Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so deeply undesirable to exist.
No matter what I really will always find it so deeply undesirable to exist and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing, I'll just always see existence as the most terrible, tragic mistake no matter what and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I wish for is to not exist.

For me non-existence really is all that's desirable and is all I could hope for, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence, it's suffering only the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep could ever take away for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer and to never suffer ever again is all I could wish for, I'll just always see existence as something that just causes harm and I find it so harmful to be conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer in this deeply undesirable existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for and I'll just always see existing as just being futile, unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it and I'd just never wish for any of this, I just never should had been forced to suffer and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, I just wish for no more cruelty and no more pain and I'll always find it so painful to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence just waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always see existing as just being waiting to die.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish this existence was never imposed.
More than anything I just wish this existence was never imposed, I just wish I was never forced to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence I personally always saw as the most terrible mistake.

There's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, it's all just so dreadful to me and I just never should had been forced into this existence of suffering all for the sake of it that to me is only suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence where there's all this pain and I'll always find it so painful to exist, it's pain only eternal dreamless sleep could ever take away for me and bring me peace from as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer. There is no suffering in an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is to not exist, for me non-existence really is the only relief, I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence all for the sake of it just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and to me existing really is only suffering. Never existing at all truly would had saved me from so much unnecessary suffering and I'll just always find it so futile to exist, to me existence really is the problem and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, I'll always see existing as just being suffering and it's suffering only eternal sleep could ever take away for me, I just wish for no more pain and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence I just never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing to never wake ever again.
No matter what all I could ever wish for is to never wake ever again, I just wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering rather all I just want all to be gone for me in non-existence and I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existencs I personally always saw as the most terrible mistake.

I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence could take away for me and bring me relief from, I just only hope and wish for non-existence but of course all the suffering of existing just continues and I wish I could just choose to never wake ever again, only non-existence can bring me peace from this torturous, cruel existence I never would had chosen and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently to escape from and prevent unnecessary suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to die and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only the peace of non-existence could ever bring me any relief from and take away for me. I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and it feels like I've suffered for so long, for me eternal non-existence really is all I see as desirable, it's all I could hope for, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing and it just feels like I've suffered so much, only non-existence can solve everything for me, I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence I just never would had wished for and never would had chosen, I'll just always find it so dreadful to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is always so torturous to me.
No matter what I really will always find it so torturous to exist and more than anything I just wish I never suffered in this cruel, futile existence at all, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally forgotten.

For me non-existence really is the only relief and is all I see as desirable, I'd just never wish for the burden of existence and I find it so dreadful and terrible to be burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me and I'll always see existence as something so cruel, it's just so terrible to me how existence causes and brings all this suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and the suffering and torture of existing is endless. I'll just always find it so dreadful to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I just never would had chosen and all I wish for is no more suffering, I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence where I just hope and wait to not exist anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, all that existence does is just cause and bring suffering that there was never a need for and I personally suffer just from existing and as long as I exist I'll only hope for peace, for me peace could only lie in non-existence where all is finally gone and I can rest, I wish for no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that's desirable for me.
It really is all that's desirable for me, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence I never would had wished for, as long as I exist I really will just wish to sleep permanently, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing.

It's suffering only eternal sleep could ever take away for me and bring me relief from as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer and I'll just always find it so undesirable to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence just hoping and waiting to die, for me eternal sleep really is the only peace and is all I could wish for. I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering but of course all the suffering just continues and I'd never wish for any of this, for me non-existence really is all that's positive and is all I see as desirable, I wish to never suffer ever again and it just feels like I've suffered for so long, I wish I could just choose to fall asleep permanently. I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all suffering where all is finally gone and I'd just always prefer to forget about this existence, I just want some peace, I just want to not exist, only non-existence could ever bring me the relief I search for, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering non-existence is all I see as desirable and is all I'll wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it so horrific how a human can suffer for so long.
I truly do find it so horrific how a human can suffer for so long in this cruel, torturous existence and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I wish for is an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally forgotten.

I'll just always see it as an abomination to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts and it's one that non-existence can bring me peace and relief from, I'd just never wish for this harmful existence of unnecessary suffering rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for from the cruelty and torture of existing where I'm just hoping and waiting for death and I'll always just see existing as waiting to die. It's just suffering all for the sake of it and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep could ever take away for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable. I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as being only suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tortured by old age and cease existing anyway, I'll just always find it the most harmful, terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, to be burdened with this existence really is always something so dreadful to me, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again.
I truly do always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again as all I wish for is no more pain and no more suffering, I just see so much cruelty in how peaceful, guaranteed death is so cruelly denied for me as all I wish for is to not exist, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten and this dreadful, torturous existence is finally no longer my problem. I'll just always see it as so deeply undesirable to exist and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only the peace of eternal non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me any relief from as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer.

