Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

It feels like I've suffered for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long in this cruel existence I just never would had wished for and never would had chosen and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist.

I'll always see existing as only suffering and I suffer just from being conscious in this torturous existence I always saw as the most dreadful, terrible mistake, for me existence truly is the problem and it's one only eternal nothingness can solve and take away for me as if I don't exist I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in permanent non-existence and I really would just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I hope for is some peace, I just want to sleep and for me eternal sleep really is the only peace, it's all I see as desirable and as long as I exist I'll just wish to never suffer ever again. I wish for this painful, dreadful existence to be all gone for me but of course all the suffering just continues with me just hoping to not exist, for me non-existence really is the only relief and is all I see as desirable, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, for me non-existence where all is finally gone really is all that's positive, I just want this existence to finally be no longer my problem but of course I'm still trapped in this existence I never would had chosen, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, for me non-existence really is the only peace and is all I hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist.
I truly will only be at peace once I no longer exist and the peace of non-existence really is all I could hope and wish for, I'll just always see it as so deeply undesirable to exist and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I hope for is nothingness.

I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where there is no more pain and all is finally forgotten and I'll just always find it so painful and dreadful to be burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it just waiting to not exist anyway and for me non-existence really is the only relief, it's all I hope for and is all I could see as desirable, as long as I exist I really will just wish for some peace, I just want to never exist ever again but of course all the suffering of existing just continues, it really is all so dreadful to me and I just wish I never existed more than anything. I'll just always see existence as the most harmful, futile imposition that just causes and brings all this pain and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all so terrible to me, I'll just always see existence as the problem, to me existence truly is the most dreadful tragedy and I just wish this existence was never imposed, I just never should had suffered at all and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how unbearable it can all get, it's just so cruel to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence and it's tiredness only eternal sleep could ever take away for me and bring me relief from as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in the peace of eternal non-existence where all is finally forgotten and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake. For me eternal sleep really is the only relief and is all I see as desirable, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence I never would had chosen and would just never wish for, I'll just always see existing as only suffering and it's suffering only non-existence could take away for me.

I just want to never exist ever again but of course all the suffering of existing just continues and it's all so dreadful to me, I just wish that more than anything I was never burdened with this existence and I'll just always see it as a burden to exist, it's a burden so terrible and harmful that just brings all this pain and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and for me non-existence really is the only relief. I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence just waiting to not exist anyway and I'll just always see existing as waiting for death, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering I'm always so tired of, I just wish I never had to suffer more than anything, I really would never wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is always so terrible to me.
No matter what I'll just always see it as so terrible to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence and as long as I exist I'll only wish to be gone, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where nothing can concern me and all is finally forgotten, I just always see it as so terrible to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents and I'd just never wish to exist at all rather I only hope for non-existence, I'd just rather prevent suffering through ceasing to exist than prolong it just to suffer way more and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing, it's all just so dreadful to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

I just never should had been burdened with this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing, it's all just so dreadful to me and I just wish I never had to suffer more than anything, to me existence really is the problem and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist. Only non-existence can solve everything for me and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself, I'll just always find it so terrible to exist and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll just always find it so painful and dreadful to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence I never would had wished for and never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much pain in existing.
There truly is just so much pain in existing and it's all so dreadful to me, more than anything I just wish I was never forced to suffer, I just never should had been burdened with this existence of cruelty and unnecessary suffering I just always saw as the most terrible mistake and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing. I really never should had suffered at all in this torturous existence I'd never wish for but of course the suffering just continues with me just hoping to be gone and as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence where all is forgotten and finally I can be at peace.

I just want to never wake ever again and I always suffer just from being conscious in this painful existence where I hope and wait for death anyway and I'll just always find it so terrible to exist, to me existence really is the most harmful dreadful tragedy and it's one only non-existence can bring me relief from. I just want to never exist ever again but of course all the suffering and cruelty of existing just continues, it really is all so dreadful to me and more than anything I just wish I never had to suffer, I never should had been burdened with this existence I always saw as such a terrible mistake and there's just so much suffering in existing, I just want peace from it all, I just want to never exist ever again but of course all the pain just continues and I find it so painful to suffer in this existence just wishing to never wake, for me non-existence really is the only relief.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is just always an abomination to me.
No matter what I really will always see it as an abomination to suffer in this existence and I just wish I never suffered more than anything rather I just want to never wake ever again, only non-existence could ever bring me the peace and relief I search for from this existence I just always saw as a mistake.

