Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

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Always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking again.
I truly do always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking again so finally I can escape from and find peace from this dreadful, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing.

It's just all so cruel, terrible and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me and finally bring me the relief I search for from this deeply undesirable existence I never would had chosen that only caused me to suffer and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's just all so futile to me. I'd never wish for this existence that causes so much suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for rather all I want is to not exist, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me, all I see as desirable is never suffering ever again with this cruel, futile existence finally all gone and forgotten, non-existence is just all I could hope and wish for no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so dreadful to exist.
I really will always find it so dreadful to suffer in this torturous, futile and cruel existence and as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to be gone, all I want is to never suffer again.

I just wish for some peace from this existence I always saw as such a cruel mistake, for me non-existence is just the only relief, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this deeply undesirable, painful and futile existence I never would had chosen that only ever caused and brought so much pain and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone, I just wish for peace, all I want is to never exist ever again and I'll always see existing as only being suffering, I always just find it so dreadful to suffer so unnecessarily burdened with this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in existing.
There truly is so much cruelty in existing with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and no matter what I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake.

Only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from the dreadful, futile abomination of existence where I hope and wait to be gone but there's just so much suffering in this cruel existence and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a painless death that is guaranteed so finally I can be at peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence.

I just hope and wish to never exist ever again, only non-existence can solve everything for me, in this existence so cruel and torturous where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer only non-existence can bring me any peace and for me the only relief could lie in being permanently free from this existence of futile unnecessary suffering I just never would had chosen and would just never wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting all to be forgotten about.
No matter what all I could ever wish for is to be forgotten about, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I want is some peace.

I just want to never exist ever again, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer and there's just so much pain and so much suffering in this cruel existence and I always suffer so much as a result of existing, it's just all so terrible to me and it feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I just never would had chosen.

All I want is for all to be forgotten about, I just wish to be permanently unconscious of the abomination of existence and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, all I want is to be gone, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, it's just all so cruel and dreadful to me, I wish I could erase this existence, to be at permanent peace from all the suffering is just all I hope for and I suffer so much as a result of existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

It always feels like I've suffered for so long.
It really does always feel like I've suffered for so long and I'd just never wish for the pain, suffering and cruelty of this futile torturous existence rather all I want is to never exist ever again and as long as I exist I'll only hope to not exist.

I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, all I want is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten, for me non-existence is just the only relief in this existence so cruel, torturous and dreadful.

I suffer simply from existing, all I want is peace from it all and only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the pain of existing and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing, I'll just always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never wake again, for me non-existence truly is the only peace and is all I could ever see as desirable.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always an dreadful abomination to me.
It really is always an dreadful abomination to me and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, as long as I exist I really will just hope for peace from the pain and suffering of existing.

I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity but of course all the suffering continues and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is true permanent peace and only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for.

I just suffer so much as a result of existing, it's just all so terrible and dreadful to me and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I just never would had chosen that to me will always be an abomination and there's just so much pain, so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, it's all so cruel and I'd never wish for any of this, I'd never wish for this torturous, futile and dreadful existence, all I want is some peace, I just want to never exist again and I suffer simply from existing, I just wish for some peace and it's peace only eternal dreamless sleep could ever bring me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hope for non-existence.
No matter what all I could ever hope for is non-existence, I just wish for some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm permanently unconscious and no longer burdened with this existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake.

I really would just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist and I'll only be at peace in non-existence, I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to exist and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist.

Only in non-existence will I be at peace from the suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, all I want is to be gone, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in the peace of an eternal sleep and I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me, all I see as desirable is never suffering ever again, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping and wishing to never suffer again.
No matter what all I could wish and hope for is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for an eternal sleep where this torturous, cruel and dreadful existence is finally all gone and forgotten and I suffer so much as a result of this existence.

The peace of non-existence really is all I could ever hope and wish for, I just want to never exist again but of course all the suffering just continues and I suffer so much as a result of existing just waiting to die anyway, for me non-existence is the only relief and is all I see as desirable.

I just want to never exist ever again and only non-existence can take away and solve what I see as the true problem which is existence itself, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always and only see this dreadful, futile existence as only suffering and as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope for non-existence, all I want is some peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence I just never would had chosen that only ever caused and brought so much futile suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and all I want is to be free from it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am always so tired of suffering and I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence no matter what rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never suffer ever again.

I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence, for me non-existence truly is the only peace, it's all I see as desirable and is all I hope for.

I just want non-existence to solve everything for me and finally bring me the relief I search for and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel to me and I'm always so tired of it all, all I hope and wish for is to never suffer ever again, I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I'll always see this existence as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, all I want is to be forgotten, I wish for no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so dreadful and cruel to me and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes harm and suffering.
It truly does just cause harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just wish I never suffered in this dreadful, painful and cruel existence more than anything rather all I want is to not exist.

I just want non-existence to solve everything for me in this deeply undesirable, cruel existence that just causes harm and suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist again.

I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where this existence I always saw as a mistake is finally all gone and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so terrible and dreadful to me and I'd never wish to exist rather all I want is some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this deeply undesirable, cruel and torturous existence, all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from the suffering of this dreadful, futile existence I never would had chosen, existence truly does just cause harm and suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this dreadful existence I always saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just so futile.
No matter what I really will always see it as so futile to exist, to me existing really is just waiting to die and I suffer simply from being burdened with this futile, cruel existence, it's all so terrible and dreadful to me.