There is no suffering in non-existence rather for me non-existence is the only relief, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer just from existing, to me existence really is the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve for me and bring me peace from and I always suffer from how peaceful death is so cruelly denied for me with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong, more than anything I just wish I never suffered. I really never should had been burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, I'd just prefer to sleep permanently to escape from suffering and all I wish for is no more pain and no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed.
No matter what I really will always find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence of cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it was even imposed and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I wish for is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where there is no more pain and no more suffering and all is finally forgotten.

Existence really is just so cruel and torturous and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence I always saw as a mistake, for me existence truly is the problem and is one I'd just never wish for that only non-existence can bring me relief from, existing to me really is only suffering and I always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence just hoping and waiting to be gone, existence to me really is the most terrible imposition that just causes so much suffering until all is gone in non-existence anyway and more than anything I just wish I never had to suffer. I just never should had been burdened with this dreadful, cruel existence and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only eternal dreamless sleep could ever take away for me but of course all the suffering just continues and I just wish I never had to suffer, never existing really would had saved me from so much suffering in this dreadful, cruel existence and I'll just always find it so dreadful to be burdened with this existence just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway, I truly would never wish for any of this at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is an unnecessary harm.
It truly is an unnecessary harm to me and I'll just always find it so harmful to be burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it, to me existence really does feel like the most terrible mistake and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just wish for no more suffering and I'll always see it as an abomination to be forced to suffer in this horrific reality capable of suffering to unlimited and endless amounts and the suffering of existing is endless. It's all just so cruel and dreadful to me and I really never should had been forced to suffer rather all I wish for is non-existence, I just want to never suffer ever again and no matter what I'd prefer to not exist than be conscious in this reality suffering all for the sake of it.

I'd just never wish for existence rather to me existence is just something that causes and brings harm and suffering until all is gone and forgotten in non-existence anyway and I'd never wish to suffer, as long as I exist I'll just wish and hope to sleep permanently, I just want all to be gone for me. I wish I could just erase my existence so it's like I never suffered as existence is just so cruel, so painful and so harmful and there's just so much suffering in existing, I'll just always see this harmful existence as only being suffering no matter what and I suffer just from existing, it's suffering only eternal sleep could ever bring me any relief from, I just want to never wake again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring eternal sleep.
No matter what I really would always prefer the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep over suffering in this torturous, futile existence and I'd just never wish for any of this suffering rather I just want to not exist.

In this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering the peace of non-existence really would solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing. I'd never wish for any of this and as long as I exist I'll only wish for an eternal sleep where all is gone and forgotten and there is no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and for me non-existence really is always preferable. It's all I hope for, it's all I see as desirable, I just wish for permanent peace from all suffering but of course all the suffering of existing just continues and I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence, for me non-existence really is the only relief and is all I could hope for. I'm just always so tired of suffering and it's tiredness only eternal sleep can take away for me, I just want to never suffer ever again and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long and I'll always see existing as being only suffering, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this existence rather all I want is some peace, I just want all to be gone for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existing as just waiting to die.
No matter what I'll always see existing as just waiting to die, we are all just going to die anyway and that is inevitable, eventually this cruel, torturous existence will be all gone and forgotten which is all I hope for, I just wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering rather all I want is to never wake again. Only once I'm permanently unconscious and free from the burden of existence will I be at peace and I'll just always see it as the most futile burden to exist, it's a burden only non-existence can take away for me and bring me any relief from and I suffer just from being burdened with this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily.

I'll always see existing as only suffering, existing to me is just so futile, it's just suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for and I'm just always so tired of being burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily, I just wish I never suffered and I just never should had suffered at all, the fact that this existence was even imposed where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway is the most terrible tragedy to me and I suffer simply from existing. It's suffering only non-existence can bring me any relief from and I'd never wish for any of this, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I always suffer from being burdened with this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist suffering so unnecessarily and I just wish I never suffered.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is always so dreadful to me.
No matter what I really will always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence and I'd just never wish for this cruel, torturous existence rather I only hope for non-existence where all is finally forgotten and as long as I exist I'll have so much dread for what lies ahead.