I'll just always see existence as the most terrible tragedy, it's one that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I wish for is to not exist, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence, as long as I exist I really will just wish to sleep permanently. I just want to never wake ever again, I'll just always see it as the most cruel abomination to suffer in this existence and to me existing really is only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's all just so terrible to me and I wish I never had to suffer more than anything, nothing would ever make me wish for the cruelty of existing rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and take away what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only hope for non-existence where finally nothing can concern me and all is finally gone, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existence as a mistake.
No matter what I really will always see existence as a mistake and it's one that just causes and brings so much suffering and cruelty until non-existence takes away all anyway and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this torturous, futile existence and there's just so much suffering in existing.

It's all just so terrible to me and I'll just always find it a burden to exist, it's a burden only non-existence can take away for me and bring me relief from as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in an eternal sleep where finally all is gone and nothing can concern me and for this cruel, torturous existence to be no longer my problem is all I wish and hope for, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer and I suffer simply from existing. It's suffering only non-existence can bring me any peace from and as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to never suffer ever again, for me non-existence really is the only relief and is just all I see as desirable, I wish for no more suffering and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence, I just wish this existence was never imposed, I truly just never should had suffered at all and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how torturous and unbearable it can all get, I'd just never wish for any of this, I just only want to not exist instead, for me non-existence really is the only peace and is all I see as desirable, I wish for no more suffering.

 

[imsorryeveryone]

You seem to find life agonizing, may i ask then why you continue to persist?

Surely if life is so cruel and as horrifying for you as your posts make it out to be.

Surely a small amount of pain from any number of the CTB methods provided, would be worth the release from torture?

Not trolling just trying to understand.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me is only suffering.
To me existing really is only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'd just never wish for this futile, torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it rather all I want is to not exist, I just wish for the peace of eternal nothingness where all is finally gone and nothing can concern me.

For me non-existence really is the only relief, it's just all I see as desirable, to me existence truly does feel like the most terrible tragic mistake that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'll just always find it so dreadful to exist, to me existence really is the problem that only ceasing to exist can solve for me. I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I want is to never wake, I just want this deeply undesirable existence that to me is only suffering to be all gone and forgotten and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway. I really would just never wish for any of this rather I just want to be at peace and for me the only peace could lie in never suffering ever again, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, as long as I exist I really will just wish to not exist, I'd just never wish for this existence of suffering all for the sake of it where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tortured by old age and cease existing anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is the only relief for me.
It truly is the only relief for me and is all I could hope for in this torturous and cruel existence where there's all this suffering and I suffer simply from existing, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to never wake ever again. Only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence where I just hope and wait for death anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily, for me the peace of an eternal sleep really is all that's desirable and is all I could wish for.

I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, I really would just never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, for me non-existence really is the only relief and is all I hope for, I just want all to be gone for me, I just wish for this painful existence to be all forgotten and no longer my problem, I really am just always so tired of it all and it's tiredness only non-existence can bring me relief from, all I wish and hope for is to never wake ever again. I'll just always see existence as the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve for me as if I'm gone I cannot suffer, only eternal sleep can bring me the relief I search for from the suffering and cruelty of existing and I'll just always see it as so cruel, so dreadful and so torturous to exist, I'd just never wish to exist at all no matter what rather I just hope for peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring to cease existing.
No matter what I really would always prefer to cease existing than suffer in this cruel, torturous existence and I see it as the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result, I really will always find it so deeply undesirable to exist and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is to never wake ever again.

Non-existence really is all that can bring me the peace I search for and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this torturous existence I just never would had wished for and never would had chosen, simply just existing really is enough to make me wish for death and I'll always and only hope to not exist no matter what and I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, non-existence really is the only relief for me in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering and I suffer simply from existing. It's suffering only the peace of non-existence can take away for me as if I'm gone I cannot suffer, only non-existence can solve and bring me relief from what I see as the true problem which is existence itself, I just wish for no more pain and I'll just always find it painful to suffer in this torturous existence just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway, for me non-existence really is the only peace and is all I see as desirable, I just want to never exist ever again with all finally gone for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always the problem to me.
No matter what I'll always see existence as the problem and I just wish I never suffered, I'll just always see it as so terrible and dreadful to suffer so unnecessarily in this futile, cruel existence just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always see existing as just being waiting to die.