I just wish I never suffered more than anything, as long as I exist I really will just hope for peace from all the pain, cruelty and suffering of existing, for me existence could never be worth it and I could never see any point to this no matter what rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never suffer ever again and I just suffer so much as a result of this futile existence, the fact that this existence was imposed causing all this harm and suffering really is the most terrible tragedy to me and I suffer simply from existing, all I want is to be gone, I just wish for peace, I just want to never exist ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so torturous to exist.
I really will always find it so torturous to exist and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this cruel, futile existence I always saw as such a terrible mistake and there's just so much pain and so much suffering in existing.

It's all so dreadful to me and I wish I never had to suffer, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to never suffer ever again, only non-existence is positive for me, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this torturous, deeply undesirable existence I never would had chosen that only ever caused me to suffer and there's just so much pain, suffering and cruelty in existing, no matter what I really would always prefer to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the peace I search for from this existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it really is just all so dreadful to me and I'll always find it so torturous to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wanting to suffer in this existence.
No matter what I really would never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for from the terrible, torturous burden of existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer so much as a result of this existence.

It's just all so cruel to me and as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope for the peace of non-existence, all I want is to never exist ever again but of course I continue to suffer and there's just so much suffering, pain and cruelty in existing, it's all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to cease existing, only non-existence can solve everything for me, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep but of course all the suffering continues, I truly would just never wish for any of this rather all I hope and wish for is some peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in non-existence will I be at peace.
It truly is just the only peace for me and is all I could see as desirable in this existence so torturous and dreadful where there's all this endless cruelty and suffering and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from, all I want is to be gone.

I just want to never suffer again, I just wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence, I wish for no more suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of this cruel, futile existence I never would had chosen, non-existence really is all I could ever see as desirable, it's all I hope for, I just want to never exist ever again and as long as I exist I'll just wish and hope for peace, eternal sleep is just all I see as desirable, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of this dreadful, futile existence I never would had wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

All that existence does is cause suffering.
It truly does just cause suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this cruel, torturous and deeply undesirable existence I never would had wished for and I suffer so much as a result of existence.

All I want is to be gone, I just want to never exist again and there's just so much pain, suffering and cruelty in existing, it's just all so dreadful and all I want is to be free from it all, I just want to never exist again with this existence I always saw as a mistake finally all gone and forgotten. I'll just always see existing as only suffering, it's all so dreadful to me and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from, only non-existence can bring me the relief from suffering I search for, I just hope and wish to never exist again, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in non-existence with no more cruelty and no more suffering, I just want to never suffer again, I only hope for dreamless eternal sleep where finally I can be at peace, all I see as desirable is non-existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is an imposition.
It truly is an imposition that just causes and brings so much cruelty, harm and suffering and I'll always find it so terrible and dreadful to exist and I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what.

I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to exist and I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is the peace of non-existence, I just want all to be forgotten for me with no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing. I just wish this existence was never imposed, I never should had suffered in this dreadful, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and as long as I exist I really will just hope to be gone, I just want to never suffer ever again with this dreadful, torturous existence all forgotten, I just never should had suffered and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always an abomination to me.
It really is always an abomination to me and I just wish I never suffered in this dreadful, cruel, futile and torturous existence more than anything, all I wish for is to not exist and only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from the dreadful abomination of existence I always saw as a mistake.

I'll just always see it as an abomination to exist and it's one only non-existence can bring me peace from, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and terrible to me and I always find it an abomination to suffer so unnecessarily, for me non-existence really is the only relief and is all I see as desirable and is all I hope for, I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence. I'll just always find it so torturous and dreadful to exist and I wish I never suffered more than anything, existence to me really is the problem and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the relief from suffering I search for and I just suffer so much as a result of the abomination of existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

There's just so much cruelty in existing.
There really is so much cruelty in existing and I always wish I never suffered, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to be gone, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the cruelty and suffering of existing and as long as I exist I'll only wish and hope to never suffer again.

In this existence so dreadful and torturous only non-existence can bring me any relief and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is some peace, I just want non-existence to bring me the relief I search for from the dreadful, futile abomination of existence I always saw as a mistake and I wish that more than anything I never suffered, there really is just so much pain, suffering and cruelty in existing, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, all I see as desirable is to never suffer again and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence, all I want is to be gone from it all, I just wish for all to be gone for me, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this torturous, futile existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wanting all to be gone for me.
No matter what it's all I could hope for, I just want to never suffer in this existence ever again, I just want all to be forgotten for me in non-existence with no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily but of course all the suffering just continues and I always suffer from how I cannot just have a peaceful death like falling into an eternal dreamless sleep as all I wish and hope for is to never wake ever again and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, it's just all so cruel to me and I'd never wish to exist rather all I want is to not exist.

Only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this dreadful, torturous existence where I just hope and wait to be gone and there's just so much pain and so much suffering in existing, all I want is to be free from it all, I wish to erase this existence so it's like I never suffered.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is just all I see as desirable.
It truly is all I see as desirable and is all I could hope for no matter what, I just wish to be permanently free from this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence I never would had chosen.

I just wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in eternal non-existence where there is no more pain, and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's suffering only eternal dreamless sleep can bring me any relief from as if I'm gone I cannot suffer, only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem and I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to exist, all I hope for is no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, all I want is to be gone, I just want to be free from it all, I just wish for peace from this torturous, futile and deeply undesirable existence I just never would had chosen.