I just find it so dreadful to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents and it's suffering only the peace of non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me any relief from, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering but of course all of the suffering of existing just continues and it's all so terrible to me, I just never should have suffered at all and I see it as so dreadful how this existence was so tragically imposed causing all this suffering and there's just so much cruelty and suffering in existing. It's all so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never exist ever again, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally gone and I can rest, I'd just never wish for any of this, to me existence really is just an abomination that just causes and brings all this suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I just always find it so dreadful to be burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll just always find it so painful to exist suffering all for the sake of it just waiting to not exist anyway.

 

[SovietSuicide]

I wish the best for you FC, thank you for commenting on my posts in the past.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existing as only suffering.
No matter what I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and it's all just so dreadful to me, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I hope for is an eternal sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten.

I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and it's tiredness only non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me peace from, I just wish for this cruel, painful existence to be all gone for me, I suffer simply from existing and I just find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this cruelty and suffering as a result and there's just so much suffering in existing. To me existence truly does feel like a terrible mistake and I'd never wish for any of this and I always suffer so much from how peaceful guaranteed death is so cruelly denied for me so I can finally escape from suffering as all I see as desirable is never suffering ever again, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I want is to sleep, I just want some peace. I just want to rest and I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again, I'd just never wish for any of this suffering rather I just want to not exist, for me non-existence really is the only relief and is all I see as desirable, I just hope to never suffer ever again and it feels like I've suffered for so long.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wishing for no more suffering.
No matter what all I could wish for is no more suffering, I just wish for an eternal sleep where this torturous and futile existence is finally all gone, forgotten and no longer my problem, I'll just always see existence as an unnecessary harm no matter what.

I'll just always find it so harmful to be conscious burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it and as long as I exist I'll just wish and hope to never exist ever again, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where this existence is no longer my problem, I'll just always see it as the most cruel burden to exist and it's a burden only non-existence can bring me relief from. I just wish to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently to escape from the suffering of existing and I'll always just see existing as being suffering all for the sake of it and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I'll always see existence as a burden that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I suffer simply from existing, as long as I exist I'll just wish to sleep permanently, I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only being suffering with no limit as to how unbearable and torturous it can all get, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for no more pain.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only ceasing to exist can bring me the relief I search for.
It truly is all that can bring me the relief I search for and as long as I exist I really will just hope for the peace and relief of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I wish for is non-existence. I personally just hope and wish to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering and cruelty of this torturous unnecessary existence just continues and it's all so terrible and dreadful to me.

I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence, no matter what I'd just never wish to suffer rather I only hope for some peace and for me non-existence really is the only peace and relief, I'll always see it as so dreadful to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence and as long as I exist I'll just hope for permanent relief from all the suffering and to me existing truly is only suffering, I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and there's just so much suffering in existing. I'd never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is the relief of non-existence, ceasing to exist really would solve everything for me and bring me so much peace, I just hope and wish to never exist ever again but of course I continue to be burdened with this existence just waiting to die anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, it's just unnecessary suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me really is just unnecessary suffering.
To me existing really is just unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer and more than anything I just wish I was never forced to suffer, I just never should had been burdened with this cruel, torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it and I personally suffer simply from existing.

It's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in eternal sleep where all is forgotten and I'll just always see it as so futile to exist, I see it as so futile to be burdened with this futile, dreadful existence suffering all for the sake of it and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and it's all just so terrible to me. I'd just never wish for this existence of cruelty and suffering I always saw as a mistake and it's just so terrible to me how there's all this suffering in existing, more than anything I just wish I never suffered at all, I just never should had been burdened with this existence of unnecessary suffering and as long as I exist I'll just hope for an eternal sleep where all is finally gone, for me existence really is the problem and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me any peace from and as long as I exist I'll just wish for no more suffering, I find it such a burden to exist and it's one that only ever caused me to suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence itself to me really is the problem.
It really is the true problem to me that just causes and brings so much suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for and I'll just always find it so dreadful and terrible to suffer in this existence, no matter what I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I want is to peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again.

I'll just always see existing as being only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I suffer simply from existing, just existing is enough to make me wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally gone and I personally suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me and bring me peace from and as long as I exist I'll just wish and hope to sleep permanently, I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal sleep but of course the suffering of existing just continues and it's all so terrible to me. I'd just never wish for any of this pain, I'd never wish for any of this suffering rather I just want to never exist ever again, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this torturous, deeply undesirable existence I always saw as the most cruel, harmful mistake and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this, only non-existence can solve and take away what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that could be positive for me.
It truly is all that could be positive for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in an eternal sleep where this futile, torturous existence is all forgotten and I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence and I'll just alwaya see it as a burden to exist.