To me existence really is the most torturous, futile abomination and it's one that just causes and brings so much harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway, only non-existence can solve everything for me and take away what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself as if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in an eternal sleep where nothing can concern me and I'm no longer burdened with this existence I always saw as a mistake. For me non-existence really is the only peace and relief and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again, I see so much cruelty in how the suffering and torture of human existence is seen as to force and prolong no matter what, more than anything I just wish I never suffered and I'd never wish for the suffering of existing, for me eternal sleep really is the only peace and is just all I hope for, I just want all to be gone for me and I always suffer from existing, existing to me really is only suffering and I'll always and only wish to not exist no matter what, I just want all to be forgotten for me with no more pain and no more cruelty.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is an imposition.
Existence truly is an imposition that just causes so much harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this futile, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake.

For me non-existence really is the only peace and is all that's desirable, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and take away what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in non-existence. I just see it as the most terrible dreadful tragedy how this existence was even imposed causing all this harm and cruelty as a result and there's just so much suffering in existing, I suffer just from existing and it's suffering only eternal sleep can bring me peace from but of course more than anything I just wish I never existed, only never suffering at all is perfection to me. I'll just always see it as so dreadful and terrible to exist, I just wish I never had to suffer and I'll always see existing as being only suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it's all just so cruel to me and there's so much cruelty in existing, to me existence really is the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve for me and bring me peace from, I just hope for no more cruelty and no more suffering, as long as I exist I'll just wish to never exist again, I just want all to be forgotten.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is just an unnecessary harm.
To me existence really is just an unnecessary harm and I wish I never had to suffer more than anything, I'll just always find it so terrible and dreadful to suffer in this existence and I just wish I never suffered more than anything.

As long as I exist I really will just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather I just want this existence I always saw as a terrible mistake to be no longer my problem, I'll just always see existence as the most harmful, torturous abomination that just causes and brings so much pain and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'll always find it so painful to exist. To me existence really is the problem and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is nothingness, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this torturous, undesirable existence I just never would had chosen. To me existence is just so harmful and I'll always find it so terrible and dreadful to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence just waiting to die anyway and I'll just always see existence as waiting for death, it's all just so cruel to me and there's just so much cruelty in this torturous existence I just never would had chosen and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I wish for is some peace, I just wish for the peace of non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten and there is no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired.
I really am always so tired of suffering and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I'd never wish for any of this rather I just hope for eternal sleep and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently to escape from suffering and I'll always see existing as only being suffering.

I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me, I just want to never wake ever again and in this existence where there's all this cruelty and torture the only peace for me could lie in eternal sleep, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me with no more cruelty and no more suffering but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all just so dreadful, I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer and for me existing is only suffering. I suffer simply from existing and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to never wake ever again, for me non-existence really is the only relief and is all I see as desirable. I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this torturous existence rather I just want to not exist, only eternal sleep could ever bring me the relief I search for from this existence I always saw as a mistake and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, to suffer in this existence truly is so dreadful to me and there's just so much pain in existing, I just want to never wake ever again, I just wish for no more pain and I'll always find it so painful to be conscious burdened with this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is always so dreadful.
I really will always see existence as something so dreadful and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I'd never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I want is to never wake, I just wish for eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, to me existing truly is only suffering and I suffer simply from existing.

I just find it so dreadful to be burdened with this existence just suffering so unnecessarily hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want peace from this dreadful existence, I just want to never exist ever again but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so dreadful and painful to me, there's just so much pain in existing and it's pain only non-existence could ever take away for me. I just find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the relief I search for from this existence I just never would had chosen and would just never wish for and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I never should had been burdened with this existence of suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it that I just always saw as the most terrible mistake and there's just so much suffering in existing, I really would never wish for any of this rather I just want to be at peace from this dreadful existence I'd never would had chosen.