Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Preferring peace over pointless suffering.
No matter what I really will prefer peace over pointless suffering and I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence rather I just hope for the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally gone and there is no more pain and I suffer simply from existing, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I only hope for non-existence where all is finally forgotten.

For me non-existence really is the only relief and is all I see as desirable to escape from the suffering and cruelty of this torturous existence I always saw as the most terrible cruel mistake and I'd just never wish for the mistake of existence rather I only wish for the peace of non-existence where all is finally forgotten and there is no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only eternal sleep can bring me relief from as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer. There is no suffering in non-existence and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just want to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, I just wish that more than anything I never had to suffer but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so cruel and dreadful to me, I'll just always find it so terrible how there's all this suffering in existing with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence will take away all anyway.
It truly will which is all I wish for, I just want to never suffer in this futile, harmful existence ever again but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so terrible and torturous to me, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, the only peace for me could ever lie in an eternal sleep where all is finally gone and to me existing really is just waiting to die. It's just suffering all for the sake of it and I just wish I never had to suffer more than anything, I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to never wake ever again and I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently to escape from the cruelty and torture of existing and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer.

I just hope for no more pain and no more suffering I suffer simply from existing, I truly would never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me and it just feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I always saw as a cruel mistake and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for from this existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is the problem.
No matter what I'll just always see existence as the problem that just causes so much cruelty, pain and suffering that there was never a need for and it's all just so terrible to me, I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering of this futile, torturous existence just continues and it's all just so dreadful to me.

I'd never wish for any of this rather I only wish for non-existence where all is finally gone, I'll just always see it as so terrible and dreadful to be burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily and it's suffering only non-existence could take away for me, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from the cruelty and suffering of existing and I'll always just see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. It's all just so terrible and dreadful to me and I just wish I never existed more than anything, for me existence really is the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve and take away for me, I just wish for no more suffering rather all I want is to never wake ever again and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently to escape from the suffering and cruelty of existing and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I truly would just never wish for any of this rather I only wish and hope for non-existence where finally I can be at peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

To never suffer ever again is all I've hoped for.
It truly is all I've hoped for and I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in the peace of non-existence and to me existence truly does feel like the most terrible tragic mistake.

I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only wish for non-existence where there is no more suffering and all is finally forgotten and I'd just prefer to forget about this cruel, torturous existence no matter what, for me existence really is the problem and it's one only ceasing to exist can solve and take away for me as if I'm gone I cannot suffer and I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence and I'll just always see it as the most cruel, dreadful burden to exist, existence is a burden only non-existence can bring me peace and relief from. I'll just always find it so torturous to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway, I'm just always so tired of suffering and it's tiredness only ceasing to exist could bring me relief from, I just want all to be gone for me with no more cruelty and no more suffering and I suffer simply from waiting to die in this existence I just never would had chosen and nothing would ever make me wish for any of this rather I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep, I just wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious in this cruel, futile existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping to never wake ever again.
No matter what all I could hope for is to never wake ever again, I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering rather I just wish for an eternal sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten and for me eternal sleep really is the only peace.

I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering of this torturous existence just continues and it's all so dreadful to me, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally gone and I can rest, for me non-existence truly is the only relief in this torturous, futile existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from. For me non-existence truly is all that's desirable and is all I hope for, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll just always find it so painful to be burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it just waiting to die anyway and I'll just always see existing as waiting for death. It's all just so cruel and dreadful to me and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of this existence I always saw as a mistake rather I just want the peace of never waking ever again and I'll just only be at peace once I no longer suffer, to me existing really is just only suffering with no limit as to how torturous and unbearable it can all get.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence.
No matter what I really will always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this cruel, futile and torturous existence and I'd just never wish for the cruelty and suffering of existing rather I only hope for non-existence, for me non-existence really is the only peace and is all I see as desirable.

I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering rather I just want all to be gone for me in the peace of an eternal sleep, I suffer simply from being conscious in this undesirable existence and it's suffering only eternal nothingness can bring me relief from as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer and all I hope for is to never exist ever again, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want to not exist and for me non-existence truly is the only relief, it's all I hope for. I wish for no more pain and I'll just always find it so painful to be conscious burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me peace from and for me only eternal sleep is desirable. I just wish for no more suffering and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want to not exist, only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself and to not exist really is all I see as desirable and is all I wish for, I'm always so tired of this cruel, futile existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in existing.
There really is so much cruelty in existing and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, only non-existence where all is gone could ever be desirable for me and more than anything I just wish I never suffered in this cruel, torturous existence.