It's burden only non-existence can take away for me, and for me non-existence really is all that's positive and is all I see as desirable, I just wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing in this torturous, futile existence where I just hope and wait to not exist and for me non-existence really is all that's desirable, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence. For me existing really is just suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me peace from and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to never wake ever again. In this existence where there's all this suffering the only relief for me could lie in eternal sleep and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence, it's tiredness only non-existence can take away for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer and to be at permanently at peace from this existence is just all I see as desirable, I'll just always see it as so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is always an abomination to me.
No matter what I really will always see it as an abomination to suffer in this existence and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, all I wish for is to never wake ever again, to me existence really does feel like the most terrible mistake that causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer.

I just always find it so deeply undesirable to exist and to me existence really is the problem, I'll just always see existence as an abomination that just causes harm and suffering and I suffer just from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can ever bring me relief from, existence is just so harmful and more than anything I just wish I was never forced to suffer so unnecessarily in this dreadful, torturous existence and I'll just always find it so dreadful to exist suffering all for the sake of it. Simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death and I'll always and only hope to not exist, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where nothing can concern me and finally I can be at peace and only non-existence could ever bring me the peace I search for from the torturous abomination of existence and I'll just always see it as an abomination to suffer so unnecessarily in this cruel, torturous existence I'd just never wish for and never would had chosen, more than anything I just wish I never had to suffer, I never should had been burdened with this existence at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired.
I really am always so tired of suffering in this existence and it's tiredness only the peace of non-existence can take away for me, I just want to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again and I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like falling into an eternal sleep as non-existence really is all I could hope for and is all I wish for. I've always felt so tired and always will do, it's tiredness only the peace of non-existence can bring me relief from and as long as I exist I'll just wish to never suffer ever again, I'll always find it so painful to exist and all I wish for is no more pain and no more suffering.

I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep to bring me permanent peace from the suffering of existing and I'll just always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how unbearable it can all get and I suffer just from existing, I really wish to just never wake ever again. I only hope for some peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence where all is finally forgotten and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily, I'm just so tired of suffering and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from, I really just want to never wake ever again and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently, for me existence truly is always the problem, I just wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence I'm always so tired of that just brings so much pain.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me could never be worth it.
To me existence truly could never be worth it rather I just see existence as an unecessary harm that just causes and brings so much pain and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'll just always find it so painful to exist, existence to me really is the problem and I'm just always so tired of suffeing in this cruel, futile existence, for me existence really could never be a desirable state rather it's something I just wish and hope for peace from.

I'll just only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence and I'll just always find it the most futile, torturous burden to exist, it's a burden only non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me relief from as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death. I'll only hope and wish for death no matter what as for me existence itself really is the true problem and I suffer simply from existing. It's suffering only the peace of non-existence can take away for me, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just want to not exist, I really will only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it that to me was just never worth it, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and it feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I just never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is always so dreadful to me.
No matter what I really will always find it so dreadful to exist and I suffer simply from existing, I'd just never wish for this dreadful, torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it rather I just only hope for non-existence, the only relief for me could lie in an eternal sleep where all is finally gone and this cruel existence is finally no longer my concern and I just find it so dreadful how there's all this cruelty and suffering in existing with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and it just feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I always saw as a mistake and it's just so terrible to me how there's all this suffering in existing.

As long as I exist I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead and I'll just always find it so dreadful to sufferso unnecessarily in this torturous existence I personally always saw as a mistake and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all just so cruel and painful to me and I'd just never wish for the pain of existing rather I just want to never wake ever again. Only eternal dreamless sleep could ever bring me the relief I search for from this cruel existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist and and as long as I exist I'll just wish tp sleep permanently, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me but of course I continue to suffer and as long as I exist I'll just hope and wish for peace from all suffering, I just want all to be gone for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wanting to suffer in this torturous existence.
No matter what I really would just never wish to suffer in this torturous existence and more than anything I just wish I was never burdened with this existence at all, I just never should had suffered but of course all the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues and it's all so cruel and dreadful to me, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to never exist ever again. I'd just never wish for the suffering of this cruel, torturous existence I personally always saw as the most terrible mistake and I see it as all so futile, existing to me really is just suffering all for the sake of it, I'll always find it so torturous to be burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily.

