, I just want to never suffer again with all forgotten about and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the relief I search for and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily burdened with this existence no matter what and there's just so much pain and suffering in existing, I'll always find it so undesirable to exist and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for non-existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone, I just wish for peace from this existence I always saw as such a cruel mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing for any of this.
No matter what I really would never wish for any of this rather all I want is non-existence to solve everything for me and bring me peace from this existence I always saw as a mistake and there's so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing.

I'd never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where finally I cannot suffer and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I always suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this cruel, torturous existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never exist again.

I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's just all so painful and dreadful to me and it feels like I've suffered for so long, all I wish for is an eternal sleep free from all cruelty, pain and suffering where this deeply undesirable existence is finally all forgotten and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so terrible to me and as long as I exist I'll just wish for peace, I just hope and wish to never exist again, to me existing will always be only suffering, it's all just so cruel and dreadful, I just wish to never exist ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes endless suffering.
It truly does just cause endless suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace and for me non-existence is just the only peace and relief, I find it so terrible, cruel and dreadful how existence just causes and brings all this suffering and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me relief from, all I want is to never exist again.


I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, it's just all so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll just hope to be gone, I just wish for peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm unconscious for all eternity with no more pain and no more suffering, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable, I just want to never exist again, I just wish to be permanently free from this existence I always saw as such a cruel mistake and there's just so much suffering in this dreadful, cruel existence, all I want is to be gone, I just want to be finally free from it all.