I just wish this existence was never imposed and I find it the most terrible tragedy how I had to suffer at all, for me existence truly is the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve and take away for me, I just wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering rather all I want is to not exist, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing and I find it so dreadful how this existence of suffering all for the sake of it was even imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result and I'd just always prefer to not exist, I'd never wish for this existence of unnecessary suffering and what is so cruel to me is how there is no limit as to how unbearable it can all get. I'll just always find it so painful and torturous to exist and I just wish I never suffered, to suffer in this existence really is always an abomination to me and I'll just always see existence as a mistake no matter what, I just never should had suffered and I wish I never suffered in this existence where there's all this cruelty more than anything and existence is just so cruel and so torturous, there's just so much pain in existing and it's pain only non-existence can take away for me and bring me relief from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me is just only suffering.
It truly is just only suffering to me and I just wish I never suffered in this cruel, torturous existence more than anything, I'll just always see it as an abomination to exist. I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I hope for is non-existence where there is no more suffering and all is finally forgotten and I'd just never wish to exist rather I only hope for non-existence.

I just want to never wake ever again with this torturous, cruel existence finally all gone for me and to me existence really does feel like a mistake, I'd just never wish for the mistake of existence rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for from this torturous existence I just never would had wished for and just never would had chose and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist. All that existence does is just cause and create so much pain, problems and suffering there was never a need for and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, for me existence itself really is the true problem which is why I'll only hope to not exist, I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering rather I just want to never wake ever again, only eternal dreamless sleep could ever bring me the peace from suffering I search for and I always suffer so much as a result of this futile, torturous existence I just never would had chosen and just wouldn't ever wish for no matter what

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all I've wished for.
It truly is all I've wished for and could ever do, I wish for no more suffering and no more cruelty rather all I want is to never wake ever again with all finally forgotten for me, I'd just never wish for this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake rather all I want is to not exist.

For me eternal non-existence really is all that's desirable and is the only peace for me, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather I just want to not exist and I'll always see existing as only being suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it's just all so terrible and dreadful and I'd never wish for any of this, the only relief for me truly could only lie in an eternal sleep and to sleep permanently is all I see as desirable. I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, only non-existence can solve and bring me relief from what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all there is no suffering in non-existence, if I'm gone I cannot suffer which is all I wish and hope for, I'll just always find it so terrible and dreadful to be burdened with this existence of cruelty and suffering I just never would had chosen and never would wish for, peace from this cruel existence is just all I see as desirable and is all I could hope for, I'm just so tired of it all and it's tiredness only non-existence can take away for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing for the cruelty and suffering of existing.
I truly would never wish for the cruelty and suffering of existing and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, for me non-existence really is the only peace and is just all I see as desirable in this existence where there is all this suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

I'll just always find it so torturous, terrible and dreadful to exist, for me the only relief could ever lie in an eternal sleep as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in the peace of non-existence where all is forgotten and finally I can rest and I'd just always prefer to not exist no matter what, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable and is all I could wish for, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence. I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I want is to not exist, I'll just always see existence as the problem, I'll always see existence as an abomination that just causes harm and suffering until all is finally gone in non-existence and for me non-existence really is the only peace, it's all I see as desirable, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, I'd just never wish for the cruelty and suffering of this deeply undesirable torturous existence rather all I want is to not exist, only the peace of non-existence where all is finally forgotten could ever be desirable to me and I just wish I never had to exist more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

I see it as a tragedy how this existence was imposed.
I really will always see it as the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed and I'd just never wish for the cruelty and suffering of this futile, torturous existence rather I just want to not exist with all finally gone for me, I'll always see existing as only being suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer and it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me, I'll just always see existence as the most torturous abomination and it's one only non-existence can bring me relief from as if I'm gone I cannot suffer and to me existing really is only suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

I'll just always find it so dreadful and terrible to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence just hoping and waiting for death and to me existing really is just waiting to die, I truly am always so tired of suffering in this existence and I find it the most terrible tragedy how I had to suffer at all even know there was just never a need for any of this with their being no disadvantages to not existing yet no limit as to how much one can be tortured in this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake. There's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing, it's all just so terrible to me and I always wish that more than anything I never had to suffer in this existence I just never would had chosen and never would had wished for, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never wake again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just an unnecessary harm to me.
It truly is just an unnecessary harm to me and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous, harmful existence no matter what, I'll just always see existence as the problem and it's one only non-existence can take away for me and bring me relief from as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer.