Existence is a burden and it's one only non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me any peace from as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way and all I wish is for this cruel existence to finally be all forgotten and no longer my problem and I'll just always see existence itself as the problem. I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to exist and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I only hope for dreamless eternal sleep, I just want to never wake ever again but of course all the pain and suffering of existing just continues, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I really never should had been burdened with this existence that just caused and brought so much suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so terrible to exist.
No matter what I'll always find it so terrible to exist and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this futile, torturous existence rather I only hope for non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence.

I just find it so dreadful how this existence was even imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result and I'll just always find it so harmful to exist, for me existence itself really is the problem and it's one that just causes so much suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only the peace of an eternal sleep could ever bring me any relief from as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there are no disadvantages to not existing which is why it's all I'll hope for, I just find it so terrible to exist and to me existing is only suffering. I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence and I wish this existence was never imposed, I just never should had suffered at all but of course all the suffering just continues with me trapped in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, it's all so dreadful and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just hope for no more pain and no more suffering, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering of existing just continues, it's all so dreadful to me and I'm just so tired of it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all I've hoped for.
It truly is all I've hoped for and is all I could wish for, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where this torturous, cruel existence is finally all gone for me and there is no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me, I just only see non-existence as desirable.

I'll always see it as so deeply undesirable to be burdened with this futile existence suffering so unnecessarily just hoping and waiting to die and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, for me non-existence really is all that's positive and in this cruel, torturous existence the peace of non-existence would solve everything for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer and to never suffer ever again is all I could hope for. I just wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake and there's just so much cruelty and pain in existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake, I wish for this existence to be all gone and forgotten for me. I'm just always so tired of suffering so unnecessarily in this existence and it's tiredness only non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I just want this existence to be no longer my problem and I'll just always see existence itself as the true problem no matter what, it's all just so dreadful to me, I always wish I could just choose to never wake, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer just from existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just feels like a mistake to me.
It truly does feel like such a dreadful, terrible mistake to me and more than anything I just wish I never suffered at all, I never should had been burdened with this cruel, torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it that I never would had chosen and nothing would make me wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, I just want to never suffer ever again. I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as being only suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, to suffer in this existence really is always so terrible and dreadful to me.

I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for from the mistake of existence that I just never would had chosen and would never wish for and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I just never should had been forced into this torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it and I suffer simply from existing, I'll just always see existence as an abomination that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I personally suffer just from this existence. I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again to escape from and find peace from suffering and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this futile, torturous existence, it's tiredness only non-existence can bring me relief from, I just want to never exist ever again, for me existence truly is the problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Fear of existence.
I truly do fear existence, I fear the abomination of existence that just causes and brings all this harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'll just always find it so harmful to suffer in this futile and torturous existence.

I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only eternal dreamless sleep can take away for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there are no disadvantages to the peace of non-existence where finally all is forgotten and nothing can concern me and I'd just always prefer to not exist, as long as I exist I really will just always have so much dread for what lies ahead and I just always find it so dreadful to be conscious in this existence suffering all for the sake of it. I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only the peace of an eternal sleep can take away for me, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as being only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and the suffering and torture of existing is endless. It's all so terrible to me and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I'd never wish for the burden of existence, the fact that I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again is extreme cruelty to me and I always suffer so much from it, I really would just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I want is to not exist, only in eternal sleep will I be at peace and the peace of an eternal sleep is all I see as desirable, I just wish for no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed.
No matter what I'll just always find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result and I'll always see existing as only being suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. It's all just so terrible and dreadful to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, for me non-existence really is all that is desirable and is all that can bring me the relief I search for from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing.

I personally suffer just from being conscious in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake and I'd just never wish to suffer at all, never existing would had saved me from so much suffering in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and to me existing really is just waiting to die. It's just suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for and more than anything I just wish I never suffered, I just never should had been forced into this torturous existence I just never would had wished for and never would had chosen and nothing would make me wish to exist rather I just hope for nothingness. I really will only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it and I just suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me relief from, I just wish for no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing for the burden of existence.
No matter what I'd just never wish for the burden of existence and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, nothing would ever make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of this futile, torturous existence rather I just want to never wake ever again and in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured non-existence really is the only peace for me.

I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I always suffer just from being burdened with this existence, I'll just always see it as a burden to exist and it's one only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake ever again. I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all suffering where I'm no longer burdened with this existence and I'd just never wish for the burden of existence rather all I want is to not exist, for me the only peace could ever lie in never existing ever again and as long as I exist I'll only wish for nothingness. I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I'll just always see it as the most cruel, torturous burden to exist, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, all I wish for is to be unconscious for all eternity, I really would never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, I want to never exist again.