There is no suffering in the peace of an eternal sleep where this existence I just always saw as the most terrible cruel mistake is finally all forgotten and I'd just always prefer to never suffer ever again, I'll just always see it as so deeply undesirable to be conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering to endless and unlimited amounts and I'll just always see existing as being only suffering with no limit as to how unbearable and torturous it can all get and for me existence really is always the problem. I'm just always so tired of being burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and I'll just always see existence as the problem, it's one that just causes so much harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'll just always find it so harmful to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence I just never would had wished for and just never would had chosen. I really will just always find it so terrible and dreadful to suffer in this existence and I just wish I never existed more than anything, for me existence really is just so harmful, I'll always see existence as an unnecessary harm that just causes and brings suffering no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so dreadful to exist.
No matter what I really will always find it so dreadful to exist and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this futile, torturous existence rather all I want is to cease existing.

I just find it so dreadful to be conscious burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it just waiting to cease existing anyway capable of suffering to unlimited extents and the suffering of existing is endless, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and I just wish I was never burdened with this existence more than anything, to exist really is something so dreadful to me and I'd just always prefer to not exist, I'll just always see existing as being only suffering and I suffer simply from existing, I always wish to just never wake ever again and I'll just only be at peace in non-existence where this cruel, dreadful existence that just caused and brought all this harm and suffering is finally all forgotten and I just wish I never suffered more than anything. I'll just always see existence as the most torturous, harmful imposition that just causes and brings all this cruelty and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and it's just so dreadful to me, I'll just always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence just waiting to die anyway and to me existing will always just be waiting for death, it's cruelty, pain and suffering there was never a need for that just torments existing beings until non-existence takes away all anyway, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

So terrifying to me how a human can suffer for so long.
No matter what I'll always find it so terrifying how a human can suffer for so long in this cruel, torturous existence and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I only hope to not exist.

Only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the cruel abomination of existence and I always find it the most terrible, dreadful tragedy how this existence was even imposed causing all this cruelty and suffering as a result and for me existing really is only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's all just so cruel, painful and terrible for me and I'd just never wish for this cruel existence rather I only hope for non-existence. I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious in this futile existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for and to me existing truly is only suffering with no limit as to how torturous and unbearable it can all get and the suffering of existing really is endless, for me non-existence truly is the only peace and relief from the torture of existing and I'll always find it so torturous to exist. I find it unbearable how a human can suffer for so long and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing, to me existence really does always feel like a mistake and there's just so much pain and suffering in existing, I suffer simply from existing and more than anything I just wish I never had to suffer, I'd just never wish for the burden of existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

To be at peace is all I hope for.
To be permanently at peace from the suffering and cruelty of existing really is all I hope for and is all I see as desirable, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I want is to never exist ever again.

I just wish for this existence of suffering all for the sake of it to be all gone and forgotten and for me existence really is the problem, it's one only ceasing to exist can take away for me and bring me relief from as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal sleep and never exist ever again and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is to not exist, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing. It's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me peace from as after all there are no disadvantages to never suffering ever again, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering the peace of non-existence really is all I see as desirable and is all I could hope for. I just want all to be gone for me in non-existence and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never exist ever again and I'll just always and only see existing as being suffering no matter what with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and all I want is to never suffer again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just suffering all for the sake of it.
It truly is just suffering all for the sake of it and I just wish I never suffered in this cruel existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake more than anything, to me existence really is the problem and it's one only non-existence can take away for me and bring me relief from, all I hope is for an eternal sleep where finally all is gone and I can no longer suffer.

I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I wish for is nothingness, all I want is to never wake ever again, I'll just always see existence as an abomination that just causes and brings so much suffering and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll always just find it so torturous to exist, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only eternal sleep can bring me relief from as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in an eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten. I'd just never wish for this cruel, futile existence of suffering all for the sake of it rather I just want to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for and to never exist ever again is all I see as desirable, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather I just want to never wake, only eternal sleep can solve everything for me and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself and to never suffer ever again is all I could wish for.